January 30

My Day

Dear Diary! Today was no special day either. I spent too much time on YouTube, and some time studying. I also had the realization, that the easier I find my math thingies, the less pressure I feel to actually study.

Upsides: I study when I feel some pressure, or am not that confident.
Downside: I don’t study as much as I should.

My problem is, I don’t really know how to change this right now. Writing that, I have an idea. Tomorrow, before I “can” open YouTube (or any such site) I must do the following things:
– go over all AM exercises
– go over all Algebra exercises
– solve at least one ODE of each category:
– separation of variable,
– y’=f(ax+by+c), y’=f(y/x),
– exact ODE,
– Bernoulli ODE,
– in-homogeneous first order,
– in-homogeneous n-th order
– study ODE definitions for at least 30 min

I think this should be enough. I’ll tell you tomorrow, how it went.

Talking about Religion with Mom and Sister

This evening, after dinner, my mom, sister and I had an interesting talk about religion. As mentioned before, my mom is pretty religious, but my sister and I aren’t as much.

I don’t remember how it started, but the main points were:
1. My sister and I, didn’t really like it, when we were forced to go to church when we were little (children -> ~15 years old). One of the reason being, we had “children church” and there we had to state, where we’ve seen/ felt God this week. But the problem being, my sister and I didn’t really focus on that, so we didn’t feel any. BUT we still had to tell a story, where we had had an interaction with God.
2. It was always a little weird, and we felt kinda out of place…
3. (This was practically only for my sister) She doesn’t like it, when you put your boundaries on her. But she’s OK with setting her own. So in church, when people tell her, that God is the truth, she really gets annoyed.
4. My sister and I, think the way our parents practice religion, is basically the best way. Because they really accept it, if you don’t want to be invested, and also, the second, and more important thing: They’re doing things out of good heart and happen to be Christians, instead of doing things, because they’re Christians. Like for example, foster children.

and so on.

While talking about it, (or later thinking about it) I realized about myself, that I dislike, if it gets heated. Which I thought was strange, since for a long time, I did exactly that. Always have unnecessary debates, and really enjoy, if the other person or both get worked up.

Another thing was: The talking was mostly between my sister and mom, and I listened, so I played their lawyer. (For both sides.) And my sister told me, that I make good analogies and that I was a good lawyer.

Gym

Some time later, I got back to studying, and then I went to the gym. For the first time this week. I wasn’t really motivated, but still went. And in the end – wouldn’t you know it – once I was back home, I felt better. WHAAA??

In the gym, I had a relaxed session. Also, I tried warmup sets for the first time. I don’t really know, how it works yet, but I think it’s kinda effective. Probably because you have more reps like that. (Bro-science alert!) Who knows… I’ll tell you tomorrow, if anything feels especially different.

back home again, I had my second dinner (curry rice) then studied a little, watched a little more YouTube, took a shower and now I’m writing (to) you. Way too late in the night. It’s already 3:30am and it really annoys me, that I can’t get my sleeping-schedule under control, but what can you do…

That’s it for today. I’ll see you tomorrow! Bye-Bye!