June 11

Hello! I’m not really sure no more, but I think, I had a dream in which I was with my ex. But not sure tho -> Don’t remember (if /) what happened in the dream. Now, yesterday I thought that I should fix my sleep schedule. So I set an alarm for like 9am. Of course, I woke up, decided that I want to sleep more -> I went back to sleep. I then got up at like 11:30 :(

During the day, I was mostly only watching YouTube videos. Also, I grilled some meat for dinner (we were having a small BBQ). Also, I wrote someone (PHD-student I think) to get in touch for a potential bachelors thesis. I hope to get an answer tomorrow. If so, I’ll tell you then what it’s about.

Also, I had this one thought, that the screens are so addictive since they have some really bright saturated colors. (My reasoning is:
Monkey brain: bright colors = good (ripe fruit -> bright color -> good)
Screen has bright colors -> feels good -> addictive.
Maybe less addictive if colors less bright. Easy fix with gray colors only.
) So now I’m gonna turn my screen into a black and white screen (my phone too) and see if anything changes.

After dinner, I had volleyball practice (I free-styled it hehe). Not gonna lie: my shoulder hurt more than it used to, and my knees hurt to. So quite bad actually.

After the practice, Daniel and I took a huge mat, and did some stretching, since we had like 50 minutes to kill, before going home. So that was fun.
Also, Daniel and I spent the time as 2, but I didn’t ask him about his PI mission. Well – finding things out about my ex. Didn’t really feel like asking, since it was that good in the last days.

Anyway, once at home, I ate some left-overs from dinner, and went back to my PC. Also, I had to send my dad some tax documents.
Also, at home, the low sugar from after practice started to hit -> some more thoughts about my ex. I actually was kinda disappointed in myself for not asking Daniel about my ex. But this too got kinda better.

So that’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: 2.5/10 bad. During the day, it was really good. (Except dream maybe(?)) Then, in the evening it got worse again. So yeah, definitely worse than yesterday, but still quite good.
• How was my day? 7/10. Okayish. I did some things -> not too bad. Also, the weather got better (smoke kinda lifted) so at least we have a (mostly) blue sky!
• Shoulder update: Worse than before :(