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Hello! I’m back from my volleyball practice weekend. I’m way to tired, so I’m going to sleep for now, and I (hopefully) write down what happened from Friday to Today.

I’ll see you then. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! First of all: Happy 9/11! (classic – haha). What did I do today?

In the morning: Exam. But even before that: I took the train to my university, and there’s no toilet on this train. But at some time, my stomach decided:” Now it’s time to take a mad dump!” I was in shambles. There wasn’t even any stop on the way, so I could leave the train and then use the station there. So I held it in.
Like 2 minutes before the train arrived, my stomach was like:” No, we don’t need to shit anymore”, So I thought:” Alright, I walk to the university building first, and then head to the toilet. All fine with that.
But as it then happened, like half way to the toilets there, my stomach said: “No more time playing around, it’s now or never”. So I ran. I was running like a mad man. Luckily, while running, it was only like 2-3 minutes left.
I immediately went to the toilet. There’s only one stall. Occupied! I head to another story. What do I see? Cleaning personal on the men’s toilet – it’s closed!
So I did the only sensible thing, and went in the women’s room. (Yes, no-one was in there.) So today was the first time, I took a shit in the women’s room at university.

Once done with that, I was already sweating. And now it’s time for the exam. 1.5 hours, but all in all, it was not too bad. I was able to solve like 80%. So I guess that’s a pass.

Once I was done with the exam, I went to the library, where Lorenzo was, to talk a little to him (and one of my fellow friends who also had the probability theory exam). Actually, he now takes a one year break from studying, since he has to do civil service.
Anyway, after that, I went home.

I don’t even really know what I was doing. I was kinda bored. I did download and organize all last semester’s files (lecture notes and shit). So now my SSD is no mess no more.

In the afternoon, I was bored too, so I actually used hinge. I was like one hour long just swiping along. (I did this, because I read in a blog post, that received likes correlate pretty hard with sent likes, so I did that.)
Actually, just before, I got a match, but it’s with the one I was unsure whether I want to send a like. So that’s like the worst way of the good.

I quit after one hour though. I did find out a little trick. This was: If I set the race filter to anything but white, the recommendations got way better.

After my short hinge doings, I was kinda bored again. Since it was pretty windy outside, I decided to fly my kite. I then also tried to stand on a skate-board and let the wind tow me. This did not really work, since I’m too heavy. Sara however was able to kite-skate a little.
As I was doing this, I saw some neighbors kids, and asked them if they wanted to try it out as well. And they did. And wouldn’t you know it: It worked quite well with them.

Some time later, I quit, got inside and tried to solve some sudokus.

Then, at about a quarter to six, my brother and I took a 80 minute drive in order to go take a look at a car. We didn’t even have a real address, we just went on our way with some good luck. And luck was on our side.
We found the house we were searching, just from the backgrounds of one of the pictures on the ebay-esque site. We then rang the bell and hoped someone would open the door. We didn’t even know whether the seller was at home, and also didn’t really had a scheduled meeting with her.
But it all turned out good. One might even say, it was too good. Everything was better (or way better) than we expected. The lady who sells the car, is a car hobbyist, is like 70ish years old, and sells it, because she has too little space and time for this Porsche 944. (This Porsche was listed as a old found car, but she moved it around regularly for it not getting any standing damages. Too nice this!)
So we spent like 45 minutes just talking to her, looking at the car and shit. It all was really good.
She was even so nice, to offer us, to drive us back to our car, but we kindly declined that offer, as it would just have been too much.

We then drove back for about one 1.5 hours, and took a quick stop in a MacDonald’s for dinner.

After all that, we were back at home at about half past ten.

At home, we quickly told Sara and our dad (who happened to sit at the dinner table) about our experience. Then I went too my room and watched some YouTube.

So now, tomorrow is the day of the auction. It ends at 11:56am. My brother and I decided, that we were willing to spend up to 4.5k on this car. The lady selling it suggested that probably no-one is gonna buy the car tomorrow, so we can then buy it for cheaper in person, since we exchanged phone numbers, and she then won’t have to pay the site.

That’s it for today. I’ll see you maybe tomorrow, but probably not. I have my volleyball practice week-end. So tomorrow after lunch I have my appointment with the shoulder specialist, and then my volleyball week-end will start; either as coach, or player-coach. We’ll see this then.
So I’ll see you at latest on Sunday. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today I woke up really early. Like at 6am. I mean, I had an alarm set for 6:30 but still. I slept too little. Once I was up, I made myself ready and then rather soonish headed to the university for the measure theory exam. (It was set to start at 8am…)

The exam went pretty good. I was able to solve most of the exam (~ 8/10), so that was nice! After the exam I immediately went back home.

At home, I didn’t really study nearly as much as I wished. Over all, probably like 2-3 hours. I spent some time (again) looking at cars to buy. (Also some time more on random shit, like for example old coins (I was interested in how much they’re worth – not much. Like ten times as much, over the course of ~100 years), and I took a look at cameras, because that’s kinda interesting.)

Also, in the late afternoon, I cooked dinner. I made Flammkuchen. Always nice.

After dinner, my brother and I had one more quick talk because of the Porsche we had planned on to buy. Then we agreed to not buy it, because it was a bit too sussy.
But just now, (11pm) he came into my room, and said, that we might are able to go take a look at it, so I guess that’s what we’ll do tomorrow!

Right now, though, I’m way too tired. So I’m gonna shower, and then head straight to bed. Tomorrow I have my last exam at 8am. So I gotta be kinda well put together for that!

So I’ll see you tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today it was another Tuesday -> stranger danger haha. (Cleaning lady was here.) So in the morning I hid in my room and studied a little.

In the middle of lunch, I had to go to the university, because I had a meeting with a prof. for my bachelors thesis. Now this meeting took only like 15 minutes, so it was a bit of a time waste, but directly thereafter I could go to the comp .sci. secretary which then handled most of the organizational work. So now I pretty much only need to sign a contract, and then I can start with my bachelors thesis.

Back home, I studied a little, but wasn’t that into it. I mean, I took a look at the old exams, and those weren’t too hard. So I asked chat GPOT for some exercises, and then solved those. I lost my interest rather quickly, though, so I just relaxed a bit.
I helped Emily a little with cooking for dinner but yeah; that’s about it.

After dinner, I talked a bit more with my brother about our car-project. (We plan on going to visit one this next Thursday.) We just had to organize a car (parents use both of “ours” – family cars). So Sara was kind enough to volunteer hers. -> Jordan and I most likely are going to take a look at this car in 2 days.
It’s an old Porsche 944, which was found in a storage (apparently). Currently I does not drive, but we plan on fixing that, and then reselling it. As I already told you yesterday.
Our parents aren’t really “fans” of us buying this car, but yeah. It is what it is. We’ll see how it’ll turn!

Then, for the rest of the evening, I just watched some YouTube, then took a shower, and now it’s 11:40 and I’m about to go to bed. So that’s it for today. I’ll see you tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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This afternoon, I was kinda bored of maths, and then I quickly checked out the “spotlight” profiles on hinge. As usual, I had a blast. I even found one profile, which I really thought I should like. But I didn’t, because of my stupid “not using hinge until driver’s license”-rule.
But before that, I was kinda depressed, and this really pulled me out of it. So much positive emotions. You can’t even believe it. (Also, before that, I was kinda thinking about my ex, but these new “inputs”, completely changed my state of mind. Almost, as if this were a known thing. WHAAAT?!?! )

Hello! Today I woke up really early (6am) and then was in half-sleep until like 8 when I got up. I then slowly made myself ready for my exam, and headed to the university.

About the exam: It was not that good. I mean, I solved most of the exercises, but the not as good as I would have hoped. I expect like a 4.5 or a 5. (Which is good, but not as good as I’d liked, given how well I understood all of this.)
I was not really that focused during the exam. I mean, I feel like I’ve missed a few obvious things. Also, like 2/3 times I was really un-focused, and then my mind jumped to thinking about my ex. Really not good timing. And annoying as well. I mean it happens from time to time, but still not that good – especially for my mental state.

After the exam I went home and had breakfast. (I was home at like 1pm.) My dad was still around the dinning table, so we talked a bit (obviously). As you might know, I told them about the CLT (since I believe it to be interesting), and today my dad asked me, if it wouldn’t be possible to use this knowledge to gain an advantage in trading (stocks). (Since over time, (pretty much) everything becomes a normal distribution.)
Not to get too ahead of myself, but I’m not gonna spend too much time on that at the moment, since exams. But once these are over, I think I’ll try some bots and shit.

In the afternoon, I did 2 old practice exams from 2 years ago (I belive) for my probability theory exam. Tomorrow, I’ll study measure-theory, 2 days from now, I’ll write the measure-theory exam & study probability theory and then 3 days from now, I’ll write the PT exam.

Also, Emily and I cooked dinner today. It was really nice. yeah.

In the evening, I spent some time with my brother, and we have found another car we might buy. This one is an old car, which just needs to be fixed up, but then can be sold for a lot. (As of now, the price for the car is 3.1k, and we saw good ones of those on sale for 15-25k. So if all goes well, we’ll buy this car.)

Then, I spent the rest of the evening just watching some YouTube & now I’m writing (to) you. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Today, I thought, I might be burned out or maybe a little depressed. But it’s not too bad. At least I didn’t have any suicidal thoughts (as of yet).

Hello! Today I didn’t do much different things. I got up at like 8:30 and from then on, I studied like a mad man. I was actually really efficient (I believe).
By coincidence, today we had another “family day”, though I didn’t really participate, since I only studied.

After dinner, I went down to say good-bye to Sara and her husband, and then I told the rest of my family a bit about the things I did – and I was kinda passionate. They were impressed, but not by the things, but from me being passionate about this. Kinda sweet, I guess.

Then, late in the evening I watched some YouTube and shit, for like 2 hours.

During the day, I of course still sometimes thought about my ex. As it just so had to be like that… This made me kinda sad. Also, this made me really bummed out about my future, as in “will I find love again” (however cringe it might sound). But it felt that way. Of course, whilst I was in the “zone” from studying, it wasn’t an issue, but each time I took little breaks, it got bad. I believe, it was worst in the morning, but right now, as I’m thinking about it, it was still bad in the evening.

That’s already about all for today. It’s currently 22:53, and I’m about to shower and then go to bed for my exam tomorrow. I’ll see you then. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! First, quickly about yesterday: I couldn’t fall asleep – otherwise not more. lol.

Today, I had to get up early. I set my alarm for 7:30, but I did sleep quite bad, so I woke up already at about 7am. But why did I have to get up this early? We had a practice tournament today (from volleyball). I had to leave the house at about 8:15, cycled to the train station, and then I got picked up there by Louis. Funnily enough, I saw one of my high-school friends there. So we talked a little.

Then, Louis and I drove to the gym, watched a game of Daniels youngsters, changed and then had a few games as well.
First game: We didn’t have a setter -> I played as a setter (it turned out as expected) -> lost 2:0

After that, we had a break for one hour.

After this break, we had our second game (starting at 12). We had a setter, so I didn’t need to play. Funnily enough, I subbed in myself, because I forgot, that I have a further middle-blocker -> so I played a set as a middle-blocker. But we lost this game 2:0 as well.

Third game: This was the only game I really wanted to win, because it’s against an opponent, who we’ll actually play against during the season.
We lost the first set not that close. (We were even, but then at about 14:14 they had a really good serve rotation -> we lost 25:14 ish). After that, our setter just walked out ??? (I don’t know yet, what I’m gonna do about that. Because, hello??) So then I had to sub in as a setter again.
Not to brag or anything, but we managed to win the second set, as well as the third. -> We won this game -> I’m the better setter now, I guess!

After that, we had already finished all of our games. I then assisted Daniel with his last match of his youngsters (they lost, but their opponents were technically playing a league above their own). We then showered, and went home.

So now: For this whole day, I only had a chocolate-milk for breakfast, and nothing else. Ergo, I was hungry & had low blood sugar.
Also, I saw my ex once again (since apparently she still plays volleyball – but now as a libero). I didn’t really expect it, but it still felt like kinda cold, sad, like my heart drops, when I see her. I don’t really get it… Also, she was watching two of our games, so I was kinda distracted by that.
After the shower, Daniel and I were walking to the train station, and we then saw her quickly on her bike. And she was wearing glasses. That’s new as well (I think).
All in all, we didn’t talk today, but I’d kinda like to. Not really knowing where it’d go, but still.

As you might now, if I have a kinda low blood sugar level, my mood drops massively. So after like the second game (at least, after I saw my ex), I was kinda sad. Like the whole day basically. What a bummer! Of course, this lasted until I got home and then ate a little. But yeah. Today was another day I spent thinking about my ex quite a bit.

Some time later (just about when I arrived at my usual train station to get home), I saw actually loads of people which I actually know. So first: When unlocking my bicycle, I saw my sister Sara and her husband driving on the other side of the Train station. (I stared at them, but they didn’t see me…)
Then, I drove off kinda slowly, because hungry, low energy and shit. In about the middle of the way home, I have to drive on a narrow street, which leads (kinda) to where Ellie lives. And she was coming from ahead of me (but in a car) so we waved at each other.
Then like 2 minutes later, I was on the main road, and then Yanis and his girlfriend Leah were on the opposite side of the road on their scooter. We then (obviously) saw each other, and then did like 2 rings around the rosie, on the street, until we came to a stop next to each other on the sideway. (funny times) We then talked a bit. They had to go to some event of Leah’s god-mother – but they weren’t really motivated. haha. Anyway, we parted way’s soon thereafter.

At home, I firstly ate a little bit, to get my mind under control, so I don’t spiral too bad about my ex. Then, I had planned to study some. I opened some of the old exams, took a quick gander, knew of most of the things how to solve them -> didn’t feel like studying. Also, I was really tired, so I had one more reason to not study.
Funnily enough, Daniel wrote me:” Since we didn’t goon together today, I did some myself, and look who I’ve just found on hinge”, and then sent me the screen-recorded profile of someone we both knew from volleyball. We both (well, all dudes basically) don’t really like her, so it was twice as funn¹y. We (I) did thus also find out, that she’s pan-sexual (which is basically the same as bi-sexual. Crazy hot hehe.
Then, I called Daniel with a video whatsapp call (because, apparently you can share screens) so we then hinged together with his phone – for like one hour. This was actually really funny. We gave a few likes, as well as one super like. I’m eager to see, how this will turn out. (Also, one of the standouts had some classes with me in high school. So we saw some more people we knew. Funny times.) We did that for like one hour – until I had to go eat dinner.

During all of this, my brother was watching a movie in his room (right across from mine). And apparently it was really funny. I don’t think I’ve ever heard him laugh as much as then. My mom and I both separately went to his room to ask him what he was doing, which was so funny. (He was watching “Naked Gun” – which is a spy-movie parody.) But it’s always a joy to hear him laugh that hard. (Even Daniel heard it over the phone, which was funny.)

After dinner, I studied for a little (like 30 minutes), then watched some YouTube and now I’m writing (to) you. Now, I’m about to brush my teeth, and then go to bed. It’s a quarter to 11pm right now, but I’m really tired and shit.

So all in all: It was (considering my mood) quite a bad day. Probably because I ate too little, especially when I need a (kinda) “stable” mind if I see my ex. But then I met so many people which distracted me (and even Daniel writing me with his hinge “find”), so it was kinda like the universe was helping me. Phrasing it like that, makes things a little better.

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Recently, I’ve begun to listen (again) to Mongolian throat singing. One song I really like is “Amyrai” by Altai Kai. I’m currently creating a spotify playlist with these kind of songs in it.
Also, I quite enjoy like 80’s women’s music. Like “Make Your Own Kind Of Music”. I’m also creating a playlist with songs similar to that.

1. Just to make it obvious to me in the future as to who it is: Medicine student, used to dance ballet with my sister, tall and really pretty ↩︎

Hi! Today I did pretty much the same as yesterday. Study the whole day. Well, in the morning I planned my next semester. I wrote down lectures worth 51 ECTS – which is wayyy to much, but I think I’ll actually try to max this next semester. If I’d complete all of this, I’d finally have my bachelors degree.

In the afternoon, at about 4pm, I had a small break, during which I kinda helped Sara prepare for her oral exam. (She’s furthering her education to become a one-better-logistician.) Otherwise, I did a lot of complex analysis type shit.
Actually, after lunch, I talked with my father a bit, and I kinda explained some complex analysis things to him (the residue theorem) and he seemed to actually kinda get it. This made me kinda happy.

Then, in the evening, once my site-blocker turned off, I spent my time watching YouTube. I saw a really good documentary about bird-watching. It was about 2 fellas not getting bird-watching (and once whilst high thinking:” Wouldn’t it be crazy too see all those birds from this bird book”), so they made(?) a “big year”. Which, in bearding terms, just means “writing down all bird species you see in a year, and trying to maximize this number”.
While watching this, I thought to myself:” This would be a nice hobby. Kinda similar to fishing – except I don’t like fish…”.

And just before, I made my site-blocker more strict, so it blocks all sites except between 19:30 and 23:30. It’s kinda annoying, but you can’t really do this, so technically it only blocks the sites from 23:30 -> 23:50 and 00:00 -> 19:30. But since I’ll make it even more strict in the future, It won’t matter that much (I guess).

But that’s already all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was similar to how the whole week was, except I was a stay-home student. But basically the whole day I studied, and in the evening I watched some YouTube. That’s basically all for today. Nothing really to tell.

Well – what did I study? Just some definitions and important lemmas from probability theory. It was really hard. It took like 18 minutes just to have one round of 5 cards… Some cards alone took like 5 minutes. Oh, I also did this with writing down, instead of just saying them in my head. This took a little more time, but I think it also helped for quick memorization.

Also, this afternoon, it suddenly started raining real hard. At the “worst” time, I couldn’t even see through the window, because it was just a water fall all over it. Also, I have a window in my room, which has a roof above it, which is like 1 meter overhanging, and today it also rained through that. Never seen that before.
But the rain stopped after like 15 minutes, so it wasn’t that bad.

And also, today I set up a time for the meeting with my professor for my bachelors thesis thingy. Like organization wise things. It’s next Tuesday, So I guess then is my official begin of my bachelors thesis.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Today I was thinking about moving to a poor(er) country, just for the sake of “having to live” or some shit. Fun times fantasizing…

Hello! The day today was nearly identical to yesterday. Only in the evening I had volleyball practice. And let me tell you: It was shit! We were only sic people, and we hadn’t been that focused. Well, happens sometimes. It’s just a little annoying that it was today, since we have a preparation tournament this Saturday…

Anyway. Back at home, I watched some videos, brushed my teeth, and now I’m already ready to go to bed & I’m tired as well.

And also, I gotta confess a little. I had a few “swipes” on my hinge profile – which technically is not in use yet, but I’m kinda curious as to how it’ll turn out.

So that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!