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Hello! First, quickly about yesterday: I couldn’t fall asleep – otherwise not more. lol.

Today, I had to get up early. I set my alarm for 7:30, but I did sleep quite bad, so I woke up already at about 7am. But why did I have to get up this early? We had a practice tournament today (from volleyball). I had to leave the house at about 8:15, cycled to the train station, and then I got picked up there by Louis. Funnily enough, I saw one of my high-school friends there. So we talked a little.

Then, Louis and I drove to the gym, watched a game of Daniels youngsters, changed and then had a few games as well.
First game: We didn’t have a setter -> I played as a setter (it turned out as expected) -> lost 2:0

After that, we had a break for one hour.

After this break, we had our second game (starting at 12). We had a setter, so I didn’t need to play. Funnily enough, I subbed in myself, because I forgot, that I have a further middle-blocker -> so I played a set as a middle-blocker. But we lost this game 2:0 as well.

Third game: This was the only game I really wanted to win, because it’s against an opponent, who we’ll actually play against during the season.
We lost the first set not that close. (We were even, but then at about 14:14 they had a really good serve rotation -> we lost 25:14 ish). After that, our setter just walked out ??? (I don’t know yet, what I’m gonna do about that. Because, hello??) So then I had to sub in as a setter again.
Not to brag or anything, but we managed to win the second set, as well as the third. -> We won this game -> I’m the better setter now, I guess!

After that, we had already finished all of our games. I then assisted Daniel with his last match of his youngsters (they lost, but their opponents were technically playing a league above their own). We then showered, and went home.

So now: For this whole day, I only had a chocolate-milk for breakfast, and nothing else. Ergo, I was hungry & had low blood sugar.
Also, I saw my ex once again (since apparently she still plays volleyball – but now as a libero). I didn’t really expect it, but it still felt like kinda cold, sad, like my heart drops, when I see her. I don’t really get it… Also, she was watching two of our games, so I was kinda distracted by that.
After the shower, Daniel and I were walking to the train station, and we then saw her quickly on her bike. And she was wearing glasses. That’s new as well (I think).
All in all, we didn’t talk today, but I’d kinda like to. Not really knowing where it’d go, but still.

As you might now, if I have a kinda low blood sugar level, my mood drops massively. So after like the second game (at least, after I saw my ex), I was kinda sad. Like the whole day basically. What a bummer! Of course, this lasted until I got home and then ate a little. But yeah. Today was another day I spent thinking about my ex quite a bit.

Some time later (just about when I arrived at my usual train station to get home), I saw actually loads of people which I actually know. So first: When unlocking my bicycle, I saw my sister Sara and her husband driving on the other side of the Train station. (I stared at them, but they didn’t see me…)
Then, I drove off kinda slowly, because hungry, low energy and shit. In about the middle of the way home, I have to drive on a narrow street, which leads (kinda) to where Ellie lives. And she was coming from ahead of me (but in a car) so we waved at each other.
Then like 2 minutes later, I was on the main road, and then Yanis and his girlfriend Leah were on the opposite side of the road on their scooter. We then (obviously) saw each other, and then did like 2 rings around the rosie, on the street, until we came to a stop next to each other on the sideway. (funny times) We then talked a bit. They had to go to some event of Leah’s god-mother – but they weren’t really motivated. haha. Anyway, we parted way’s soon thereafter.

At home, I firstly ate a little bit, to get my mind under control, so I don’t spiral too bad about my ex. Then, I had planned to study some. I opened some of the old exams, took a quick gander, knew of most of the things how to solve them -> didn’t feel like studying. Also, I was really tired, so I had one more reason to not study.
Funnily enough, Daniel wrote me:” Since we didn’t goon together today, I did some myself, and look who I’ve just found on hinge”, and then sent me the screen-recorded profile of someone we both knew from volleyball. We both (well, all dudes basically) don’t really like her, so it was twice as funn¹y. We (I) did thus also find out, that she’s pan-sexual (which is basically the same as bi-sexual. Crazy hot hehe.
Then, I called Daniel with a video whatsapp call (because, apparently you can share screens) so we then hinged together with his phone – for like one hour. This was actually really funny. We gave a few likes, as well as one super like. I’m eager to see, how this will turn out. (Also, one of the standouts had some classes with me in high school. So we saw some more people we knew. Funny times.) We did that for like one hour – until I had to go eat dinner.

During all of this, my brother was watching a movie in his room (right across from mine). And apparently it was really funny. I don’t think I’ve ever heard him laugh as much as then. My mom and I both separately went to his room to ask him what he was doing, which was so funny. (He was watching “Naked Gun” – which is a spy-movie parody.) But it’s always a joy to hear him laugh that hard. (Even Daniel heard it over the phone, which was funny.)

After dinner, I studied for a little (like 30 minutes), then watched some YouTube and now I’m writing (to) you. Now, I’m about to brush my teeth, and then go to bed. It’s a quarter to 11pm right now, but I’m really tired and shit.

So all in all: It was (considering my mood) quite a bad day. Probably because I ate too little, especially when I need a (kinda) “stable” mind if I see my ex. But then I met so many people which distracted me (and even Daniel writing me with his hinge “find”), so it was kinda like the universe was helping me. Phrasing it like that, makes things a little better.

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Recently, I’ve begun to listen (again) to Mongolian throat singing. One song I really like is “Amyrai” by Altai Kai. I’m currently creating a spotify playlist with these kind of songs in it.
Also, I quite enjoy like 80’s women’s music. Like “Make Your Own Kind Of Music”. I’m also creating a playlist with songs similar to that.

1. Just to make it obvious to me in the future as to who it is: Medicine student, used to dance ballet with my sister, tall and really pretty ↩︎

Hi! Today I did pretty much the same as yesterday. Study the whole day. Well, in the morning I planned my next semester. I wrote down lectures worth 51 ECTS – which is wayyy to much, but I think I’ll actually try to max this next semester. If I’d complete all of this, I’d finally have my bachelors degree.

In the afternoon, at about 4pm, I had a small break, during which I kinda helped Sara prepare for her oral exam. (She’s furthering her education to become a one-better-logistician.) Otherwise, I did a lot of complex analysis type shit.
Actually, after lunch, I talked with my father a bit, and I kinda explained some complex analysis things to him (the residue theorem) and he seemed to actually kinda get it. This made me kinda happy.

Then, in the evening, once my site-blocker turned off, I spent my time watching YouTube. I saw a really good documentary about bird-watching. It was about 2 fellas not getting bird-watching (and once whilst high thinking:” Wouldn’t it be crazy too see all those birds from this bird book”), so they made(?) a “big year”. Which, in bearding terms, just means “writing down all bird species you see in a year, and trying to maximize this number”.
While watching this, I thought to myself:” This would be a nice hobby. Kinda similar to fishing – except I don’t like fish…”.

And just before, I made my site-blocker more strict, so it blocks all sites except between 19:30 and 23:30. It’s kinda annoying, but you can’t really do this, so technically it only blocks the sites from 23:30 -> 23:50 and 00:00 -> 19:30. But since I’ll make it even more strict in the future, It won’t matter that much (I guess).

But that’s already all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was similar to how the whole week was, except I was a stay-home student. But basically the whole day I studied, and in the evening I watched some YouTube. That’s basically all for today. Nothing really to tell.

Well – what did I study? Just some definitions and important lemmas from probability theory. It was really hard. It took like 18 minutes just to have one round of 5 cards… Some cards alone took like 5 minutes. Oh, I also did this with writing down, instead of just saying them in my head. This took a little more time, but I think it also helped for quick memorization.

Also, this afternoon, it suddenly started raining real hard. At the “worst” time, I couldn’t even see through the window, because it was just a water fall all over it. Also, I have a window in my room, which has a roof above it, which is like 1 meter overhanging, and today it also rained through that. Never seen that before.
But the rain stopped after like 15 minutes, so it wasn’t that bad.

And also, today I set up a time for the meeting with my professor for my bachelors thesis thingy. Like organization wise things. It’s next Tuesday, So I guess then is my official begin of my bachelors thesis.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Today I was thinking about moving to a poor(er) country, just for the sake of “having to live” or some shit. Fun times fantasizing…

Hello! The day today was nearly identical to yesterday. Only in the evening I had volleyball practice. And let me tell you: It was shit! We were only sic people, and we hadn’t been that focused. Well, happens sometimes. It’s just a little annoying that it was today, since we have a preparation tournament this Saturday…

Anyway. Back at home, I watched some videos, brushed my teeth, and now I’m already ready to go to bed & I’m tired as well.

And also, I gotta confess a little. I had a few “swipes” on my hinge profile – which technically is not in use yet, but I’m kinda curious as to how it’ll turn out.

So that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was as uninteresting as possible. I woke up -> going to university -> study until like 4:30 -> go home -> relax until dinner -> realize, that I didn’t see the mail from my supervisor of my bachelors thesis, so I wrote one more email to the prof for my official proposal entry -> dinner -> watch some videos on YouTube (nothing that interesting. I even got bored, and then I solved some sudokus lol) -> shower -> bed.

As I got up kinda early today as well, I was kinda grumpy today. I’m an unc…

Also, today in university, some of the students were talking about communism and shit. I of course tried to not listen to them, but some trickled through. So in turn my mind got a little infected with this useless politics talk.

Also, I initially had planned to study some more at home, but that didn’t happen…

That’s already all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was not that interesting – at least from the perspective of a diary. I woke up (by my alarm :( ) -> going to university -> study the whole day -> going home -> relax a bit until dinner (like 30 minutes) (keep in mind, YouTube and shit was blocked, so it was a real “relaxing session”).

After dinner I had volleyball practice. As usual, I wanted to go to the train-station with my bicycle but it was storming outside, so I was forced to let me drive there. Emily drove. It was actually surprisingly good, given she didn’t drive for like 2 months.
Anyway, practice was surprisingly good, considering we were only 5 persons.

Also, after practice (and a little before) I convinced Daniel to un-pause his hinge, which he did, and then we “gooned” a little. We gave surprisingly a lot of likes. Over the whole evening, like 5 – which is way more than I give if I’m “hinge-ing” alone. And it was really fun.

Then, since I was driven to the train-station, my dad came to pick me up, so I get home. -> I was at home at about 10 past eleven -> ate a small sandwich -> watched some YouTube.

Now for the YouTube part: I knew, I only had like 45 minutes (until midnight) before my blocker begins blocking. So I kinda tried to watch “interesting” / “important” things. But as it turned out, there weren’t really any. So in a way, since I only had a little time, I tried to use it wisely, which then made me make the obvious observation, that non of the recommended videos were a “wise choice”. So in the end, I spent like half the time only looking at thumbnails, instead of actual videos.

Now it’s a little after 12, and I’m tired (because I got up kinda early and had a hard time falling asleep yesterday). So that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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I quickly have to write down something funny, which happened today at university whilst we were studying math. My friends sat across the table, and did some prove with “n large”. Then one of them said:” n is really big. Like [thinking pause] hundred-thousand”. hahaha
(It’s not that funny like this, but in the moment it was really funny!)

Hello! Today was Sunday, which is my “cheat day” for my internet ban. Hehe, only 2 days after I set the scheduled ban. So, I made the most of it, and in turn did not study at all.

I finished the 2nd season of “the Apothecary diaries”. It was getting kinda boring mid season, but wasn’t too bad all in all. Season three is only announced, but no release date is publicly known.

Otherwise, I’ve seen some car videos on YouTube, but that’s about it.

Oh – for dinner, my brother made Cordon Bleu, which is one of my favorite foods ever.

But yeah, that’s already about all for today. It’s currently quarter to one, and I’m not really tired as of yet, but don’t really have anything to do. So I guess I’ll head to bed. Tomorrow I’m going to the university!

I’ll see you tomorrow then. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today, I had like the worst tinnitus ever. At least of my live. I don’t know where I got it from (maybe yesterday evening, in the shower, the water went right in to my right ear, like once or twice or some shit). So I woke up today, with a terrible high pitch in my right ear. It was so bad, that when I whistled the right frequency, I hear a 2nd tone in my ear (kinda like a terrible auto-correct for my hearing). It was the worst!

Anyway. Once I was up, I went to Brienz with my parents to go visit a newly built house from my 2nd cousins. This “newly built house” was a rebuild of the house from my great grandparents, which was destroyed in a mud slide a few years ago, so they rebuilt it. (I mostly went with them, so I could drive. So overall I drove for like 3 hours today, which was nice!)
The house, let me tell you, has a stunning view. They had their dinning room with huge windows, so they see right onto the lake. They are also quite far up, so they see over all the houses below them. And the meadow right next to their house, will stay forever, since legally you’ll never be allowed to build there anything.
As mentioned before, I saw some of my distant cousins again. I didn’t really know anyone haha. But I talked a little… (I don’t know if this is weird, but one woman there was kinda bad. But maybe she’s my cousin twice removed, so that’d be a bit weird. Maybe she also just some friend of the people there 👀)
All these shenanigans took like until 5pm when we got home.

At home, I studied a little bit (my site blocker was working) but I was also really tired, so I didn’t do that much.

For dinner, Emily and I had a Greek salad with some bread. We also talked a little, and she said, that it’s cringe to be on dating apps. Cringe Emily!

After dinner, I mostly watched some more of “the Apothecary diaries”, then took a shower and that’s about it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today I mostly did nothing (watching videos). I also studied a little.

I started to watch a new anime, called: “the apothecary diaries”. It’s kinda a detective story type shit, but in a china/japan from a few hundred years ago setting. It’s amusing, and I’m gonna be honest: I only started watching it, because my favorite commentary-Youtuber watched the first episode and I thought, that it’d be good if I know what all’s about.

And just before, I blocked every site which I use and shouldn’t. Now, I’ve had this before. How is it different this time? There is an option to only be able to make changes with the password. Now, I just smacked my keyboard for like 100 characters -> I don’t know the password -> I cannot unblock these sites anymore. lol
So we’ll see how I’ll manage.

(I just realized some things. I can just have them send me my password to my email. So now I also blocked my google-mail, in order for me not being able to just copy and paste it from there. So now I’d have to open my google-mail on my phone, and then copy it from there to my PC.
Also, I set times for when this filter is active. It’s for every day except Sunday, and it blocks from midnight to 7pm. So I can still waste my evenings, but I also cannot stay up for too long.)

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was nearly identical to yesterday. I watched too much YouTube, but I studied a little and in the afternoon I had my physical therapy. Actually, today was the last time I had an appointment, since my doctors note just ran out. But all of that was just as usual.

Ah, in the late afternoon, I helped my mom cook. We just made an easy money spaghetti bolognese.

Yeah… That’s already all for today. Nothing really interesting had happened. But I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care & Bye-Bye!