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Hello there! Today, was another not too event-full day, at least telling wise.

Morning: Wake up -> go to uni -> 1 hour lecture -> going home -> lunch.

Afternoon: first some chill YouTube time -> going outside to solve some exercises & chill in the sun -> need to check one of my answers on PC -> back inside -> didn’t really work out -> spend time on YouTube -> plan the volleyball practice.

Evening: Dinner -> Volleyball practice (we had a spike-technique practice. I planned some drills, but I got better ideas in the gym, so I kinda ended up switching them. The practice was good nonetheless.) -> going back home again.

Also, before volleyball practice, I went and picked up my (new) key for the gym (since we train in a different gym now). On the way there, I asked Daniel about what his goal was concerning females. You know, he always claims, he’s not that interested, but I don’t really buy it. Because, last summer, he had chances with some girl (let’s just call her Joe), and then he was completely on cloud 7. Like for 2 weeks. Only because he had some chances.
So today I asked him, and he said: “If it happens, I don’t really object”. hmm… not that good of an answer. But yeah – we’ll see what happens.

Back at home, I had some cereal, watched some YouTube and now I’m writing (to) you.

Also, just before the song “Cough” was playing and it brought some memories from my ex back. Which made me kinda sad. Funnily enough, I only realized it, in the middle of the song, when it was already kinda too late. I then just hopped on YouTube real quick, to distract myself. It helped kinda. So the (somewhat) usual stuff.

But that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today it’s gonna be quick. In the morning, I woke up tired and contemplated if I even want to go to uni. I then decided to do so, so I went there. Since it’s Tuesday today, the cleaning woman was here -> I didn’t have any breakfast. Dead!

Today was even the first day where I answered a question of the prof wrong… But I then came up with the correct solution in the same answer, so it wasn’t too bad. After the complex analysis lecture, I went home.

At home, I had lunch, watched a little bit of YouTube, did the computer architecture exercises (that means, I copied them from the chat-GPT answers), and then went back to trying to implement my code to find the best approximation. Sadly, it doesn’t work. there are a few too many flaws… Happens.
Also, I called the doc, and I have an appointment next Monday. Nice!

So I did this, until after dinner. I then wasn’t sure if I wanted to go to the gym, since I was tired, and not really motivated. I somehow convinced my self to go, so “go” I did. Today, I trained arms (without shoulders, since shoulder broken…). It was okay. I found out, that I cheat quite a lot when doing my bicep exercises. (That means, I pull a little with my shoulder.) So I tried fixing this.
Also, my elbow hurt as usual when doing skull crushers.
And I trained my forearms for the first time. This is a terrible thing to train. Ain’t even gonna lie.

So after the gym, I made me some scrambeled eggs – for the first time in my life. And woulden’t you know, it was quite easy; abd good too. After eating and doing the dishes, I watched a cracking the cryptic Sudoku video, took a shower, and now I’m writing (to) you.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care! Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I slept until early morning, woke up, went back to sleep, and woke up again at 12. Right in time for lunch. We were only 3 people, and I was still in my morning mood, so I didn’t rally talk, and none of the others felt like talking. But then some 5 minutes later, mom came home for the rescue.

Then, in the afternoon, I tried to implement (and develop even) the yesterday mentioned algorithm. This far, it does not work. But I guess I’ll try some more.

Then late in the afternoon / early evening, (I played too long with my algorithm), I was in a hurry to plan today’s volleyball practice. I then ended up writing a quick pdf with the most important (as far as I think) technical guidelines which they should know. I even let out my artistic side, and drew some pictures.

Of course, I wasn’t done with the whole plan as I left the house, but I finished it on the way there. Actually, today, it was raining, so when I left the house, I used my rain pants, which I own for quite some time, but forgot about, for the first time. (First time, since they were given to my, by my foster brother.)

The practice was quite OK. Not really good, but definitely not bad. My shoulder hurt really bad though. That wasn’t OK. Also, I set a reminder for tomorrow, so that I call in for a doctors appointment.

Anyway, after the training, I went home with Daniel and Samuel (Samuel was driving). Samuel asked us (or me mainly) what my goal is in Malta (Where we go in about 1.5 months). I said (what I still think) that my goal is to have a good time with the boys. He was somewhat baffled, since he thought, we (I) was going there to fuck around (so to speak). This isn’t really the case though.
He also said, that his personal goal is one female – hahah. I think, this is a funny way to say it, but yeah. Also, I think, this is a weird goal.

Then, once I was home, I spent some time on my PC, and now I’m writing (to) you. So that’s my whole day today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Until then, take care! Bye-Bye!

What’s up! What did I do today? First, lets start, with yesterday evening, after I went to bed. I remembered, that americans (USA) often say, that they go to improv class. Now, I don’t know, if this is a thing here, so I went on google, and searched for a quick book. I started to read it yesterday evening – well, only the (to me) interesting parts. But I went to sleep not too far in.

So, today after I woke up, I spent some time in my bed just chilling, and then I read the exercises from the book. These are all exercises, which you can do alone. Some of them are:
– Word association (name an object, immediately start to talk about it – go next after ~10s, >10 objects)
– Solo character switches (take a clock, switch to a new character every 30s)
– Scene with status switch (both/all characters have a different social-status)
– Film dialogue (watch a movie without sound, talk for the movie-persons)
– Songs (not write, just sing and wing it)
– Do a speech, only using the numbers up to 100

So after that, it was already time for lunch. I told them about this, so I asked if anyone wanted to do one, and then my mom held a speech, only containing numbers. It’s somewhat funny.

In the afternoon, I went to play some beach volleyball with Daniel, Leon, and Luca. We played in the sun, for about 2-3 hours, then I went home again, since my brother cooked dinner (burgers) and I didn’t want to miss it. I got a light sunburn, so maybe I’ll have a tan soon.

Then, in the evening, I listened to some podcast, and solved some Sudokus. I listened podcast, where the psychiatrist interviewed was asked, what some character-traits in you (and your partner) are, that make you stay together. She mentioned three:
– Conscientiousness (thoughful, kind, industrious, responsible)
– Flexible/adaptable
– Low to moderate adventurousness (since you don’t cheat / seek new partner)
Also, she said, that if you want to go into couple therapy, go to a therapist trained in the “gottman method”, since this is the only that really works.

After that, I took a shower, and now I’m writing (to) you.

Also, I had an idea before, for an algorithm to find the best-approximation (polynomial of degree n, with a_n =/=0 ) of a function. My idea is, that you guess a initial polynomial g_0 to approximate f. This initial polynomial is in the form of the product of it’s zeroes. Then you iterate over each of those, and improve them one by one, until you have an error less than some threshold.

Maybe, I’ll try it a bit tomorrow. But that’s it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today, was (telling wise) not a really interesting day. I mean, not a lot happened, but it didn’t feel that empty. So what did I do?

In the morning, I slept until like 10-11 am. After that, I had some oatmeal for breakfast and then I spent some time on my PC. Most of the time was on YouTube, and a little was creating flashcards for the complex analysis.

In the afternoon, I got really bored of YouTube, so I nearly fell asleep. I then decided to go outside sunbathing. I did this, listened to my “calm” spotify playlist and just relaxed for about 1.5 hours. Today, it was like 20°C, and a little windy. But the sun was shining like crazy with a blue sky, so I even got a light sunburn. So a perfect sunbathing session!

I think, it was really good to sunbathe, since it was a little like meditating. Not that I know, what that’s like, but it felt, like I expect meditating to feel like.

Then, in the evening, I went out with Josh, Yanis, Pete, and some more guys. We just spent some time drinking like 2 beers outside and talked. Tbh, I didn’t pay that much attention to what they were talking about, since like half the time, they talked about soccer, which I think is really boring.

We went home early (I was home at about midnight) and then I spent some time on my PC, and now I’m writing (to) you. So that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care! Bye-Bye!

Hello!

Morning: On again / off again sleep until like 11:40 -> lunch

Afternoon: I watched some YouTube, listened to some podcasts. Also, I did some math homework, once I was bored of YouTube. During this time, my sister came by to talk a little, so I explained some math to her. She seemed somewhat interested. This made me happy, to be able to explain some of the things I do for once (even though, she didn’t really get it – for obvious reasons).

Then, at first, I planned to stay at home for the evening & go to the gym, but then Josh called, and asked, if I wanted to go grilling with him (and the classic culprits). Then I changed my mind -> had a speed run gym session (it was still like 1 hour, so not really shorter than usually…), (I trained legs, but not every exercise, but more reps on each machine) -> went home to shower -> went to my friends.

There, I cooked some pasta, whilst they were grilling the meat on the grill. We then ate all of this and it was actually really good. We also added some arrabiata to the pasta for the extra spice, which made it extra good!

After that, we went inside and played some games. As usual Yanis left earlier, since old & tired man… So the round was down to Pete, Josh and me. We played 2 rounds of cluedo (both of which I won – SUI!), and then we called it a day.
I forgot to mention: Petes house (shared apartment) – they bought a slushy machine, so we made our alcoholic beverages with that. It was nice, but I don’t find it too comfortable to drink, since it’s kinda like an ice-cream and this hurt my teeth a bit (since cold).

Anyway, back at home, I watched some more YouTube, and now I’m writing (to) you. But now, I gotta make a little confession: Today, I thought more often about my ex… I listened to some podcast (about dating) and they said some things, which made me unsure, if I had made the right choice -> made me feel a little bad… I just don’t know, if I’ll find a better match. But we’ll see. Stay positive!
But if I type it out like that, I remember, that I made the right choice, since I wasn’t really happy… But who knows ultimately(?).

But that’s it for today! I’ll talk to you again tomorrow! Take care, see you soon; Bye-Bye!

Morning: Sleep until kinda late -> get ready for TA uni work -> go to uni -> TA work -> going back home

Lunch: Since I was home too late for lunch, and we didn’t have any bread, I made myself some omelettes. Not to boil my egg or anything, but the second omelette I made, looked just perfect. I don’t even know, how I did it this good. Shit’s crazy

Afternoon: Was tired -> time on YouTube -> even more tired -> sleep for about 2 hours (I had a sex dream hihi – didn’t come though).

Evening: We ordered food for dinner, since same problem as at lunch. I had döner kebap, the others had Pizza. After eating, I corrected the exercises from the students. It actually didn’t even take that long & the students were really good. Once I was done with that, I watched some more YouTube.

Then some time later, I took a shower, and now I’m writing (to) you. So that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care – Bye-Bye!

Morning: Wake up -> uni (complex analysis) -> back home

Afternoon: Was really tired -> went into bed, but with iPad with math exercises open -> solve exercises & not tired anymore (even though I didn’t sleep), was done rather quickly -> spent time on YouTube.

Evening: Volleyball practice. Leon’s cousin came today. (Professional volleyball player); which was fun. (Of course, he didn’t play serious.)
One time, he did a back-row attack -> I defended it -> got set (I was also in back-row) -> attacked on him -> made the point -> showed off, my big muscles haha.
All in all, the practice was not that good, but not too bad. Felt kinda like everyone was tired.

Going home from volleyball practice, tired and with an empty stomach -> makes me sad…

What did I think about? I kinda was sad to be alone (as in relationship), my knees and shoulder hurt -> thinking about quitting volleyball.
Also, I played the song “falling down” by lil peep and x -> I remembered, how we (ex and I) used to listen to rain in her bed, since it’s directly below the roof.
Because of all that, I thought back to my last relationship. I remembered, how I talked to her about quitting volleyball & everything in pain (since this was a somewhat common occurrence) and I suddenly missed her… Feels bad man…

But now I got back home, I ate a little, and most of these feelings are gone. Of course, I kinda opened Pandoras box, since this “missing her” is still kinda her, but yeah. Hopefully it won’t get to bad in the next few days (especially, since like the last week was nearly perfect!).

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Now some time later: I watched Los Ratones scrims, and I’m going to bed now. Too late once again. (But my mental did in fact improve!) So that’s it for today. Take care and see you tomorrow! Bye-Bye!

Last night: Didn’t really fall asleep, hear a fox or cat or frog or whatever screaming kinda like a child -> hear it -> wide awake (since maybe I gotta help?) -> can’t fall asleep

Morning: Then in the morning, I obviously had to get up and then I was still tired. Nonetheless, I went to uni. Today’s lecture was kinda meh. He talked for the first half about topology, which is not really necessary for any of us, but yeah. (Well, obviously it’s somewhat necessary, but not really important – you know.)

Afternoon: I stayed in uni, to do some exercises, since I was tired and if I had gone home, I wouldn’t have done any. But as it happened then, I only did like 0.5 exercises in uni. So not that efficient.
I went home at like 4:30pm, since Louis and I had planned to go to Daniels concert. (His last concert, before getting the bachelor in classical music.) But then, he texted me, that his concert will not take place… I asked why, but he didn’t reply as of yet. (I suspect, that he is depressed -> didn’t study -> canceled it.)

Evening: Since I didn’t go to the concert, I went to the gym with my mom. (Well, we both went, but we did completely different things.) Funnily enough, while I was there, Louis went to the gym as well. So I still met him.
But concerning my gym-session: Today was a bad day… I trained shoulders and arms. But both of my shoulders hurt (from volleyball – silly me) -> shoulder exercises weren’t that fun. And then, I maybe didn’t eat that good lately -> I cramped up quite fast, which was then the reason for failure (at least in some sets). And at last, whilst doing skull-crushers, my elbows had big time pressure -> they hurt also (at least this is mostly gone now).

After all that, I went home, showered, spent some time on my PC, and now I’m writing (to) you. So that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care! Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today, I was tired, so I didn’t really do anything. During the day, spent some time on YouTube. I listened to some podcasts and so on.

In the evening, I had my first volleyball practice, with the new team. It was actually really fun. At first, we talked about some things, and then we just played some volleyball variations. Since we were like 13 participants, we could play 6vs6, which also is always double the fun.

Then, some time later, back at home, I listened to some Modern Wisdom podcasts. They were about dating. One was with this woman, who helps men with dating. The lessons we learn are:
– opening lines aren’t that important. You just have to do it. (If you ask out a woman on a date)
– first conversation, then ask for number (it’s not a demand – that’s creepy)
– put effort into dating-app profiles
– if you take more than 10 texts, to get to the date part, you play it too slow
– consider the first date as “date 0” since it’s more like a little “get to know each other”. (So don’t really go to a fancy restaurant, more like a walk)
– if smart (-> not romantical conversations), carry it with being flirty (“adult play”) and physical touch
– wrong answer, may be better than the correct (“[some person] you have a sex addiction; is that right?” -> “I don’t know if it’s right, but it’s definitely enjoyable”)
– romantic talk ≠”normal” talk (two different skills – learn each one)
– women don’t think too much of looks; rather, status (show that you are a provider. Not big money, but interests, drive, trajectory and so on – you aim for somethings), make her feel desired, and have fun
But it was really interesting

The other one was about a hinge data-scientist. Here weren’t as much that interesting things, mostly just some sad-ish things.
– the spark isn’t that real
– don’t max, go for satisfaction (don’t always second guess; you’ll be happier)
– you get good at relationships, by being in one (or multiple)
and so on.

Also, one smart thing I heard, which I think is note-worthy: The greatest trick, the devil ever pulled, was, making you think, the pessimists are the good guys.

But that’s it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care and see you then! Bye-Bye!