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Hi! As I’m basically already half asleep, imma keep it short.

Morning: AI & ML seminar (did not talk to my crush – sad) -> going home -> lunch

Afternoon: PC time

(Early) Evening: I had to go teach Emiliana’s youngsters some volleyball (since she usually can’t during their practice -> I had practice on my own (it was quite good) -> going home -> some more PC time -> Bed.

That’s about it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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I also was still a little bit bummed out about my ex. You know, from yesterday. But not too bad. I expect tomorrow to be as usual (since 1 day in between).

Yo! Today, I slept late -> some PC time -> lunch -> packing my stuff and waiting for my ride, since I had a volleyball game.

But just before our game, Louis, Mason and I went to watch the first women’s team game. It was OK. The opponents were just way better.

Then, our game was against the talent’s-team. So they were all like 15 year old kids and shit, which actually have potential.
Long story short: We won 3:1. Our opponents were kinda mad -> they went to talk to the ref quite often -> they got a yellow card. Jokes.
Also, from the 2nd set on, we had quite some fans. Alec even showed up. It the got quite fun!

After the game, like half of our team went to eat. But as it was already like 9-ish, we didn’t really spend much time in the diner and left quite quickly.

Daniel drove me home – just after we delivered 2 things, which were left forgotten in the gym. SMH. We also spent quite a lot of time just talking – what a surprise :OMG:. Nothing really special here though.

Back at home, I brushed my teeth -> some time on PC -> now I’m writing (to) you -> bed.

That’s about it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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In the car ride to our game, my ex came up in the conversation (by coincidence – actually, they were talking about the same volleyball tournament that they went last year; which then fucked me up quite bad, if you rememeber.), and then 2 things happened:
1. Mason asked, if it’s OK for me if they talked about her in front of me, to which I replied, that it usually doesn’t hurt bad, so it’s OK. To which then Louis said: it’s hard to remember that I too have feelings, since I don’t really show them.
2. Mason asked, if our (my ex & I) breakup was good or bad: To which Louis replied, that according to me, it was not bad, but according to her, it was. So that kinda sucks.
But I guess, I would have to talk to her. But I don’t really wanna.

Also, my ex did kinda watch at least some part of our game, which still kinda feels weird to me. Since, I usually take a look at the “crowd” to see who’s watching our game, and then we always make some eye-contact. And then, for obvious reasons, each time I look to the crowd, we look at each other. Quite weird if you ask me.

Yo! Today was just like the other days. In the morning, I woke up without any headache at all, which was nice, but also really early. That means, at 8. Which is only early, since I went to bed quite late. Then, I got up, but not too late after, I got really tired again, so I went to bed again. I then slept until lunch.

Otherwise, I did spend too much time on my PC and worked a little on my bachelors thesis.

In the evening, my sister Leah came over. I went to pick her up at the train-station
-> she ate dinner with us
-> Coincidentally, my other sister Sarah and her Husband also came over
-> We all played the card game “lying” which was quite funny. My (our) mom also helped, which was hilarious, since she can’t lie. Always when she played a card and was lying, she immediately started to laugh. It was really sweet.
-> some more PC time
-> shower
-> bed (soon).

That’s about it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hey hey! Today was not a that interesting day. Quite similar to yesterday.

Alarm: I just remembered that yesterday I forgot to tell you, that I cooked dinner. This didn’t really happen today though. lol.

Anyway, today: I spent a lot of time on my PC, and I worked some more on my bachelors thesis.

In the evening, I went over to Pete, and there we had a few beers & played some games. At first, we played some chess -> Jones joined, and we played some card game -> Jones left & we played some more chess. We actually didn’t play the “normal” chess, but a variant, where the goal is to lose all your figures, and you have to take if you can. Quite funny, ngl.
Also, since we played chess, I had to tell them about a little about my crush. Not that much though. Only, that she’s quite successful in chess, and that I want to ask her out on a date.
Ultimately, I left at half past twelve.

At home, I spent some time on my PC -> shower -> now I’m writing (to) you.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Today was my mothers aunt funereal. Not really related to me, but I thought, I’d mention it as a quick side note.

Hi! Today, was mostly like yesterday. I spent a lot of time just chilling on twitch, and some time working on my studies. More time than yesterday or the day before for sure (studying).

And that’s already about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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I thought some more about the woman I told you about, and something weird happened. I don’t really know why, but if I think like too much about someone they somehow get a little less attractive to me(?). (Not in a looks way, but just generally speaking. But also a little in a looks way lol.) Really weird.

What’s up? Today was another day. I didn’t do that much – but at least a little. During the day, I worked a little on my bachelors thesis (some more model fine-tuning & openAI API installment). And since I’m an addict, some twitch time.

In the evening, I had volleyball practice. Since we were only six people, it was meh, but all right given the circumstances.

And yeah, that’s already pretty much it about me for today. I also did think some about my newly formed crush lol. Also, I am currently on dating apps, but since I now have a crush, I don’t really want to use them at all. I kinda like that – not gonna lie!

That’s it from me. I’ll see you tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today was quite a shit day. It all began in the night even. First, I couldn’t fall asleep yesterday evening, and then I woke up like twice before my alarm, and had a hard time falling asleep again. Then, I made the executive decision, to not go to uni today, but try to get a good sleep. -> I slept until ~10.

Then, during the whole day, I didn’t do shit. Nice!

Quick side note before following essay: I kinda had a bad mood today. I don’t really know why, but it also kinda explains why I did what I did:

In the evening (during dinner to be precise) I had a up-fuck. It kinda started when Jordan was jokingly insulting Emily (as it happens sometimes – so nothing special). Then, out of no-where, she just insulted me. But not on funny things, but things which are actually bad (so things which you usually don’t joke about).
Then, she did it again. For a 2nd time during dinner. For no reason. I haven’t even really said anything until this point.
A short while later, I did insult her based on her weight. Always a risky move with women, but I infact did kinda want to hurt(?) her a tiny bit. You know what I mean. Thing is, she couldn’t handle it at all. -> She started to cry.
Then, my mom screamed at me (for like a whole minute straight – not even exaggerating) and things were fucked up from that point on – not really surprising.
It kinda calmed a bit, since you know, it always does. Well, Emily left, and ate not at the table with us. But for the others, it kinda got better.

So then after dinner & kinda during, Jordan and I tried to explain our situation, since obviously, but our mom only kinda got it. It was a whole fiasco.

Then, once I was back in my room, Emily came to say, that she didn’t want to hurt me, and I told her, that she isn’t fat at all.
And then also, my mom came to excuse herself, since during her rant, she also said I maybe should move out, but yeah. She didn’t mean it (not really surprising).

So now, I kinda feel bad – obviously. But I still don’t think, I actually did anything wrong. But since I feel bad, I maybe did. Kinda sucks though.

So yeah. That’s about all for today already. A pretty bad day. I hope you had a better. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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I couldn’t really stop thinking about the girl from yesterday – you know, chess woman. LOL. It even already got to the point, where I thought, that I maybe should go to uni today, because I maybe see her then (I’ve never seen her on a Tuesday before). Yurr

Hi! Today, I woke up quite tired. I went to bed at 2 & woke up at ~8. (To be honest, I expected to sleep in, since the night before that, I only slept for 4 hours. But I guess, I was nervous enough, so I’d wake up anyway.)

So, after I woke up, I went to uni. There, I first had to listen to some presentations, and then I had my own. The thing is, we only had 5 minutes, and if we took too long, it was some minus points. This was really not enough time -> I had to skip some parts on the fly. But I guess, all in all it did go well.
Once done with the presentations, we had to answer some questions about today’s paper. I didn’t really read it though, so I wont explain what it was about.

Then, I left, and went home. There, I ate lunch and then spent some time on my PC. I nearly fell asleep in the afternoon, but I didn’t want to, so I just solved some Sudokus (so I had something to do).

After dinner, I had volleyball practice. Daniel didn’t come. SMH! But it was a good practice today (we trained receives). The drills were quite good, but the playing in the end sucked. Otherwise, it was good.

-> Back home -> more time on my PC -> bed.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Today, I think I kinda developed a crush lol. I have this one woman in my class, and she’s attractive and smart. Then (since I know her name) I did a quick google search, and turns out, she’s a famous chess-person. Holy surprise
But we’ll see if anything’s gonna happen.

Also, I did not see the Asian Woman today either. SMH

Hi! As I have to go to bed real soon, imma make it short:

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During the day, I didn’t really do shit. After dinner, Jordan & I worked a bit on our Porsche (it was bad lol. we broke the new fuel-pump, and found out, that we ordered some wrong parts -> we now have to wait 3 weeks again…)
Then, I did go out with Josh. Through some bad luck, we just missed Yanis -> I was stuck with the friend group of Ellie -> we drank a bit & it got late. At about 3am we decided to go home. As it happened, Ellie and I were pretty much alone going home, so we talked for quite a bit -> I got home at ~5:40 -> shower (I was fucking freezing. It was -9°C and once I was in the shower, my hands and feet hurt like someone punched nails inside of them. Anyway, I went to bed a little after 6.

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I got up at 9:30-ish but didn’t do much either. In the evening I had to do my presentation for tomorrow morning, since I pushed it to the limit. Now it’s 2am & I have to get up in 6 hours in order to present this super cool paper. Yey.

That’s about it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today was another uneventful day. In the morning, I had to get up somewhat early in order to go to the shoulder specialist for a check-up. To keep a long story short: I have to do physical therapy.
After that, I walked to the train-station (~20 minutes) and it was snowing. Really nice! Then, I took the train back home -> lunch.

After lunch, I didn’t really have a lot to do (or at least I didn’t do much), so I watched some Twitch, was really tired, so I took a 2 hour nap.

Actually, I had a pretty interesting dream. Josh, Yanis and I were in the mountains hiking (I believe), and then for some we joined a cult. About this whole “joining the cult” part: I’m not entirely sure how that had happened, but we joined.
Turns out, we weren’t that happy, so we wanted to leave the cult – which meant fleeing. For this, we stole one of the cults cars and drove off. Then, they did try to hunt us down. We managed to escape, but we were still on the run -> I woke up.
Funnily enough, I was actually kinda mad that I woke up, since it was really interesting.

Then, I ate dinner with my family (also Sarah was over) -> mom and dad had to leave so I spent some time talking with Sarah. ~1.5 Hours later, she did leave (to go home) and then Jordan and I installed the car radio. This was super easy (we had to plug in like 3 cables and that was it.
Though, there were a few cables which weren’t used. So Jordan wanted to find out what those were for -> it took like 1 hour & we still don’t know haha

Then, I spent some more time on my PC -> shower -> now I’m here writing (to) you. That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!