May 20

Waking up

Morning update: Hello! I’m quickly gonna talk about my dream. Now, I dreamt, that I met my ex, spent some time together, hugged to say goodbye, and then we kissed. Dam! I’m lost. I guess, in my dream, we also had sex, since there was still a hint left over – if you know what I mean. Nothing that I would remember though.
Then, I had a second dream, where I (with some friends like Josh for example) was forced into a “work-camp”. But let me explain: We were on vacation, tried to exit some random-ass garage, and then we were “arrested” by some non-local “cops”, who then put us in these classic orange overalls, and physically abused us. Somehow though, I got free(?). Then I went out of the camp, strolled around a bit, saw a bar, where they were teaching self-defense, I was super strong, so I impressed them, and then I woke up. Really random. It’s not even, I can really relate to somehow (haha).

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So, late night me back to the pen.

My Day

About my day: I slept until like super late, and then I was sad until lunch & spent some time on YouTube.

Afternoon: Right after dinner, I asked Daniel to play some Trackmania. So we played for like 3.5 hours, to distract me a little. I didn’t really tell him why though. I told him, that maybe I’ll tell him tomorrow in the shower after practice.
Once we were done gaming, I just spent some more time on YouTube, and then I asked Lorenzo for his lecture notes, and I re-wrote them into my notes.

Dinner: After dinner, my sister asked me, if I’m all right, since I didn’t really talk much, which isn’t quite me. So then I just gave a small excuse, like: “not everybody has always something to talk about” and then wandered off in my head again.

Evening: I finished the lecture-notes-rewriting & then just spent some time on YouTube. I was pretty bored though. Also, I watched some volleyball content, so yeah – maybe my interest in volleyball has risen a little? Maybe, I was just too bored.
Then, I took a shower, and now I’m here writing (to) you.

In the last few days / weeks, I thought about doing some “check-list” at the end of each day, where I quickly mention, if something special is on my mind; or just to make clear, what I did think about in a day; or if I had knee problems and so on and so forth. Just some small things, which are important for the big picture but not for any given day – if you know what I mean.

Anyway, that’s it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!

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Check-list time

• Thinking about ex: 9/10 bad
• Shoulder pain: not too bad, since Ibuprofen
• How was my day? 2.5/10