May 23

Hello! Today, I didn’t really do anything either… So it was kinda an off day. I slept until kinda late, and pretty much only watched some YouTube the entire day… So it was quite boring. It even got so far, that I was thinking to myself:” What am I even doing??”
At least, I wrote to the university for (the consultation of) the extension of my study time. They replied with:” It’s alright, since it’s my first request.”

On YouTube I watched some videos about photography, and I was thinking to myself, maybe I should become a (wildlife-)photographer. Seems quite interesting. Well, at least you get to spend some time in nature and shit. You know what I mean. (But keep this in mind as a backup plan, in case I don’t get into the comp-sci / math business.)

Some of the photography videos were about self-development as a photographer. But nothing really mentionable to say here. (I always think, it’s kinda weird, if they mention the rule of thirds, since in the example pictures, it’s never really clear, why it’s better/ if it was really used…. (at least to me it seems so).)

Then, at about 10pm, Josh called, and asked if I wanted to go to Pete, to drink some beer and have some fun. Of course, I said yes!
There, we played some board-games, and drank a bit. At first, we played some Uno-(no mercy) game, (a take-more-cards approach to Uno) and then we switched to some dice game. We also took some shots.
Some time later, Ellie joined as well.
Then, at about 1:30am, I had a bad realization. I am on pain-meds -> alcohol = bad… Bam-bam-baam! Since it was already late, and I had a few drinks already, I ignored it like an idiot… This might hunt me tomorrow….

Then, we said good-bye at about 2:30 am. (We were at Pete’s house.) Josh was there with the car, and of course, he wanted to drive home. Ellie (since she was sober) didn’t want to go in the car with Josh, and he was really pissed about that… But we were pissed, that he wanted to drive (since he drank like 8 shots of Jägermeister -> he couldn’t even walk straight).

After he left, Ellie and I talked some more. And I told her about my quest to understand women. So I asked my classic-question about love. Her answer was pretty much:” I don’t know. It’s nice to be there for someone, and to know, that he’s there for me.” (But keep in mind, she doesn’t want children – I think this plays a role in this “what is love” question.)

She then also said, that love is, in general, to take care of the relationship. So to make sure that the relationship grows. (I don’t know how much sense this makes in English, but it seems fine to me(?)) I thought, this was an interesting Idea, since I never thought of that.

Anyway, she got cold, so we both went home. At home, I took a quick shower, and now I’m writing (to) you.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!