May 7

Morning: Wake up -> uni (complex analysis) -> back home

Afternoon: Was really tired -> went into bed, but with iPad with math exercises open -> solve exercises & not tired anymore (even though I didn’t sleep), was done rather quickly -> spent time on YouTube.

Evening: Volleyball practice. Leon’s cousin came today. (Professional volleyball player); which was fun. (Of course, he didn’t play serious.)
One time, he did a back-row attack -> I defended it -> got set (I was also in back-row) -> attacked on him -> made the point -> showed off, my big muscles haha.
All in all, the practice was not that good, but not too bad. Felt kinda like everyone was tired.

Going home from volleyball practice, tired and with an empty stomach -> makes me sad…

What did I think about? I kinda was sad to be alone (as in relationship), my knees and shoulder hurt -> thinking about quitting volleyball.
Also, I played the song “falling down” by lil peep and x -> I remembered, how we (ex and I) used to listen to rain in her bed, since it’s directly below the roof.
Because of all that, I thought back to my last relationship. I remembered, how I talked to her about quitting volleyball & everything in pain (since this was a somewhat common occurrence) and I suddenly missed her… Feels bad man…

But now I got back home, I ate a little, and most of these feelings are gone. Of course, I kinda opened Pandoras box, since this “missing her” is still kinda her, but yeah. Hopefully it won’t get to bad in the next few days (especially, since like the last week was nearly perfect!).

Now some time later: I watched Los Ratones scrims, and I’m going to bed now. Too late once again. (But my mental did in fact improve!) So that’s it for today. Take care and see you tomorrow! Bye-Bye!