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Hi! Today was quite a shit day. It all began in the night even. First, I couldn’t fall asleep yesterday evening, and then I woke up like twice before my alarm, and had a hard time falling asleep again. Then, I made the executive decision, to not go to uni today, but try to get a good sleep. -> I slept until ~10.

Then, during the whole day, I didn’t do shit. Nice!

Quick side note before following essay: I kinda had a bad mood today. I don’t really know why, but it also kinda explains why I did what I did:

In the evening (during dinner to be precise) I had a up-fuck. It kinda started when Jordan was jokingly insulting Emily (as it happens sometimes – so nothing special). Then, out of no-where, she just insulted me. But not on funny things, but things which are actually bad (so things which you usually don’t joke about).
Then, she did it again. For a 2nd time during dinner. For no reason. I haven’t even really said anything until this point.
A short while later, I did insult her based on her weight. Always a risky move with women, but I infact did kinda want to hurt(?) her a tiny bit. You know what I mean. Thing is, she couldn’t handle it at all. -> She started to cry.
Then, my mom screamed at me (for like a whole minute straight – not even exaggerating) and things were fucked up from that point on – not really surprising.
It kinda calmed a bit, since you know, it always does. Well, Emily left, and ate not at the table with us. But for the others, it kinda got better.

So then after dinner & kinda during, Jordan and I tried to explain our situation, since obviously, but our mom only kinda got it. It was a whole fiasco.

Then, once I was back in my room, Emily came to say, that she didn’t want to hurt me, and I told her, that she isn’t fat at all.
And then also, my mom came to excuse herself, since during her rant, she also said I maybe should move out, but yeah. She didn’t mean it (not really surprising).

So now, I kinda feel bad – obviously. But I still don’t think, I actually did anything wrong. But since I feel bad, I maybe did. Kinda sucks though.

So yeah. That’s about all for today already. A pretty bad day. I hope you had a better. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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I couldn’t really stop thinking about the girl from yesterday – you know, chess woman. LOL. It even already got to the point, where I thought, that I maybe should go to uni today, because I maybe see her then (I’ve never seen her on a Tuesday before). Yurr

Hi! Today, I woke up quite tired. I went to bed at 2 & woke up at ~8. (To be honest, I expected to sleep in, since the night before that, I only slept for 4 hours. But I guess, I was nervous enough, so I’d wake up anyway.)

So, after I woke up, I went to uni. There, I first had to listen to some presentations, and then I had my own. The thing is, we only had 5 minutes, and if we took too long, it was some minus points. This was really not enough time -> I had to skip some parts on the fly. But I guess, all in all it did go well.
Once done with the presentations, we had to answer some questions about today’s paper. I didn’t really read it though, so I wont explain what it was about.

Then, I left, and went home. There, I ate lunch and then spent some time on my PC. I nearly fell asleep in the afternoon, but I didn’t want to, so I just solved some Sudokus (so I had something to do).

After dinner, I had volleyball practice. Daniel didn’t come. SMH! But it was a good practice today (we trained receives). The drills were quite good, but the playing in the end sucked. Otherwise, it was good.

-> Back home -> more time on my PC -> bed.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Today, I think I kinda developed a crush lol. I have this one woman in my class, and she’s attractive and smart. Then (since I know her name) I did a quick google search, and turns out, she’s a famous chess-person. Holy surprise
But we’ll see if anything’s gonna happen.

Also, I did not see the Asian Woman today either. SMH

Hi! As I have to go to bed real soon, imma make it short:

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During the day, I didn’t really do shit. After dinner, Jordan & I worked a bit on our Porsche (it was bad lol. we broke the new fuel-pump, and found out, that we ordered some wrong parts -> we now have to wait 3 weeks again…)
Then, I did go out with Josh. Through some bad luck, we just missed Yanis -> I was stuck with the friend group of Ellie -> we drank a bit & it got late. At about 3am we decided to go home. As it happened, Ellie and I were pretty much alone going home, so we talked for quite a bit -> I got home at ~5:40 -> shower (I was fucking freezing. It was -9°C and once I was in the shower, my hands and feet hurt like someone punched nails inside of them. Anyway, I went to bed a little after 6.

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I got up at 9:30-ish but didn’t do much either. In the evening I had to do my presentation for tomorrow morning, since I pushed it to the limit. Now it’s 2am & I have to get up in 6 hours in order to present this super cool paper. Yey.

That’s about it for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today was another uneventful day. In the morning, I had to get up somewhat early in order to go to the shoulder specialist for a check-up. To keep a long story short: I have to do physical therapy.
After that, I walked to the train-station (~20 minutes) and it was snowing. Really nice! Then, I took the train back home -> lunch.

After lunch, I didn’t really have a lot to do (or at least I didn’t do much), so I watched some Twitch, was really tired, so I took a 2 hour nap.

Actually, I had a pretty interesting dream. Josh, Yanis and I were in the mountains hiking (I believe), and then for some we joined a cult. About this whole “joining the cult” part: I’m not entirely sure how that had happened, but we joined.
Turns out, we weren’t that happy, so we wanted to leave the cult – which meant fleeing. For this, we stole one of the cults cars and drove off. Then, they did try to hunt us down. We managed to escape, but we were still on the run -> I woke up.
Funnily enough, I was actually kinda mad that I woke up, since it was really interesting.

Then, I ate dinner with my family (also Sarah was over) -> mom and dad had to leave so I spent some time talking with Sarah. ~1.5 Hours later, she did leave (to go home) and then Jordan and I installed the car radio. This was super easy (we had to plug in like 3 cables and that was it.
Though, there were a few cables which weren’t used. So Jordan wanted to find out what those were for -> it took like 1 hour & we still don’t know haha

Then, I spent some more time on my PC -> shower -> now I’m here writing (to) you. That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today, I didn’t do shit. That’s about all. Though, I did solve some Sudoku’s this afternoon.

That’s already all. See you tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today, during the day, not much happened. I woke up at like 10:30-ish in the morning, and then pretty much just waited until lunch. I was still really tired – after an 8 hour long night.
Then, after lunch, I was so tired, I went back to bed, and slept for 1.5 hours. Once I got up again, I did solve one more numeric exercise and then spent some time on my PC.

In the evening, I had to eat a bit earlier than the others, since today we had a volleyball match. -> I was picked up at home at 18:20. Then, we went to pick up Daniel -> drove to our game.

About the game
We were only 7 players, one of which was Daniel (as a libero) so I did not have any changes open. Made it easier for me as a coach – but not optimal.
1st set: We won with a mostly good gap in points.
2nd set: We did not win, but it was really close (24:26). Though, we did make a lot of mistakes ourselves.
3rd set: We did play really bad so we lost.
4th set: The other setter (other than me) decided that it’s time to win, so he came to serve on like 2:2 -> 13:2. From then on, it was an easy win.
5th set: We used the momentum from the 4th set and carried through to the end, and won 15:11. Actually, for the last point, Leon and I decided to play a “fast- ball”. And let me tell you. This was to coolest point of the match. He did not have any block, so he bounced the ball onto 4th meter line.

Once the game was over, we went back home. At least, initially that was the plan. But then, Yanis & Josh wrote asked me to join them for a quick round in the pub – which I then did.
We just talked a bit, and about one hour after I arrived there, we went home.

At home, I ate a little, spent some time on YouTube &/ Twitch -> brushed my teeth, and now I’m here writing (to) you.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I had to get up early, and then went to university. There I had my numeric lecture, and then solved some exercises. And rather swiftly it was already time for lunch. I had a Pizza with meat-balls on it. (Ngl, it was meh lol)

Quick side note: One woman in the place where I was solving my exercises looked really similar to my ex. I mean, from the side, they weren’t really distinguishable. It was actually really confusing. I think, she believes, I was staring at her, since I did have to make sure, that it wasn’t my ex lool. (But yeah, she studies in a different university, and law – and most definitely not math haha)

Then, in the afternoon, it was just like any other Tuesday: Solving exercises -> lecture -> going back home. At home, I spent some time on my PC, nearly fell asleep, and then it was time for dinner.

We had Pizza. My 2nd Pizza of the day. What a time to be alive.

After dinner, I held the practice of our 2nd men’s-team. It was somewhat amusing. Also, my name-brother (whose father just passed away – as mentioned yesterday) did come to practice. So I could talk to him. But I think, he’s got it mostly under control. Also, after practice he did say, that it was nice to play volleyball once again (he was in the army for like the last year) since it’s just some not-thinking action.
All in all, I think it was nice that he came.

Then, once practice was over, I went back home, spent some more time on my PC, and now I’m writing (to) you. Also, I want to take a shower right now, but the bath is occupied -> I gotta wait some time.

But that’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today, I woke up extra early, so I had enough time on the toilet, since we had Raclette yesterday lol. It was worth it though haha. Then, I headed to uni -> seminar
(Today’s paper was not really interesting, and also it was shit. They had a few mistakes, some unclear things and it was hard to read.
It was about MLLM’s (LLM’s which also receive more kinds of data as input, instead of just text – i.e. images) and how well they’re able to solve some tasks specified on an image (for example walk through a maze). But nothing too crazy was discovered. It was better, when it used the images – wow what a surprise.
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After the seminar, I went home. Today, I (sadly) didn’t see the Asian woman either. What a bummer. -> Lunch

the afternoon, I spent some time on my PC -> nearly fell asleep -> lied into my bed & immediately wasn’t tired anymore (classic) -> did some hinge & Bumble action (nothing important happened as of yet) -> some more PC time -> dinner -> volleyball practice.

In today’s practice, we were only seven persons, but given that, it went quite good. And then, after practice, since Louis was really tired, I drove home with his car.
Also, someone told me, that one team member (name-brother), of an old team, his father just died. In an accident. Shit just sucks. But makes me appreciate my parents more.

Back at home, some more PC time -> brush teeth & now I’m here writing (to) you. That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Just before, in a stream, a song played, which is exactly the type of song my ex used to listen to. So this made me kinda think of her. But once it was over, the thoughts pretty swiftly stopped – luckily.

Hello! Today, I slept in once again and then in the morning I didn’t really do anything.

In the afternoon, we had a family-day. This means, that we just spent the day as a family. Today, we had two groups. One group did some decor-stars out of paper-bags; the other (which I was a part of) made cookies.

Then, once the afternoon was over, we ate Racelette together. Obviously we talked a lot, but nothing really interesting. Once, the embarrasing-ish topic of me and dating came up… But it ended a few minutes in, and to my luck, I shifted it in a way, so each and everyone had their few minutes of shames. At least, all the single ones.

Then, once this all was over, I spent some time on my PC -> shower & now I’m here. That’s already about all for today (it was more than it seems from just the written text above). I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today, I slept long, and then for basically the whole day, I didn’t know what to do. I tried some numeric exercise, and watched some twitch streams. Also, I did send out a few likes on hing – for the first time in like 3 weeks.

Then, in the late afternoon, Daniel and I went to watch some volleyball game, right before our own match. It was OK.

Then, we had our match ourselves. It was a terrible match. I mean, our opponents played like shit, and we played OK-ish at best. But we won 3:0 none the less. Also, I did have to play as a setter, which was my first real game as a setter. It was quite OK. I had one terrible fail, and a few really good sets. But nothing too special.

Oddly, my ex GF was watching the beginning of our game. And she was alone. What the helly? At first, it distracted me a little, but then, in the firs set, she did leave – which I didn’t realize during it -> I guess it wasn’t too bad.
Though, I did have a little pity for her, since I have/had this thought in my head, that she doesn’t really have any friends in the club.

Then, after our game, Daniel and I showered for nearly an hour, went to a MacDonald to eat a little, and then drove back home.

At home, I just watched some YouTube and now I’m writing (to) you. That’s already all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Just before, I did start to think a little about my ex (since she watched some part of my/our game) and it did make me a little sad. But then I realized, that I, myself, opened Pandora’s box -> it’s my own fault, so I stopped thinking about it, which made it better again.