Hi! First, a bit about yesterday evening. As I took a nap in the afternoon, I couldn’t really fall asleep. Though, I was tired, but I still couldn’t fall asleep. And my mind was going back and fourth about my relationship with my ex (as kinda mentioned before).
Then, it progressively got worse and shit. Then I took at the pictures of my ex and me together (since I didn’t really delete them off of my phone), and then I realized, that we weren’t really dating for that long (only 9 months). Which, oddly enough really helped. But yeah, after trying to fall asleep for about 1.5 hours, I did manage to.
Oh, also, yesterday evening, I was quite sad, so I did listen to sad music. To fit the vibe – you know. (It’s always a risky business as commonly known by me.)
Today morning: I had to get up kinda early (7:15) and then go to university. I did still listen to a bit of sad music, but it was manageable. I had some lectures, and solved some exercises. Then, it was already time for lunch.
Lunch: It’s quite sweet, the others ask every week about my Porsche, and how it’s going. It’s basically the number one conversation shifter, and basically everyone hopes that we solve it soon lul.
After lunch, we played 3 rounds of geoguessr, and then I solved some more exercises. Then, we all went to a grocery store before our afternoon lecture.
At first, I didn’t want to go, but then they asked me to join them, so I did. (I was really happy, that they asked me to join them.) I didn’t buy anything though. In the store were self-checkout thingies, and I just walked through there (since I didn’t have anything to pay for). As I was waiting at the exit, one of my friends jokingly asked me, if I had scanned all my things (a worker from there was just standing next to us) and I replied with “no, I stole everything” while looking at the worker. She actually did find it quite funny, so she didn’t check me. lol.
Then, lecture -> back home -> spend some time doing nothing -> dinner.
After dinner -> spending some time on YouTube (during this time, I quickly helped Emiliana with finding someone to help her – no, it’s not me) -> shower -> now I’m writing (to) you.
That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!
My hinge date did just reply to me as I’m writing this. She didn’t reply the whole day, so I was kinda hoping, that she’s gonna ghost me.
Justification: Yesterday, she did send me a video of her “favorite” local “poetry slammer”. And it was kinda whack. Some politics type shit. Big minus, not gonna lie lol. Also the end was kinda depressing -> wtf, why?
Theory time: You know, yesterday I thought, that I’m gonna become depressed? I didn’t (actually, it got better) and now it’s my time for a theory.
You know, when you have a song stuck in your head and can’t get rid of it? What to do then? Listen to the song, so actually finish it in your mind, then it (usually) leaves it.
So now, for me, with my sad-being, I think I “fixed it” (avoided it getting worse / improved it a little) by taking a look at the pictures, and then (sorta like with a song) going through it all in my head, including the end.
And yesterday, this did actually get me out of the loop / spiraling. So I think you have to do shit like that… Or at least, that’s a possible way.
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