May 22

Hi there! Today, I didn’t do that much either. But that was for different reasons. That means, I felt better today. It’s almost, that I got a clear view an all. WHAATTT? Who would have thought, that talking about problems would help? It’s almost a little like therapy. Crazy times!

Anyway. What did I actually do? I watched YouTube and corrected the exercises by my students. I watched some videos about photography. This is kinda a small interest of mine. That means, I thought about doing(?) photography as a hobby.
Also, I saw one video about color-theory, where he was talking about harmony of colors. For example monochromatic (1 color, with multiple brightnesses), or complementary (the 2 main colors are on the opposite side of the color circle). And I thought, that might actually be quite easy to implement into code. So kinda an automatic color corrector. I might do that tomorrow. (Might.)

Then, in the evening: My mom works at the school, and today was some sort of school-event. So Emily and I quickly went over there, saw her, got one portion of fries for free (since my mom was working there at the fries booth(?). We both didn’t really see anyone who we knew, so we quickly went back home (haha).
At home, we had Pizza.
I then watched the Los Ratones knock-out match. They won! (It’s kind of cringey, but I’m like a sports fan of their league of legends team – lol.) After that, I just spent some more time on YouTube.
Also, I quickly checked out some uni stuff. Since 1. I gotta get a permit, so I can study for a longer time (since I was working like 50% for 2 years), and also I was looking at possible exchange schools / universities (in case I want to do an exchange semester / year).

Then before, I showered. And silly me, jerked off, to memories of my ex. I don’t know, how smart that is, but it still sometimes happens. Usually, I have these few specific times in mind, where we had sex. One, for example, where she lied in bed, (kinda foreplay-ish horny-ish) and I just licked her, till she came.
(I don’t really know, why I tell you this, but I just do! hehe)
Anyway, the point being, that I thought about her, while jerking off. Maybe not the smartest move, but it does the job, if you know what I mean.
(Also, don’t forget, I’m not looking at porn, so it kinda has to be like past experiences…)

Yeah. So now, I’m done with my shower, and I’m writing (to) you. That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!

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Check-list time

• Thinking about ex: 3/10 bad
  Spent time, cringing about what soon might happen (even though, I kinda want it, but I really don’t – if you know what I mean)

• Shoulder pain: not too bad, since Ibuprofen (still taking 2 ibuprofen / day)

• How was my day? 6/10