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Hey there! Today imma keep it short as well. I hardly did anything. Maybe studied for 30 minutes, otherwise just spent time on my PC.

But I made one interesting discovery. As you probably know, I’m a dude. -> Not a female, so I don’t really know, how women think and so on. I don’t really understand them. So this makes it really interesting. And today, YouTube recommended a video of a woman speaking specifically to other women. So I was just like a spy in the audience.

What did I learn? Not that much yet – but with each female-focused video I watch, I hope to get (a little) more “female-contend” recommended. But I’ll keep you posted!

Unrelated to that: Today was my brothers turn to cook. At first, he just wanted to make some pasta with tuna-salad. But I don’t like tuna salad… So I successfully convinced him, to make something different. Then we had a BBQ. Another big win in my book!

But that’s it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow – hopefully with something more interesting to tell you! Until then, take care! Bye-Bye!

Hello! You might already see, that these are 2 entries within one. You’ll quickly see, why I didn’t write one yesterday.

25th

During the day, I studied for a bit, only semi-focused, but I’m now basically done with measure theory. I’m happy with that. Then, in the evening, I met with Daniel, Josh, Yanis, Pete and some more, and we went to a “beer-night” / “beer days”.
What is this? Some beer brewers go there, and show the beer they brewed. So basically you drink a lot of (possibly) different beers. And believe me: I did do that!

I don’t really know anymore what we did, but yeah. I did a few oopsies.
1. When Daniel wanted to go home with the last train, I stopped him (just didn’t let him go) so he’d miss it (which he did) and my plan was, that he then stayed a little longer with us. Turns out, he missed the train, but didn’t hang with us -> he waited at the train station for like 1 hour.
(We even met him again, when we decided to go to a club -> he didn’t join)
That’s basically the only oopsie, we mention here.

So we went to the club. It was way too loud, and there were way to many people. Not really my type shit, but yeah. At least, I didn’t really spend any more money in the club (I believe), so only like 15 bucks entry fee.

Some time later, I got home, completely wasted at like 3:30am. -> Went to bed.

26th

I woke up at like 9:30ish, and my head hurt like a bitch. I drank some water, quick bathroom break, showered and went back to sleep. I woke up again, at ~11:30 – my head was still hurting. it hasn’t been this bad in quite some time – ngl.
I then just waited in bed until lunch. For lunch, I had a yogurt and one piece of bread. Didn’t really feel like eating. But then, shortly after lunch, my headache went away, and I went back to normal. As you do!

I then spent the whole day doing nothing. Just watching some YouTube.

That’s it for today! I’ll see you again tomorrow! Until then, take care, and Bye-Bye!

Hey! Today was pretty much the same as yesterday. Except, I had some more breaks, and then organized some more for the next volleyball season. That means: wake up -> studying -> bed, with occasional breaks.

Also, my ordered clothes arrived today. I didn’t try them on yet. DIdn’t feel like it. Also, because I had a nose bleed, and didn’t want to get any blood on the new clothes.
Speaking of nose bleed: In the last like 2 weeks, I bled like 4 times on a white t-shirt. It’s like the stupidest thing. It were even 4 different shirts… But most (all) of the blood got off. Still annoying though.

Also, my eyes are inflamed -> I might have / get a conjunctivitis. We all know where that’s from 🙁 Oh no!

But that’s it for today! I’ll see you tomorrow! Take care and Bye-Bye!

Bonjour! Today wasn’t that interesting. I woke up -> started to study & pretty much studied for most of the day. I had one quick YouTube break in the afternoon (15min) and one long break in the evening, once I was done with my daily tasks.

So I’d say, I’m pretty much back on track for my goal for this week.

Otherwise, nothing that important happened. Spent like 10 minutes outside eating an ice, even though it was kinda could, cloudy and started to rain.

But yeah, that’s it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Until then, take care! Bye-Bye!

Hello! I keep it short today.

In the morning, I blocked YouTube, Instagram, my streaming site and so, on my PC. With the obvious goal of studying. And not that surprisingly, it worked out okay-ish. That means, I studied for most of my day.

In the afternoon I went outside to have an ice in the “sun” (cloudy weather) and then I remembered, that I was supposed to cook today. Since I totally forgot to take out any meat from the fridge, I couldn’t cook what I initially planned. So I cooked smashed potatoes with meatballs, gravy and beans (the green, long ones).

And wouldn’t you know it: When cooking the easiest meal, the most things went bad.
1. I made the beans in the steamer (my first time with a steamer) so I just went as it instructed. Then, once I was done cooking, the beans weren’t done yet.
2. For the mashed potatoes: Once the water is cooking, I have to put in some butter. So I took some butter with a knife, and of course, it dropped right into the air-filter of our stove. So while the water was boiling and steaming to the butter, I tried to get it out of there. -> We then had a butter filter.
3. While making the gravy, the steamer notified me, that I have to put some more water in it. While I did that, the gravy boiled over. Nice!
4. Not really my mistake, but no-one really ate from the beans. So just some work by me for no reason.
5. Emily told me, she would help me with the dishes, but then she didn’t 🙁

Anyway. The food wasn’t even that good. Reminder: Next time I’m making meatballs, I need some of this Swedish “jam” thing. These berries, you also get in IKEA.

Once I was done with the dishes, my mom and I went to the forest, and walked for about 20 minutes. It was quite nice. Spring is everywhere. Most trees are already green, birds chirping and so on. And of course, being outside is also good.

Then back home, I had a “quick” YouTube break (watched one Los Ratones video), and then went back to studying.
The studying doesn’t really go that good. I think, I underestimated it a little. (I’m studying measure theory.) I also struggle to imagine things. But I expect, it will be better in a few days.

So just before I took a shower, and now I’m writing (to) you. That’s my whole day today! I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care and see you then! Bye-Bye!

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P.s. today was a kinda weird day… Everything just felt off somehow It started ib the morning, when the writing (with a pen) felt kinda weird and so on.

also, I’m not so sure, if it was the right choice to go to Malte with some friends this summer. I mean, we already booked and so on, but still. Not sure.

Maybe, I’m just a little down at the moment – we’ll ser(?).

so bye now for real. Sleep well!

My Day

Herrow! As you might recall, I had to write my professor, since I didn’t do the measure-theory assignments and therefore (ordinarily) wouldn’t be allowed for the exam. (I wrote him like 2 weeks ago.) Now, he replied yesterday and said, if I email him my handwritten notes of these assignments until 5. May, I can still take this exam. So my goal for this week is to do all these assignments and then get up to date with the probability calculations.

With that in mind: Today I only studied for about 30 minutes haha… I couldn’t focus that good, and I was still in the middle of Numb3rs. That means, for the most part, today I watched Numb3rs. I am kinda disappointed in myself, but now I finished with this series -> time to focus is here!!

In the afternoon, though, I went outside to eat an ice. It was really windy, warm-ish and cloudy. So I thought:” time to fly my kite”. And I did that. It’s always nice, since it’s really calming in a way.
I also thought about these people who have kite-flying as a hobby. With like huge kites, with different shapes (like a crab and so on). And I thought, this would be kinda nice. It’s something that also gives some joy to others – but you’re really dependent on the weather…

That’s about all I did today. Ah, I also finished my chocolate bunny (already – haha).

Ah, also: Just before, I was in the shower. As usual, I jerked it a little, but it was kinda sad. I mean with no porn – and I don’t really have a goal in mind. Or a crush or anything like that. I thought, this is kinda sad. So I might just get back into the dating game. Not today, but soon!

So that’s it for today! I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care – Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I do it just like yesterday, because I thought it was a good way. That means, it felt easier to write.

My Day

Morning: Woke up early, too late for the sun to still hit my bed tho 🙁 Didn’t really know what to do -> wasted time on PC. Was rainy, so also good excuse to stay inside.
Yesterday, I wrote, that I talked about my ex with Emanuel and it didn’t affect me. Today though, I thought more about her than in the last week. (More = more frequently.) Wasn’t too bad. I could distract myself rather easily. I think, I thought more of her, since I wasn’t really doing anything. So it might be a bit biased.

Lunch: Since it was Easter today, we had a brunch with the family.

Afternoon: Spent more time on PC. Read about how you detect if two texts are written by the same author or different ones. I think, I might code a program to do this. Since I really think, this might be interesting to do. (I asked chat gpt, how it’s usually done, and every part it mentioned, I’m able to do – since I pretty much have done it already.) Also I read about fingerprint detection – how this is done. Also quite interesting. With the sub-groups (loop, whirl, and arch) and so on.

Evening: My foster brother was over, since his GF is currently on a vacation in Ecuador & also Easter. We had fondue chinoise which is basically a hot pot in the middle of the table, and then every person has a fork to put meat on, boil it in the pot, and then eat it.
Talked a bunch and so on. Pretty normal evening.
Then my dad hid chocolate bunnies, which we then had to search. I was the one, who found them as first. So maybe I should become a private investigator.
After that, we went for a quick drive in Jerry’s car, since it’s electric and my parents are thinking about buying an electric car for themselves.
Then we had ice for desert & that’s about it.

Rest of evening some more time on PC and taking a shower.

That’s my whole day there. So I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care & see you! Bye-Bye!

My Day

Hello, today I’ll keep it short, since tired, and not late, so I might go to bed early.

Morning: Sex dream(?), don’t remember about what. Just know, it was some weirdish thing. Otherwise nothing special

Afternoon: At first, just chilling, then going out to play beach volleyball (at 5am) with Daniel, Emanuel and some more. Was (somewhat) fun. had a injured shoulder, got worse (unsurprisingly). Initially, wanted to go earlier, since Daniel just went to India, he didn’t catch the train -> I was too early -> had to wait 30 mins. He then told me, how India has been & even got me a chain as a present.

Evening: played beach volleyball until like 8pm. Then went to pick up some food and ate outside. Classic Döner Kebab evening.
Then got home at about 11pm.

As a small more precise mention: I talked with Emanuel about females, and of course my ex came up, but I don’t think, this damaged (bad word, for like negatively impacted me / my mood – have to check on this again tomorrow though) me. At least in the moment, it felt absolutely fine. Also, it wasn’t like embarrassing (which it usually kinda feels like) to talk about her. So that’s a step in the right direction. (I guess…)

Spent some time on PC, and now am writing this.

So that’s all. I’ll see you tomorrow! Take care and see you then! Bye-Bye!

My Day

Morning and Afternoon – Eating Big & Chilling

Hello There! Today, I saw a video, where they made fun of someone journaling with the line “Dear diary! haha”. So now I’m not writing dear diary anymore! 🙁

But what did I do today? Not too much. I slept until like 12. And then we had lunch at home. Usually, I can’t really eat, right after waking up. But today was different. I ate like a big boy (haha). That means like 4 sandwiches and 2 breads with jelly.

Then, in the afternoon, I just spent some time on my PC. Nothing that mentionable. My parents had some friends over (friends from my moms high-school time). It’s always somewhat funny with them. I can’t really put it into words, but yeah.

Dinner – Raclette

For dinner we had Raclette, which is always nice, but tomorrow, my tummy is gonna hurt in the morning. Well, only probably, since I didn’t eat too much.

Night – Watching Encanto

Then, after dinner I watched the movie “Encanto”. I fully embraced the movie watching. I even made myself some popcorn. (That means, I put a bag in the microwave.) Now to the movie:

This is a movie about a family, where everyone has a gift. For example, one is really strong, one has visions of the future, ones food heals wounds and so on. Except, the main character is the only one of the family who doesn’t have any such gift.
This gift is is dependent on the magic candle, which then gets really weak in the movie. So the main character has to save it.
Spoiler Alert: The solution is to love each other. So she has to make friends with her perfect sister (at least in the beginning).

What are the insights? Love is good! Nothing really new here. Also, it was nice, the really strong female had a song, where she said that sometimes she can’t lift more every time. Sometimes it’s too much load. Obviously not only physically speaking – but it was good, since she was the strong character.

There was also one scene, where I’ve seen Abuela’s past. She had to escape from her town with her husband and three babies, since they were attacked by thieves(?). Then these thieves were after them, and her husband sacrificed himself, so the others could get away.
In this scene, I imagined myself being the widow here. And I got some watery eyes. Which was quite surprising. I think, getting widowed it’s about the worst. Since: 1. in a relationship, you make the promise that you stay together forever. Now, if you get widowed, you made everything right (since neither broke up) but the worst still happened. So it’s a somewhat cruel fate from the universe. You do everything right, find the right partner, have it good, and then he dies. I think, this is even worse than being broken up with. Because like that, it was obviously not the correct partner (otherwise you wouldn’t break up). So then by death, all you did was right, but still. The worst outcome.

Now back to the movie review. They of course lose their power for a short time, but then in the end, they all get it back. I first thought, it would have been better, if they didn’t get their power back (because of consequences and so on) but then, it’s a children’s movie. So what can you really say?
Also, the main character didn’t get any power. Which I thought was really mean. I mean, of course, she saved the family through showing them, that love is what’s needed, but still. She was the one, who had to do all the things, and then, she was the worst off. Another kinda bad fate.

But the movie was good. 7/10. Not the best, but still good. Also had a few funny haha’s in it.

Drinking too much?

On a complete unrelated note: Today, I tracked how much water I drank. And it’s quite a lot. About 6 liters. And I didn’t do any physical activities. So I’m not too far off of my daily limit. I suspect, it’s because of the creatine, and the doing some lifting yesterday and the day before. So I guess, this is gonna go down in about a week.

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That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care, and see you then! Bye-Bye!

My Day

Dear Diary! Today, I set an alarm for 9am to check, if I have to teach as a TA today. Now I didn’t see any new messages, so I thought, I’m fine out. But wouldn’t you know, I didn’t really look that good. (I also checked yesterday evening, but then I didn’t see the message either.) So I went back to sleep, and slept until 12 o’clock. And, of course then, I see the message… Shit. Well, happens. At least, someone still went.

Then in the afternoon, I corrected the students exercises. Nothing special here. Once I was done with that (at about 5pm) I spent some time on YouTube until dinner.

After dinner, I spent some more time on my PC, and then went to the gym. At first, I wasn’t sure, if I really wanna go, but then I knew, it’s now or never. So I did go. Today I trained legs. Which was a good choice, since my arms & shoulders were still a little sore from yesterday.

When doing squats, I felt really strong, so I went for a new pb. That is 95kg for 8 reps. I successfully did this, but once I got the bar off, it hit me. I got really dizzy, my vision on the periphery started to go blurry, and I started a little stumbling around. I then had to take a break for like 4 minutes where I just sat around and waited until it was over. Nonetheless, new pb! Soon I’ll squat 100kg (hopefully)!

Then I did some more leg exercises, and romanian deadlifts. There, I had the problem, that my grip wasnt strong enough. So for the first time, I got wrist straps to actually help me. (That means, I figured out, how to use them; haha)

Once I was back at home, I had a protein shake, spent some time on my PC, showered, and now I’m writing (to) you!
But in the shower, I had this memory of some female I’ve seen in the train come up. I thought she was really attractive. And I imagined dating her and shit. I even tried to talk myself into asking her for her number. But then, I remembered, that I was a pussy, so that’s not gonna happen (probably & sadly)…

That’s about all for today. Not the most interesting day – was a good day still. (Except the weather, since it was cold and rainy-ish.)
I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care and see you then! Bye-Bye!