June 4

Hello! Today, I got the mail, that I cannot write the computer architecture exam. Damn. So now I have vacations. What did I do? Basically the same as before, except the studying part. I listened to some talks, and shit.

At dinner, it was just my brother, my mom and I. We were talking about life and shit. We had a small discussion about what the purpose is. He said, it’s just deciding on a goal, and then work towards that.
I agreed with him, but my (silly) goal, of living like a human that I’m was designed for (by evolution). So no electronics and so on and so forth. He thought that that was low-key retarded. And in some way, I feel him.
But even more, I think that it is at least interesting. So then I made the obvious transition to becoming amish. But they don’t really do that either… Anyway, my mom sent me some documentary about the amish – well the Bruderhof. (The documentary was by the BBC).
(But then our conversation was pretty much over, since dinner over.)

Ah, during this conversation I also said, that just everything is boring. Like, we (humanity) figured life out -> it’s not so fun no more. “Nothing’s on the table” so to speak.
Then my mom said, that I should start a family. Which I (kinda have thought about often lately) and I think it was funny that my mom recommended that to me.
Just wanted to mention that.

Also, I looked out for some good hiking spots. So now I have a few Ideas, of where to go. But I’m gonna continue this tomorrow. Speaking of tomorrow: Tomorrow, I’m (hopefully) gonna write a new UI for this site, so it looks like I wanted it to look in the beginning. See the prologue for a pic. But I completely forgot, that I wanted to do that, once I’m done with my exams, so yeah – tomorrow.

Also, I have my first driving lesson in about a week. I (kinda) look forward to that. Only downside: it’s at 8 in the morning – RIP. But at least, I have a date now. That’s one more step than yesterday.

Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: ?/10 bad. When I got the email that I couldn’t write the exam, I quickly started spiraling. (As I usually do.) And then, I get like really “everything was better before” (for obvious reasons). But then, this everything also includes the girlfriend part.
• Shoulder pain: Didn’t call the physical therapist… Hurt a little today. So exactly like yesterday
• How was my day? 4/10. Bad news, that I cannot write the exam -> spiraled a little. And was quite bored. Otherwise, not too bad.