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Hi! Today not that much had happened. I slept basically until lunch
-> go to university and listen to two talks from the PHD-students (they were OK. Basically like last week, the easier to understand talk was not that interesting, and the other seemed more interesting, but I didn’t get all of it)
-> go back home
-> cook dinner (I made Penne with Bolognese)
-> eat dinner
-> do the dishes with my mom
-> some PC time
-> volleyball practice (since Daniel had his practical drivers exam yesterday, he did drive today.
Also, after practice, I did ask Daniel if he could make a song sampling an old famous song (for example like “New Slaves” by Kanye West, or just a full on melody joinking type shit). We then thought, the song “Sunshine, Lollipops and Rainbows” would be a good fit.)
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-> go back home
-> watch some twitch
-> bed

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! I’m super tired -> short.

get up early
-> go to uni
-> numeric lecture
-> go in the third story & solve combinatorics exercises. I was done after nearly one hour, and from then on, I didn’t really have anything to do.
-> Lunch (I had a pizza – it was good & funnily enough, JP was sitting just 2 places next to me at our table, by sheer coincidence. So I also talked a little with him.)
-> swift round geoguessr (I got 3rd / 5 – surprisingly good for me!)
-> meeting because of my bachelors thesis (I’m good on time! Next step is synthetic data generation & then my idea)
-> some more time doing nothing and waiting for the lecture in the afternoon
-> lecture
-> going home
-> in the train, I met a fella, with whom I went to 7&8th grade, so I talked with him on the way back
-> back at home, I was quite tired, so I just spent time on PC
-> dinner
-> some more PC time
-> shower
-> now I’m writing (to) you

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Funnily enough, today I once more thought about the Asian woman, which I mentioned yesterday – lul.

Hello! As it’s already kinda late, imma keep it short today.

Morning: Get up surprisingly early, since I didn’t really go to bed at an appropriate time yesterday -> go to uni -> seminar (I was asked a question, but I was able to answer it fully – SUI) -> go back home.

On the train-ride home, in the sitting-area (don’t recall the correct word atm) next to me, was an Asian type woman. She had really good drip – no cap! I was thinking of asking her out, but no balls and so I didn’t. Also, I would most probably have lost face, since there were some more people in the train with us.

Back at home, I ate lunch and talked with my dad.

Afternoon: At first, I just watched some twitch stream (illegaly) and then solved the applied optimization programming part. It was surprisingly easy. I mean, I pretty much just had to type some mathematical definitions into c++.

-> dinner (pumpkin soup) -> volleyball practice ->

The practice was quite bad, w.r.t. volleyball, but it was really fun. I mean, we listened to some music – Christmas music – and just vibed, and we also just happened to play volleyball. lol.

-> go back home -> watch some videos and twitch (illegaly) -> now I’m writing (to) you.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Louis drove me to practice (I car hopped) and then he showed me his Instagram story (since I don’t have Instagram anymore). As he was driving, I had the phone, and then I checked, who reacted to his story (since I saw, that he’d gotten some likes) and then no-one special did like the story (lol). BUT, I did also see a few of the people who had seen the story, and my ex happened to be at the top of that list. What the helly?
Actually, I did kinda spiral a little (only a little). But just now, I read up, that the order of the first ~50 people is just in chronological order. So I guess, she just happened to be on Instagram. Super cool!

Hello! I’m writing for two days here, since yesterday, I didn’t sleep at home & I was too drunk lol.

25th

In the morning, I didn’t do that much. I slept out, and then made myself ready for the volleyball game, which was at 14:30.

We pretty much all went there together with the train, which I always like. It wasn’t a long train-drive either, so it was pretty much perfect.

About the game: We rather easily won the first 2 sets. Good. Then, I substituted some more players, and then the mood on the court was kinda whack. So we did something stupid. Which is lose 3 more sets. -> We lost 2:3.
It was really annoying at first, but in all reality, we were better than expected. I mean, our opponents want to rank up, so they basically have to win each and every game, whereas we only want to remain in the same league. So we (or at least I) are “happy” with that result.

Then, after the game, I had a long shower – with Daniel and loads of beer (actually not loads off, but 2 lol). Nice!

After that, I went to Yanis and Leah, since they had their birthday “party”. I arrived some time early, since I had my game near their home.
What did we do? They invited us to a Raclette evening, with some beers and shit. So basically a unc party. I fit just right in hehe. It was fun and yeah.

Quickly on a serious note: I talked to Leah about her meeting my ex. I did tell her how I feel about it and shit. It was quite bad, I mean, I nearly started to cry like a little bitch. (I got somewhat teary eyes, but not really you know.) And she did understand (I believe). I mean, she did tell me, that she’d much rather not hang out with my ex but with me. (Not really a surprise there lol).
All in all, though, I’m glad I did it. It may not have been the easiest, but yeah. Good shit.

Then, back to partying: We sang a bit of karaoke, and I got really blasted. I actually don’t remember all lol. Some time later, Josh and I nearly fell asleep in Yanis & Leah’s bed lol.

Also, I did get a present of Josh and Ellie – they invited me (& Yanis & Leah) to spending a weekend at the house of Ellie’s parents in a mountain. Some time in January. So that’s gonna be wild!

Anyway: When we wanted to go home, we checked if the night-bus drives, but it didn’t seems as it did (we suspect the time change is at fault). So in the end, Josh, his GF & I slept there. Ellie and Leah on the bed, and Josh, Yanis and I on the couch. (It was actually quite OK – we said, on the next road trip, we’ll take the couch with us lol.)

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26th

I woke up multiple times during the night, and had to go to the toilet. Bad thing is, since the apartment was rather old, it was so loud just to walk around there. But yeah, you gotta do what you gotta do.

The last time I did wake up, I didn’t even have a headache anymore. Kinda surprising for real, since I really did drink a lot.

Not too long thereafter, we went back home. At home, I did eat lunch with my family. After that I spent some time on my PC -> took a nap -> more PC time -> dinner -> more PC time -> shower & now I’m writing (to) you. Also, I did read the paper for tomorrow – proud!

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I hardly did anything during the day. I at least watched one applied optimization lecture, but that’s already about it.

Then, after dinner, Jordan and I put some more time onto our car. We emptied the fuel-tank, took off the fuel pump and fuel filter. Then, since it had so much rust on each and every metal connector connecting the fuel line, so we didn’t install the new things.
After that, we wanted to order the things we need (new clamps and pipes). But the thing, directly after the fuel-pump (right angle connecting thing), we didn’t find. We searched for nearly one hour. Really annoying.

Then, I (illegally) watched some Trackmania stream -> shower -> now I’m writing (to) you (at 3:00). And about now, I’m gonna go to bed.
That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Apparently, yesterday I forgot to write my diary lul. Nothing special happened though, so it’s no biggie.

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22nd

Morning as usual. In the afternoon, I did have to go to university for my bachelors thesis seminar. There, 2 PHD-students held a presentation about their current work.
The first was about graph-edit-distance (which is basically “how much operations you need in order to get graph G to G’ “). This one was more interesting, but I didn’t understand all of it.
The 2nd one, was about predicting river temperature based on air temperature and maybe find some hidden patterns. But this was quite boring, ngl.

After that, I went back home, helped Emily cook, and then after dinner I had volleyball practice. Since my left knee really hurt (on Tuesday too btw) I was only the coach for this session. It was good for the players though, since I could really focus on them for once.

Once practice was over, I showered, went home, and that’s about it.

Though, I did have a really hard time falling asleep. I had a really dry throat, and had to cough a lot. Also, I did wake up like twice in the night. :(

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I did (kinda) really get back on hinge. I sent out all of my likes. Also, Josh said once, that I was too picky, but this time I don’t think so. My current push is quite good. So it doesn’t take me that long to send out all of my 8 daily likes.

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23rd

I slept kinda long (~10:30), since I had a hard time falling asleep. But today I didn’t really do anything. I cheated my internet-blocker in the afternoon, since I didn’t want to do math, and I have already solved all of this weeks Sudoku (lul).

In the afternoon, my parents new car arrived. Then, we quickly had to go pick up the Twingo, since they left it somewhere. Directly after that, I did go for a quick grocery shopping with Emily, since I had to cook today.

Once we got back home, we already started cooking (it was about 16:45). We made Pizza – something, everyone likes!
We did test 2 different kinds of cheese. One was just basic Mozzarella, and the other was some Pizza-cheese-mix. (4/5 preferred the Mozzarella, since it wasn’t as dry.)

After dinner, I spent some more time on my PC -> shower & now I’m here writing this.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! First, a bit about yesterday evening. As I took a nap in the afternoon, I couldn’t really fall asleep. Though, I was tired, but I still couldn’t fall asleep. And my mind was going back and fourth about my relationship with my ex (as kinda mentioned before).
Then, it progressively got worse and shit. Then I took at the pictures of my ex and me together (since I didn’t really delete them off of my phone), and then I realized, that we weren’t really dating for that long (only 9 months). Which, oddly enough really helped. But yeah, after trying to fall asleep for about 1.5 hours, I did manage to.

Oh, also, yesterday evening, I was quite sad, so I did listen to sad music. To fit the vibe – you know. (It’s always a risky business as commonly known by me.)

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Today morning: I had to get up kinda early (7:15) and then go to university. I did still listen to a bit of sad music, but it was manageable. I had some lectures, and solved some exercises. Then, it was already time for lunch.

Lunch: It’s quite sweet, the others ask every week about my Porsche, and how it’s going. It’s basically the number one conversation shifter, and basically everyone hopes that we solve it soon lul.

After lunch, we played 3 rounds of geoguessr, and then I solved some more exercises. Then, we all went to a grocery store before our afternoon lecture.
At first, I didn’t want to go, but then they asked me to join them, so I did. (I was really happy, that they asked me to join them.) I didn’t buy anything though. In the store were self-checkout thingies, and I just walked through there (since I didn’t have anything to pay for). As I was waiting at the exit, one of my friends jokingly asked me, if I had scanned all my things (a worker from there was just standing next to us) and I replied with “no, I stole everything” while looking at the worker. She actually did find it quite funny, so she didn’t check me. lol.

Then, lecture -> back home -> spend some time doing nothing -> dinner.

After dinner -> spending some time on YouTube (during this time, I quickly helped Emiliana with finding someone to help her – no, it’s not me) -> shower -> now I’m writing (to) you.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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My hinge date did just reply to me as I’m writing this. She didn’t reply the whole day, so I was kinda hoping, that she’s gonna ghost me.
Justification: Yesterday, she did send me a video of her “favorite” local “poetry slammer”. And it was kinda whack. Some politics type shit. Big minus, not gonna lie lol. Also the end was kinda depressing -> wtf, why?

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Theory time: You know, yesterday I thought, that I’m gonna become depressed? I didn’t (actually, it got better) and now it’s my time for a theory.

You know, when you have a song stuck in your head and can’t get rid of it? What to do then? Listen to the song, so actually finish it in your mind, then it (usually) leaves it.
So now, for me, with my sad-being, I think I “fixed it” (avoided it getting worse / improved it a little) by taking a look at the pictures, and then (sorta like with a song) going through it all in my head, including the end.

And yesterday, this did actually get me out of the loop / spiraling. So I think you have to do shit like that… Or at least, that’s a possible way.

Hello! I think, I’m about to become depressed lul. Maybe, it’s just, that I didn’t sleep that much, but yeah. Today was another “sad” day. Still because of Daniel talking to my ex.
Well, more precisely: Close friends of me spending time with her makes me sorta feel, like I made a mistake breaking up with her. And this is only partially the mistake of Daniel, since Yanis’ GF Leah also did meet her (as I told you once already) and they “got along really good”. So yeah, because of that, I’m pretty much spiraling like an idiot.

Anyway: What did I do today? Not that much. Got up kinda early (8 o’clock) had a nosebleed, which nearly made me miss my train to the university. I had my AI seminar. Today’s paper was about ARC (once again) and about test-time-training. Which basically means, that you fine-tune your model on the examples you get in the test-question. But all in all, not that interesting.

After that, I went back home. At home, I ate a little old bread for dinner, and then in the afternoon, I did fine-tuned BERT for my bachelors thesis (with like 50 epochs -> didn’t really make it better) and took a nap during this time.

Once I got up again, I solved some Sudoku -> Dinner -> Volleyball practice.

We were 12 people, so that was kinda fun. But my shoulder and left knee really hurt. So that’s no good. I think, that from now on, I’ll play libero until Christmas-break, and then I’ll quit the playing part, and focus on coaching. So that’s no good too :(

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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I’m currently texting with one woman on hinge, but as my mental state is not that well atm, I’m not really interested. Which is a real shame. But yeah – it is what it is. I don’t know if I should “break up” this match or what to do…

Hello! Today I did nothing. Spent the whole day watching things on my PC. Also, today was better in terms of hang-over. I didn’t have any at all. This was kinda surprising, but we take it!

Also, I was / am still kinda pissed at Daniel for talking so long with my ex yesterday. I can’t really put it into words, but you know, it was kinda weird.
Also, since she congratulated me on my birthday, but yesterday when I said “hi” to her, she just looked away. So I (obviously) took the hint, and left.
But since today is the day after, this was the only day that I’m allowed to be pissed about it. (Because the rule is: It’s okay to be mad on the next day – but no more than that, since it wasn’t really anything bad.)

Yeah, that’s already nearly all. In the evening, I got kinda tired, got into my bed, but then immediately un-tired myself. So I then downloaded bumble, and tried this a little. I actually already saw three people I know there. Funny times.

After that, I took a shower and then I had planned to read the paper for tomorrows seminar, but I didn’t. Well, I read a quick summary but no more. And now I’m going to bed. So I’ll read it tomorrow.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I woke up perfectly fine. Kinda unexpected, not gonna lie, but we take it. Then, I had to go shop some things for our car (some container for gas and a pump to get it out of the tank). Oddly enough, I started to get a headache which grew and grew over time.

Once we were back home (about at 10:10), at home, my family was sorting out things to throw into a junkyard (since it’s the last Saturday with the big car at home, before we get the new). Jordan and I put some things in the car, and in the end I had to accompany my mom to the junkyard. (It was only like 10 minutes from home, so no big deal!)

After that, I had lunch, and then it was already time for Josh’s inline hockey playoff game. It was actually the final (at least I thought like that, but they got another game tomorrow?). Our whole “inner circle” went. It was somewhat amusing. I’m not even gonna lie, I zoned out quite often during the game lol.

About the game (three thirds of 20 minutes):
1/3: Josh’s team was behind 2:1
2/3: Josh’s team was behind 4:2
3/3: They started behind, got one goal shot against them, but then they turned up like mad. They were down 5:2 but then they shot 5 more goals. (And it got kinda heated, so they nearly beat each other up that’s the whole goal!)
So in the end, they did win. Proud!

After that, I went home, had like a 30 minutes break, and then had to leave for the volleyball “party” thingie. Funny story: Daniel and I both missed the train we had planned to take, so it ended up matching perfectly lol.

At this thing, we mostly spent our time with Emiliana, her best friend, and the both of us. Most of the time it was quite amusing – though, time didn’t pass by fast at all not gonna lie.

Some things that happened:
1. Emiliana told Daniel and I, that she was kinda mad at us, since we never went by her place, rang her doorbell and asked her to come walk outside (or whatever). Which (no cap) was kinda surprising.
2. Daniel and I went there as a group of two. So we pretty much did everything together. But one time, Daniel started talking with my ex, who was there too. During this time I waited for Daniel, since I did not expect it to take that long. After 10 minutes, I thought, okay, maybe they got a lot to talk about. Another 15 minutes later, it got kinda sus. And another 15 minutes later, it got annoying! He ditched me to talk to my ex smh!
(During this time, I went to bring him his smirnov, I said “hi” to my ex, but she stared in the other direction, so I got the message, that she did not want to talk to me…)
So after all this time, I went to some different friends. (Funnily enough, Emiliana asked me, if I was allright, since Daniel ditched me, so I wasn’t the only one to notice. So what do you say now Daniel?!)
And then I made some bad jokes, and shit, (not gonna lie, I wasn’t 10/10 okay with that, since it was that long) but yeah. It obviously isn’t that terrible.

Then, Louis drove me home, and we talked some in the car.

At home, I took a shower, and now I’m writing (to) you. I’m quickly gonna watch some YouTube, eat a little bit and then go to bed. That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!