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Hello! I don’t really know, what I did today during the day. Nothing really.

Really early in the morning (like 5:30) I started to wake up, from time to time, since I had an amazing idea for my bachelors-thesis (see paragraph below), and today we had a volleyball-game against my old team. So double interesting. Also, it was our first game of the season. Always exciting.

In the morning, I was trying to understand how BERT works, (well, I did most of that already yesterday evening) and then I thought of a “new way” (to me it’s new) to use BERT for error detection. I’m not gonna explain it here though.

Then, I was kinda hungry, took a little break, one thing lead to another, and I cooked dinner. I made spaghetti bolognese. It was good.

Oh, also, today was my fathers birthday. And it just so happens, that yesterday he was informed at his work, that 80% of the employees are gonna get laid off. Which most likely is him. What a birthday present!
But he isn’t too concerned about it. He takes it like a champ.

In the afternoon, I was too excited to do anything at all. So immediately after lunch, I drove my brother to his work -> small groceries for dinner -> back home -> didn’t really do anything -> went to pick up my brother from work again -> dinner.
As today was my fathers birthday, he cooked dinner. It’s our family tradtion. It’s some sweet dish, with apples in dough cooked in the oven, and then eaten with vanilla cream. And it was nice!

After that, I was already picked up for the match today. But imma keep this short:
– it was fun
– we won the first set easily (I played)
– 2nd set: (I didn’t play) we lost quite bad (25:19)
– 3rd set: (I played again) we lost somewhat close (25:23) (we were down like 5 points pretty much from the start, but then we got back into it -> 23:23; but then sadly we lost 23:25)
– 4th set: (I didn’t start) we lost surprisingly close (We fucked up bad in the beginning -> 0:10 -> but we managed to get back (I played like a mad man – they said, I was aura-farming) but in the end we lost 25:19).
-> it was always fun though, and really fair. We both admitted our mistakes.

-> go home. In the car, I showed Daniel the chat I had with Diana, and he said it was based (I think was the word) that I admitted that I had the crush on Caroline.

At home, I did put the jerseys into the washer -> ate while it was washing -> hanging the jerseys and now I’m writing (to) you.

That’s basically all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Not even gonna lie: I was still bummed out, that Caroline has a boyfriend. Kinda funny, but also annoying (that I’m still bummed out, and that she has a boyfriend).

Hi! Today was whack. As I told you yesterday, I asked Diana to tell me if Caroline is single or not. Turn’s out, she’s not :(. Let me tell you! (Funnily enough) I was really spiraling, even though, nothing has happened yet lul. My thought process was actually kinda interesting though.

First, I thought, “maaannn, what a jerk”, “Who does he (her boyfriend) think he is”. Then, I imagined him as a ugly weak-man (you know, to cope). Then, I asked myself (in my imagination) “how did he land her though?” so he got funny. Then, the first copium started to hit.
Second, I thought, he probably is good-looking as well, cuz why wouldn’t he be? I mean, he landed Caroline. And then, it felt better too. (Funnily enough, it sorta makes me feel, like I wasn’t even part of the competition, which then makes me less sad lul).
But yeah – I felt all my dreams with her collapsing.

Then, I too imagined, that I’m gonna talk to Diana, and then for some odd reason, she asks me about my crush, and then we swiftly talk about her. Then, she overhears us, joins in on the talk, and wants to know, who my crush is.
As usual, I didn’t wanna say. So first, she did ask if it’s someone she knows and shit, but then in the end, I told her anyway. And then it’s like “why?” (she asks, meaning why I have a crush on her and shit) and then I have my “public” therapy session. lol.
Also, it was kinda sad, but my ideal first date most probably won’t happen now. Most definitely not with her, anyway.

All joking aside – today was bummed because of that. I didn’t really wanna do anything. Also, it feels kinda bad, since she was the first crush I had with potential, since Emiliana (who obviously had a boyfriend and still does – so she doesn’t really count) or rather my last girlfriend.
It was kinda like a mini-break-up. Me and my fantasy of Caroline. Damn…

What I found interesting was, that I felt better, the better I thought of her boyfriend - even though I'm jealous. So, it made me feel better, the more I think of him. Which kinda makes sense, but is the exact opposite of the usual coping, my friends (or probably everyone) does.

Write that down! Something actually smart on here for once.

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Now, back to reality: What did I do today?

Morning: I had a headache when I woke up, so I decided not to go to university, and study at home. Also, at about 10 I got the terrible news, so I was a little bummed out. Actually kinda good, that I wasn’t at the university. (My bummed out being took all in all maybe 1 hour lol.)

Lunch: Mom had an old school-friend of hers over. And it was kinda funny, she did ask everyone what they did this morning, except me. So I guess, I’m not the favorite child. lul.
Also, the package with stuff for Jordans and my car came. So we did open it too, directly after lunch.

Afternoon: Some more studying, and then some Sudoku-solving. Also, I did get an answer to all the questions I asked my bachelors-thesis-supervisor, so I did a little work today on that. Probably more tomorrow though.

Evening: Jordan and I did the first build on our car. We changed the holders for the hood, so now it hold’s itself. Kinda nice, since we’re gonna work on the engine on Saturday.
Then, I spent some time on YouTube – nothing that interesting though.

Now, I’m writing (to) you, and then imma take a shower, and go to bed. That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was another day, let me tell you. Not that interesting though hehe.

It was a classic Monday. Wake up -> go to uni for AI & ML seminar.

Today’s paper was about inductive and transductive learning. More precisely: They fine-tuned llama to solve few-shot problems (these are problems, where you get a few examples, and then apply the observed rule on a new thing – pretty much exactly like IQ-tests.)
And what does inductive or transductive mean? Inductive means, that they told the LLM to create a python-function, which solves the problem.
Transductive means, that they told the LLM: Just give us the answer, without any reasoning.

They then found out, that these different methods are good on different kinds of questions. Kinda similar to you solving math problems by exact computation (inductive) and then writing an essay, is more like just winging it (transductive).

Also, the best method was if they combined both LLM’s. Not really surprising, since if they solve different problems, they are better, if each solves the problem which it can.

Then, after this was over, I went back home, ate a little, & did some nothing-work (some non-important things for volleyball (looking how other teams were in the last games that they had) and then some sudokus). But let me tell you, my head did hurt – actually since yesterday. I suspected, that I might get ill. So I took some vitamin C pills, and went to bed. It was actually some good sleep!

Once I was back up again, it was time for dinner. And after dinner, we had volleyball practice.
The practice wasn’t that great. We had no setter, but were 11 people. So we ended up playing 5 vs 6 for about one hour. (Before that, we did some serve-reception and out-of-the-system-sets.)

After practice, we went back home (obviously), I watched a YouTube video (from A GoodwinTV) and solved one more sudoku – which I couldn’t solve in the afternoon.

And now it’s time for bed. That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Actually, just before, I wrote Diana, to ask if Caroline is single. (I just asked, if she could help me out a little, so I’m gonna ask tomorrow, since she didn’t answer yet…) But that whole thing is now in motion. So hopefully, I can tell you some good news tomorrow!

Hi! As today was my cheat-day, I hardly did anything. I watched a lot of YouTube – not that big of a surprise.

That’s nearly all for today. I did think some more about my bachelors-thesis, and about 2 hours ago, I also read the paper which I need for the ML & AI seminar tomorrow. I’ll tell you what it’s about tomorrow. Then I took a shower.

[Context: It’s a nearly full-moon, and I can’t really take good pictures of the moon with my phone, since kinda old phone.] After the shower, I asked myself, if I could make “good” pictures of the moon on my phone, if I just held some binoculars in front of the lens. So I tried that for like 5 minutes. And it kinda works. I mean, it was kinda hard since you have to align the binoculars and phone quite precise, but once aligned, it actually kinda works.
I thought, I could 3D-print a part, which fits the phone and binoculars. This is a potential to-do – maybe even for PI me.

After this whole thing was over, I went back inside, ate a little bit, and now I’m writing (to) you. Actually, I’m back to trying to gain weight. I am about 73Kg’s, and I’m back to being able to see my ribs (not always, but still). I’m heading for 75Kg’s.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was really similar to yesterday. -> I did some coding for my bachelors thesis. Actually, I’m now done up until the training step. This means, given data, I can train my AI.
Of course, I also did do that, and let me tell you, it is shit hahaha. I mean, it’s kinda expected, since right now, I’m only training with a tiny dataset, but still. It’s way worse than expected, which makes me think, I made a mistake somewhere. Things to figure out tomorrow (or maybe some other day next week).

In the afternoon, I was kinda bored, because my AI was training, so I didn’t really wanna use my PC. But I didn’t really have anything to do either. In the end, I solved just some sudokus. Low processing-power things.
Also, I gotta confess a little: I was on reddit for some short time today and yesterday. Which is possible, since I didn’t block those pages. SMH!

Also, today we found out, that the mattress we bought yesterday was of the wrong size haha. So sometime next week we have to go and trade it for a correctly sized one. Luckily, we found out, with just a measuring tape, so the mattress still is in it’s original form.

For dinner, mom and dad were away, so we ordered pizza.

Then, without my internet blocker, I did spend some time on YouTube. Didn’t really see anything interesting though.
It’s always kinda like this. If you have something interesting to do (for me my bachelors thesis – coding this thing), but you then go on (for example) YouTube, nothing is really interesting. It makes it kinda obvious how everything is kinda pointless on YouTube.

Once my blocker was back on, I did some vibe-coding and created an excel file containing all the matches from our club. And then I did some PI work (stalking) and looked, when I had a game next to Caroline.

Now, I’m about to take a shower, and then I’m going to bed.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! The day today was nearly identical to yesterday. I nearly worked all the day on my bachelors thesis. Right now, I am able to load the dataset and tokenize it. (Until now, the dataset consisted of words, but I need tokens, so BERT can interpret it.) So now I only need like 5 lines of code more, and then I can start with the training.
I wanted to try and install cuda for deep learning and shit, but it didn’t work. I don’t know why?! Really annoying.

In the evening, I accompanied my sister and brother (Leah & Jordan) to IKEA, since Leah’s moving out in a month and she wanted to buy a mattress for her new bed. We also ate dinner (hot dogs) there. I can proudly say, that I had 5!

Back at home, I watched a little bit of YouTube, and then I continued to work on my bachelors thesis; as mentioned above.

It’s actually somewhat annoying. I tried to have a normal sleeping-schedule, but since I started on my bachelors thesis, it all got thrown upside down. I always look at the clock, then I think, “just this thing really quick” and then it’s already an hour later. And then (obviously) I repeat this 2-3 times, and then it 2 in the night… It’s just too interesting, to test out things, and / or read up on something.

That’s about all I did today.

My hinge match (mentioned from yesterday) did actually un-match me today. lul She was quite nice though. I did ask her to please tell me the order of my hinge pictures, since hinge does pick a order according to their liking. So now I found out, that the one picture I personally like the least, is the best according to hinge.
(Also, I did mostly only like her, to know where this one pic was, she had uploaded on her profile, and she also did tell me that. So all in all she was really nice!)
Unexpectedly, it did hurt a little when she did un-match me. Really weird. Especially, since I did kinda hope that she would. I mean, she was really attractive, but yeah. You know.
I also did look at some profiles today, but I don’t think I liked anyone. Just didn’t feel like it. Also, I thought again, that I don’t like dating apps. lul

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Edit from the day after: I couldn’t fall asleep while lying in bed. So I kinda imagined a good (at least in my head) (maybe first) date – with me and Caroline (obviously). Now, I’m just gonna explain, how this all works.

Context: On December 14 (± 1 day), is a shooting-star-night. And I’d really like to “watch” one of those (really romantic).
Also, it’s winter then, so in my ideal world, there would be some snow, and that night it would be snowing. Without clouds though, so we can see the shooting-stars.

Idea: The date begins in the (late) afternoon with a short hike (or drive), to some hill not too far from where I live. This hill (also known as sex-mountain by Josh lul) has a beautiful view over the “valley” where I live. Also, it’s some (short but still) distance away from the next house(s).
There, I have already prepared a tent (yes – in the winter), and some stuff, which we might need in order to spend the night there. Also, obviously some (lying-)chairs.

Then, we just spend some marvelous one-on-one time there. I have my small hiking-stove with me, so we can cook there if we’re cold (or just to eat – or make some mulled wine).
Then, some talking, warm food and drinks, shooting-stars, loads of wishes (given to us from the stars), all glamorous and shit. Loads of talking and getting closer to each other (figuratively and literally). Then, time for bed.

Depending of how cold it is, or how hot we have, we could also go home (that’s why near where I live).)

(Freaky me speaking:) Then, in the tent, we have somewhat cold, and then you know, bodies give each other heat -> one thing leads to another -> dick froze off.

In the night, if we are cold, I would also just make some hot tea (or whatever), so we’d get warm again. Or cuddle, of course hehe.

Then, the next morning, we maybe see the last shooting star (I assume, we won’t sleep long), and then some porridge for breakfast -> going home. And then maybe sleep a little really enjoying the warmth and comfort of a real bed.

Date over.

Problems: It’s kind of a big first date -> if I want to do that, I actually have to try quite hard lul. But I think, this would be really good!

Hello! Story-wise I hardly did anything today. I basically spent the whole day working on my bachelors thesis. This was: finishing up what I started yesterday, and then reading a little bit into what metric(s) to use when scoring a binary classification model. (Right now I’m tending towards: Precision, accuracy, F1-Score, MCC and P4. Each one with advantages and disadvantages.) Of course, I did some more things, but they aren’t really worth mentioning, since it’s mostly a lot of small stuff.

Also, today was Emily’s birthday. But we didn’t really celebrate. Well, we had a cake – that’s kinda a celebration.
Funny story: Yesterday, Emily wrote me, that she has 10 hinge-likes, and then today we looked at them together. They weren’t “the shit” -> no match was set today.
We then spent ~15 minutes judging hinge profiles (on her phone). It’s actually quite funny, she’s way more superficial than I am. I always thought, I was kinda superficial, (and this was made worse by dating-apps) but compared to her, I’m not superficial at all. I mean, on about 1/2 – 2/3 of the profiles she pressed X only after seeing the first picture. Didn’t even bother looking at more, or reading any texts.

After dinner, I spent some time watching YouTube, and then took a shower.

Just before (at about 23:30) my hinge-match answered me. She actually also wrote me the order of my images, so now I know in what order my pics are – based on hinges judgement. lul.
But to be frank, I don’t really know how I should react to her replying. I kinda hoped, she’d just not reply, so I could ask out Caroline with good “clearance”. So now, (as I previously said to myself) I’m actually trying to flirt with her. Chances are, that it won’t “vibe” accordingly irl (or even through text for that matter). So things might sort out by themselves.

That’s already about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today I woke up really early (at like 7:30) even though, I went to bed kinda late. And I was still really tired. So I took a quick gander at my phone, wrote some texts, and then forced myself back asleep. (I had a hard time falling back asleep.)

The 2nd time, I woke up ~3.5 hours later. I then spent the next few hours doing some administrative work for volleyball. This took way too long. All in all about 3 hours.
Some time ago, I payed upfront for some of the things we bought as a team, (hoodies and shirts). Like a normal person, I hoped that they would pay me back. But they didn’t. So I sent out a few texts and shit. Turns out, if all pay up, I get about 500.- Nice! Money, I didn’t know I had.

Then, for the rest of the afternoon, I did start coding for my bachelors thesis. Today, I coded the part, which splits up the falko-MERLIN dataset into three categories. 1. Whole sentence is correct; 2. All mistakes in the sentence are real-world errors; 3. At least one mistake was a non-real-world error.
Then, category 3 gets thrown out, and we have 2 categories left.
That’s already all. lul.

In the future (maybe tomorrow) I’ll fine tune BERT (or a similar thing for German language) to detect this kind of mistakes. And then this fine-tuned-BERT would get evaluated. This would then be like half of my bachelors thesis. (At least the practical part.)
The 2nd half is: Synthetic dataset generation, (with methods, which currently aren’t known to me yet). And then fine tune another (new) BERT, and see how this BERT changes with synthetic data. Then, Analyze the difference(s).
This is all the practical things I have to do.
Then, only write this down in a paper, and submit. Done!

Anyway, today I did the first half of Part 1. (Which in the end is like 15% of the practical part.)

Then, it was already time for dinner. We had fondue.
After dinner, I had volleyball practice. We were only 5 people (2 just didn’t come…). And let me tell you, I’ve had my worst practice since a long time. But no biggie. Shit happens. lul. All in all, practice wasn’t good either, but happens.
(Actually, failed hard during one game, so my mate was throwing the ball at me (in a joking manner, but still kinda hard) and by loads of bad luck, it went straight into my balls. I didn’t have any defensive reaction, since I didn’t see him throw the ball… But yeah, it only hurt for like 5 minutes. Super cool! haha)

After the training, I went back home & finished what I started. So part 1 is most definitely done. Maybe, de spaghettify the code a little, and turn it into functions, but this would only take like 15 minutes.

After that, I brushed my teeth, and now I’m writing (to) you. That’s about all I did today.

Also, I did get a match on Hinge. (I didn’t use it today, because, you know, of what I told you yesterday.) The match is maybe just a pity-like, since I did ask her where this one pic was taken (since the background looked really cool), and I had already told her, she could un-match right there after.
But she did answer my question, and also added some small-talk info to her message. So now I gotta answer her.
But it’s not all bright and shiny here. First, she’s French-speaking (technically no biggie, since I do speak a little French); but more importantly, she has written “figuring out my dating goals”, which is whack. You know. Other than that, it seems good.

That’s all for today from me. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today (Tuesday) not that much happened. (At least story telling wise.)

I woke up from my alarm & had a hard time getting up. I was really tired. Who would have expected the effects of too little sleep?! Crazy, right?
Anyway, after I got up -> Uni -> Numerical Math lecture from 8-10. Then, I had my huge break. In this break, I did solve most of the numeric exercises (except one, which I had to solve at home, because of PC). (Technically, I also solved those after the lunch break, so not all in the morning.)

For lunch, we went to eat as a group of 7 persons. Mad. Lorenzo asked me about my Porsche, so I had to tell my Porsche story to the whole group. Actually, the first story I really told all of them. But it’s a good story. And one guy was really into it. He claimed to be really into cars. Funny things…
Point being: I didn’t even really start eating my dinner, and the first guy actually already finished. Also quite funny. Slow eating me, not even being able to start eating until late.

After lunch, I solved the rest of the numerics exercises. Then at 15 at I had my lecture again. (At least so I thought.) I went to the room, like 10 minutes early. As one of my group was in front of the room, I talked a little to her, and then I wanted to go into the room, because apparently, the lecture starts at 3. Then I saw, the people from the lecture before us are still in there (including prof. holding the lecture). Weird, or so I thought. Turns out, I was too early – I completely forgot, that lectures always start at xx:15. Silly me.
(I now have the slight suspicion, that the one I talked to, thinks that I don’t like her, since I ditched her with the reason being “I have to go to the lecture (20 meters) which starts in 20 minutes”. Lul)

Anyway, after the lecture, I went back home. At home, I finished the numerics exercise, and then I didn’t really have anything to do. At one point, I did go down in the kitchen, and then I helped my mom cook. (We cooked curry-rice.)

After dinner, I spent some time on YouTube & on hinge.
(I did not change the text-prompt to what I said I might yesterday. Also, I did find out, that I don’t really like using hinge. It gives me like a somewhat twisted image of the world. I only like the “hot” ones, and then I get no matches (nothing wrong there). But I feel like, this makes me dislike non-hot people more – I get pickier. Which I don’t think is a good thing. So, I did not really like using hinge… I actually think about deleting it. Also, because I kinda want to ask Caroline out.)
Then solved the combinatorics and probability exercises. Easy as usual.
After that, I took a shower, and now I’m writing (to) you. That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Today, the first package arrived (ordered by me and my brother). It was a torque wrench. Super cool.

I just found out, that I might have fucked up big time. I did have to register for the applied optimization course on a different platform than I usually have to. Now, I just wanted to do that before, but it turns out, that the deadline was Today. BUT as I’m writing this, it’s technically not today anymore. So I might cannot take the applied optimization course. Which would be really annoying!!
I did end up signing me up (I have to do this twice, on two different places, so tomorrow I might know more. Let’s hope for the best!)

Hello! Today was a chill day (kinda). First, I woke up, took a look at the clock, and mistakenly got a shock. I thought I was late. I wasn’t. I was actually about 45 minutes early. So then I dozed along until it was time to get up.

Once I got up, I headed to university, for my seminar in AI & Machine Learning. Today’s paper was about the generalize-ability of neural networks. Specifically, about how fast some models are able to generalize, w.r.t. VQA. (VQA = Visual Question Answer – today it was in the form of: given an image with some letters randomly distributed, is there a letter “A” left of a letter “B”?)
And it turns out, that if you only have little data, you are better with a layout (structure) specifically chosen for your question (which is kinda obvious (I think). If you choose the best possible model for a specific question, it’s gonna be better than the other ones. WHAAAAA??).
Also, I lucked out once more today. As usual, we were asked to present some of answers to the class. And I was chosen to answer the easiest one. What a time to be alive!

After all that, I went back home.

At home, I didn’t really have anything to do (after lunch, obviously). And as it is Monday, there’s a new edition of Artisanal Sudoku. So I did solve some of those. Actually kinda amusing. At least the time passes like that.
Oh, and also, I did use hinge again. Nothing important happened, but I did use it again, (since I didn’t yesterday). No matches still. :(

Then, at ~5, my mom and I went into the forest nearby. Sadly, they had to cut down loads of trees. Like 1/4 of all the trees in some specific areas. (Apparently, they all were infected, and really unstable. So to not get squished if there’s some gusts, felling trees, they cut them down (and probably to stop the further spreading of the mushroom &/ infection).
But boy does freshly cut wood smell good. It’s like nature pure. WHAAAA? I know, but it was really nice.

After that, we went back home, and then my mom cooked dinner, and I went back to my room. (I don’t even remember what I did then lol.)
Then, I joined my mom a bit in the kitchen (I cut some sausages), and then it was already dinner time.

As today was my sisters birthday, she could wish what she wanted for dinner. And she wished for salt potato. WTF? Why? She could have wished for everything. And she chose potatoes.

Anyway, after dinner, I had to leave for volleyball practice. Today, we were only 7 persons, but the practice was still quite good. And actually, my shoulder works nearly as it used to. For like the first hour, I hit a lot of balls, but it didn’t hurt a bit.
Only, during one drill, I had to hit loads of down-balls, and then I felt it a bit. Then I changed things up a bit, and it was mostly good again. NICE!

After the practice, I drove back home, and that’s about it. Back at home, I had some little minutes time, where I watched some YouTube, and now I’m writing (to) you.
That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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I checked again, and Caroline still hasn’t accepted my friend-request. But I checked: She didn’t like the last post of her (volleyball-)team -> she definitely doesn’t have Instagram anymore. This means, I’m in the clear now! Phew! (haha – massive cope)
Also, I did come up with a “good” (in a joking manner) reason to date me. Imagine this scenario:

She: Why should I go out with you?
I: I don’t have Instagram, so I have more time to spend with you!

All romantic and shit. I think, I’m gonna add something like that to my hinge tomorrow hahah. You know, also a change for my autistic research lol.