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Hello! Today, was a OK day concerning my studies. I did well until after dinner (I believe). Afterwards, I just spent time on YouTube. Right now, I’m oddl yinterested in driving test / generally car stuff. Probably because I have my driver’s license exam coming up.

So right now, it’s 3:30am and I haven’t even showered yet… Tomorrow, I’m gonna sleep late – I can already tell that.

But that’s all for today. I’m quickly gonna take a shower, and then head straight into bed. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was my first “real” study day. It was meh. I woke up (early) at like 9:30ish, and saw that I got a question from Lorenzo about complex analysis. Well, I got 3 questions. So I solved those, and then texted a little bit with him.

In the morning, I watched exactly one YouTube video, which then shut-off in the last like minute, since my site-blocker started to work. From then on, I studied.
In the afternoon I went outside to study. But it wasn’t really efficient since I was kinda tired. So I just lied on the ground, and did some off-again and on-again studying. It was not too bad though. I got like one chapter less far than I had hoped, but still OK.

After studying, I drove with my mom to the pharmacy -> then dinner at home -> volleyball practice -> back home -> cereal & YouTube -> writing this diary entry -> bed.

But quickly, after the volleyball practice, Daniel told me a little bit about his “date” which, let’s be real, wasn’t a date. (In my opinion) He made some excuses. But I also think, that he’s not really confident. Anyway, he said he’s not gonna ask her out again. Now it’s her turn – and he’s fine with it, even if she doesn’t ask him.

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Today, I realized, I’m kinda an unc. I mean, maybe even a grandpa. I got annoyed by every teeny-tiny bit. Really weird. Usually I don’t really care if… (I’m like an old hag, who gets annoyed at every loud noise and shit – except that the noise is not really bothersome to me.)

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was not really an eventful day. Nothing really happened. I spent most of my awake time on my PC. Then, in the late afternoon, I went outside with my measure theory script and had planned to study. Rather unfortunate for my student-me, my parents were outside, so I just talked with them. I mostly talked to my dad, and kinda explained what I had to learn at the moment.
Once our conversation was over, I was tired(? wtf) and then I just lied in the grass, and looked at the (boring) blue sky until dinner.

Then after dinner, I stayed outside for like 10 more minutes, and then I headed back in again. I actually tried to answer one question Lorenzo asked me about complex analysis, but I couldn’t really solve it… Then for the rest of the day, I just watched some more videos. (I’m kinda re-watching HIMYM – only the good episodes though.)

Then at like 11:30pm Daniel texted me, and told me a little bit about his “date”. But to be honest, I’m kinda pissed at him. But let me explain: She told him, that he could go to play some beach-volleyball with her and some of her friends. Now, Daniel thought (correctly so, but still), that he was gonna be the 5th wheel. So then he asked another friend of his (or ours rather) to join them – which he did. So the whole date set-up was deemed to fail from the get go…
Then, Daniels “date”, had a small injury (tore out nose piercing, I believe) where she had to leave immediately. Now, if Daniel would not have invited anyone else, he could have just said:” Let me accompany you to the emergency room” or something like that, and then things could have evolved. But eh – shit happens.

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On a separate but unrelated note: I think, in the future, I’m gonna have this place at the end of a daily entry, where I just write down some things I’m currently thinking about, but without a real explanation. I’m not gonna tell you why tho. (You see what I did there *wheezing*)

1. Back when I was young(er), my parents (or at least some people – not too sure who) told me (and my siblings) that this whole technology thing is devils-work. And I agree with this more and more.
(I’m not 100% that someone actually said that to me, but I still kinda think it’s true)

2. I think I’m over my ex. Here I’m gonna give a reason, and also tell a little bit about what the final straw was. Mainly: I was thinking that for about the last 3 weeks. I think maybe in the first week of my Italy vacation -> this was just because of time, and it would have been nice, not to be “alone” (well, to have a girlfriend over. You know what I mean!) And secondly, when I was creating my Hinge-profile with Josh & Yanis in my 2nd week in Italy, this somehow triggered something in me, which then actually made me really want a girlfriend again!
So yeah. Conclusion: As the great Michael Scott once said: I’m ready to get hurt again!

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I didn’t wake up with a hangover – which surprised me. And then, most of the day, I spent time on my PC (or sleeping in the morning).

In the late afternoon, my sister Sara was over. She had just hosted a native-American weekend, where she took care of like 8 children, and the setting was (obviously) native Americans (with horses and shit). So I spent the rest of my afternoon talking to her.

We ordered food for dinner. I had a doner.

After dinner, I drove Sara and her husband home. Since I’m now signed up for the driving exam, I am allowed to drive on the highway.
Actually, when driving them home, we didn’t really drive a lot on the highway, but went over some mountain pass. It was actually really beautiful there. Lots of ruins of what used to be castles.
All in all, the drive went really well. Then, I went home with the train. (As it was already past 7pm, I was able to use all public transports for free.) In the train back home, I spent some time reading some measure theory. But I was already tired, so it wasn’t that efficient. Still, I read like the first 15 pages of the script.

Then back home, I spent some time on my PC, until it was suddenly 2am. Don’t really know how that happened. I then told myself “shower time – maybe one more video”, so then I took a shower at 2:45 -> and now it’s 3:30am as I’m writing this.

Yeah… That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! As it happens, yesterday I completely forgot to write my diary… Shit happens.

So quickly to yesterday: During the day was nothing really special. But in the evening I had volleyball practice -> met Daniel for the first time in about a month (or so) and we talked a bit. I found out, he met his potential girl like 2-3 times. So then I asked him about the situation, and he told me, that it’s not really clear. (Like at all. They haven’t kissed or anything remotely close to that.)
I then suggested to him, that he should ask her out, like not just to “hang out” but to ask her to go on a “date” with him. So on the way back, we wrote a message to her & then we had to wait for her answer.

Now to today: Daniels girl didn’t respond yesterday. But he promised, that he’d text me as soon as she answers. So, I expected a message from him this morning, as he is kinda an early bird, and I’m not. But no message! So I asked him, and he told me, that she’s currently still ghosting him. (I believe, she hasn’t opened the chat yet(?)) I asked him again in the afternoon, and in the evening. But same answer still. So, I guess that’s a bad sign :(

All in all, though, I think, it’s still a good thing that he asked. He even said that himself yesterday after texting her. It really does feel good. We can’t take it back now. We just gotta wait it out.

But now for the rest of the day: I watched wayy to many YouTube videos and shit. At least, I started to study a little bit. (I started repeating the measure theory script.) I even printed the measure theory and probability theory script, in order to study away from my PC. But as of now, I haven’t done this yet.
Also, today in the afternoon, I had a physical therapy appointment. She just massaged my shoulder a little bit. This felt good in the moment, but weirdly enough, it hurt a little bit afterwards.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today was a real bummer. I didn’t really do anything other than yesterday. So I could have just skipped it – lol.

Actually, I read some sources for my bachelors thesis proposal, and then asked chat-GPT to give me an example with the terms, conditions and information I had. So I guess I have to make some small changes, and then I can hand it in.

But yeah. That’s all…

I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! I’m finally back for my first full day. I basically just spent all of it catching up with some YouTube videos… Now I think I already fucked up my sleep-schedule. Happens

But that’s all for today already, since I’m tired and want to go to bed.

(I’m gonna add the missing entries probably tomorrow. We’ll see!)

Hello! Today, I didn’t do that much. All though, I got up early. That is, because I drove Emily to the train-station, since she’s going to vacation on Fiji. For 5 weeks. This was at 9am. Then, I didn’t really do anything more for the remainder of the morning.

In the afternoon, at first, I spent some time on my PC. I watched a reaction to “Big Hero 6”. Spoiler: In this movie, the main-character’s brother dies. And this all made me really sad. I even had tears in my eyes. Lately, I’ve been really sad, everytime I think of death. I’ll tell you, once I’m back from vacation [see below] since it’s too alte right now…)

Then, I accompanied my dad to his mother (aka my grandmother). (She’s not really my grandmother though, since my grandfather had re-married, and his then wife was my functional-grandmother. And we hardly ever saw my genetic-grandmother. Kinda a weird situation…) I did this so I had some more driving practice.

There, we had to help her for like 10 minutes with some computer problem and some old-people device which didn’t work for her. Then, she wanted to tell us some more things, which she saw in the internet. (Like animal videos and shit.)
This all felt kinda sad, since (I think, that) she doesn’t really have anyone to talk to. She’s a kinda lonely woman. -> Kinda sad.

Once we left, I had to try to parallel-park. And let me tell you. I never failed this bad. I had three different attempts, and failed every single one of them. (Well, I was just too far right or left, but still -> not good.)

Then, back at home, I had to cook dinner. I made pita-bread with chicken. It was actually really good. I recommend this!

After dinner, I spent some time on my PC, and then started to pack my things, since we (family) go to vacation tomorrow. I’m not done yet, but I’ll finish it tomorrow. Hehe. I’m too tired right now. And I still have like 6.5 hours until we leave [eyes emoji].

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Now a quick head’s up for the next two weeks. I’ll be on vacation -> I don’t know how active I’ll write my diary online. I take a note-book with my, but I probably won’t write everything down with my phone. Since this is a really tedious task!

But yeah. That’s all for today. I’ll see you again soon. Take care! Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I did nothing. Watched some “2 broke girl$” but then finally quit (after watching too much of it -> it got boring & they changed Oleg, who happened to be my favorite character hehe).

Then, some time after dinner, I watched the movie “Surf’s up”. It’s this childrens movie with the penguins. I even watched it in color. And I gotta say, it’s crazy how saturated these colors were.
Anyway. What did I learn? A winner is someone who has fun. And if you don’t have fun, you can’t win. Or you might also say: “know why you do things”. The long term goal is usually not to “win” things, but to “keep playing”, since that’s the part we’re (usually) concerned about.

But yeah… That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, speed-run!

Morning: Sleep

Afternoon: Physical therapy (got some exercises, which I have to do every other day). Time on PC (actually, watched like 2 episodes of Dan Da Dan. First time watching anime in long time), was bored overall.

Evening: Cook dinner (Rice with ham-rolls and tomato sauce). After dinner, I was bored again -> started to watch a new TV show. Namely: 2 Broke Girls. It’s not as good as friends, but it makes the time pass.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!