February 2

My Day

Today, not a lot happened. As for I had a chill day. I did not study today. But in the afternoon I went to the gym. It was a really good session. it felt quite good on the squad rack.

After my gym session, I went home and had a protein shake. After that, my mom asked me to help her cook dinner. I then made some sort of arrabiata. Well – my form was with ground meat in it, so it’s technically not an arrabiata, but was good none the less. My mom then made some spaghetti and this was our dinner.

After dinner, not more really happened. I went back, and watched 2 episodes of “The Mentalist” which did not happen for quite some time. It was funny, as always. I’ve also arranged to meet with a friend from uni, to study for tomorrow.

That’s about my whole day.

Seeing my Ex – Feels

For the last week or so, I was often thinking about if I was over my ex. In some sense, that means, that I’m not really, but I don’t take that as an answer just yet. So anyway, I started to think, that slowly, but yes I was over her. Then, yesterday, I saw my ex-girlfriend quickly. Now, we didn’t even have an interaction with each other. She was talking with a friend of mine, and I was walking near him.

I just looked down to her (we were on the spectator stand), and we had a short eye-to-eye contact. I don’t really know what it is, but I somehow feel, as if it was kinda weird. Now of course, I don’t know, if it was just me, or I just imagined it, but… yeah… I don’t know.

For any case, it just made me feel somewhat weird. Is this normal?

I think, I have to be more precise. Weird in what way? I guess, it just feels somewhat awkward, and then there’s just always a small “sting” in my chest… Sometimes this also happens when I think of her.
And then afterwards, I thought I was kinda strange. It felt, as if we were looking at each other, expecting some sort of reaction. But nothing really happened. (Since I was just walking by, we didn’t really see each other for some long time.)

I believe, I think way too much about this small interaction. So I guess, I can quite confidently say, that I’m not completely over her… For now, that also means, that I’m not actively looking for another partner. We’ll see how that changes in the future.

That’s all I have to say for now. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Bye-Bye!