January 21

My Day

Dear Diary! Today was the first day, that I woke up at the right time. This means, I woke up at like 8:30am (before 9). To my misfortune, our house cleaner was over. This meant, that I couldn’t get up, because: if I get up, I need to use the bathroom, where she might be, but I’m kinda scared of her (in a somewhat joking way, but still). Scary stuff – I know. So then I just went back to sleep.

This means, my real day started at about 10:30 when I woke up again, and then also got up. Then, for most of the day I watched some YouTube and studied (in that order…). Otherwise nothing really important happened.

Also, I secured a “date” with my mom for tomorrow morning, where we’ll go to the gym. Because of that, I didn’t work out today.

Learning Method

Today, I was studying in the not-most-efficient way. I then started to think about studying methods, and that I wished, that I knew one. Now, my goal/requirement for “the optimal” method would be some method, that works over long time, so I get the right amount of distraction and learning, so I don’t get too bored / annoyed of studying and just don’t want to anymore.

Example: Today I was only semi interested in studying. In the morning it was still okay, I just looked at some exercises which I previously solved, tried to remember how I did it and then checked, if my solution was correct.
In the afternoon I had another problem. Mainly, I wasn’t really motivated anymore. So I made a deal with myself. Every time I started a new video on YouTube, I had to do a quick session of flashcard review. (Like 10 cards, which takes about 5-7 minutes.)

With that I could stay focused / motivated for longer. Also I realized that, once I got to know the flashcards quite good, I started to ask myself, why the theorems were true, and then I took a look at my lecture notes, and actually read the proof. With that, I also learned some more proofs, even though, currently not all are in the flashcard set. (But I need to know them for the exam – obviously)

Then in the evening, I asked my sister (which is studying psychology) if there are any such studying methods. She replied with “no”, sadly. I then proposed my idea, to which she said something along the lines of: It’s not really a smart way of learning, since like that, you overload your brain, and over-write a lot of the information with useless stuff.

This means, now I have to find a new & better way of studying. I don’t know how yet, but maybe I’ll figure something out. I’ll keep you posted!

Sad Music

Today I was listening to some music. There is this one artist called “Bunt” which makes music in a similar style as Fred Again. His latest album’s first song is called “Clouds”, and one time the lyrics go as follows:

Hey, I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to fall out of love with you
Because I truly did love you
I still do, but not in the same way

And every time I hear this, I get really sad. This is basically how my last break up happened (well the reason of why it happened). It nearly brings tears to my eyes, all tough it’s already quite some time ago, when we broke up. But it still hurts. You know…

I just wanted to say that… It’s even worse, since the song has a nice beat, but I’ve listened to the lyrics once, and now, every time I hear this song, I have to skip it, because it just makes me too sad. I just can’t listen to it anymore without getting sad.

With that being said, today ends on a kinda sad note… But yeah, happens… I’ll see you tomorrow! Bye-Bye!