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Hello! First, quickly about yesterday night: I was trying to fall asleep, but I had a really hard time -> I lied in bed awake for ~30 minutes, and then I woke up 2 more times during the night. What the helly?

This morning, I had to get up kinda early. That means at 8:30. Why? My sister moved out. So it was our (family’s) time to carry loads of things around. It was actually quite a lot. I mean, we packed a ~u-haul like truck full, and had to take 2 (technically 1.5) rounds for all of her stuff. Also, she moved in the third story of a building without an elevator.

All in all, it took surprisingly long. I expected, that we’d be done at 14:00. At 13:00 (when we had lunch) we had all of her stuff at her new apartment, and already built some of the furniture. -> lunch -> some more building.

I tried to build some lounge-table, but this shit took like forever. I don’t even know how! I only finished at 17:00. It was too much. It had like 100000 screws for every little thing. From time to time I had multiple helpers even hahah. Sara and Jordan both had to help. But then, with the help of Jordan, we finished it all quite quickly.

Thereafter, we were done in her apartment. The only thing she’s missing right now, are some tabs for in her closet. Other than that, it’s done. Actually quite impressive.

So, once we were done with moving her stuff & building her furniture, we went back home and got ready, since we all went out to eat.
We went in some golf club, since they currently have a “all you can eat – fondue chinoise” thing going on. What a time to be alive!

Funny coincidence, right next to us sat one of her coworkers. And I made a banger joke.
Once they recognized each other, they quickly talked together (obviously), and then Leah was back at our table, I asked: “Is this the one you dislike?”, loud enough, that everyone could hear it. hahah. gottem!

Anyway, I had loads of meat, and then a cheesecake for dessert. Then, I went back home, and now I’m here. I don’t even know what to do, since I technically have a no screen-time month. But I guess I’m gonna cheat. On the first day already. Lol. But tomorrow, I’ll add more blocked sites to my site blocker, and then I cannot get around it.

So yeah, for now, that’s all. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, was my last day, of not doing that much. Well, actually, that’s kinda a lie. I did do some things, but I also spent a lot of time on my PC, since from tomorrow on, it’s a no screen-time month. So I want the hardest detox from my addiction as possible – mhm.

In the morning though, I solved some numeric exercises. I had to code with Matlab – and let me tell you: I now hate it too. It’s just unnecessarily weird. I don’t really know how to phrase it, but it never really does as expected. In the end, I just chatGPT-ed the solution to one part. I can’t be bothered. If I want to code solutions, I just use python (or any other “real” programming language for that manner).

Then, in the afternoon, some PC time -> and then I had to “uninstall” my bed, since my sister Leah’s moving out tomorrow, it’s her bed, and she needs it now. So, I sleep on a mattress on the ground for a while. Honestly, this doesn’t even bother me lol.

In the evening, Emily had the 2 friends over, which went to Fiji with her and they made Pizza (for everyone). They aren’t the best cooks though hahaha. I mean it was good, but they needed a surprising amount of help lol.

Then, after dinner (which was at ~20:30) I went to Ellie, and met her, Josh, Yanis and his GF Leah there. We just talked a little (didn’t even really drink) and then I rather quickly went back home again. Back at home, I did spend some more time on my PC -> now I’m writing (to) you & that’s about all for today.

I’ll see you again tomorrow (probably). Take care & Bye-Bye!

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As it was Halloween today, some kids rang at the door, and I gave them a little candy. One of them was kinda a jerk though haha. Happens.. lol
But, I thought of myself kinda like Michael Scott on the one Halloween episode, where you see, that he really likes kids. You know what I mean

Hello! Today, I nearly did nothing. That means, in the morning, I watched the applied optimization lecture. And let me tell you: It was so empty. There was hardly any information. The first 30 minutes were recap of last week, and then in the remaining 60 minuets, he explained gradient descent, the Newton method and a generalization of those two. But no proof or anything like that. And that was already it. What the helly?!

Then, for the rest of the day, I did nothing (watched twitch). But, I decided, that in November, I’m gonna do a no-screen-time month. (Basically a no all, except I’ll jerk off lol).

That’s already about all for today – I didn’t even think about anything special today… Anyway, I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Today not that much had happened. I slept basically until lunch
-> go to university and listen to two talks from the PHD-students (they were OK. Basically like last week, the easier to understand talk was not that interesting, and the other seemed more interesting, but I didn’t get all of it)
-> go back home
-> cook dinner (I made Penne with Bolognese)
-> eat dinner
-> do the dishes with my mom
-> some PC time
-> volleyball practice (since Daniel had his practical drivers exam yesterday, he did drive today.
Also, after practice, I did ask Daniel if he could make a song sampling an old famous song (for example like “New Slaves” by Kanye West, or just a full on melody joinking type shit). We then thought, the song “Sunshine, Lollipops and Rainbows” would be a good fit.)
)
-> go back home
-> watch some twitch
-> bed

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! I’m super tired -> short.

get up early
-> go to uni
-> numeric lecture
-> go in the third story & solve combinatorics exercises. I was done after nearly one hour, and from then on, I didn’t really have anything to do.
-> Lunch (I had a pizza – it was good & funnily enough, JP was sitting just 2 places next to me at our table, by sheer coincidence. So I also talked a little with him.)
-> swift round geoguessr (I got 3rd / 5 – surprisingly good for me!)
-> meeting because of my bachelors thesis (I’m good on time! Next step is synthetic data generation & then my idea)
-> some more time doing nothing and waiting for the lecture in the afternoon
-> lecture
-> going home
-> in the train, I met a fella, with whom I went to 7&8th grade, so I talked with him on the way back
-> back at home, I was quite tired, so I just spent time on PC
-> dinner
-> some more PC time
-> shower
-> now I’m writing (to) you

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Funnily enough, today I once more thought about the Asian woman, which I mentioned yesterday – lul.

Hello! As it’s already kinda late, imma keep it short today.

Morning: Get up surprisingly early, since I didn’t really go to bed at an appropriate time yesterday -> go to uni -> seminar (I was asked a question, but I was able to answer it fully – SUI) -> go back home.

On the train-ride home, in the sitting-area (don’t recall the correct word atm) next to me, was an Asian type woman. She had really good drip – no cap! I was thinking of asking her out, but no balls and so I didn’t. Also, I would most probably have lost face, since there were some more people in the train with us.

Back at home, I ate lunch and talked with my dad.

Afternoon: At first, I just watched some twitch stream (illegaly) and then solved the applied optimization programming part. It was surprisingly easy. I mean, I pretty much just had to type some mathematical definitions into c++.

-> dinner (pumpkin soup) -> volleyball practice ->

The practice was quite bad, w.r.t. volleyball, but it was really fun. I mean, we listened to some music – Christmas music – and just vibed, and we also just happened to play volleyball. lol.

-> go back home -> watch some videos and twitch (illegaly) -> now I’m writing (to) you.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Louis drove me to practice (I car hopped) and then he showed me his Instagram story (since I don’t have Instagram anymore). As he was driving, I had the phone, and then I checked, who reacted to his story (since I saw, that he’d gotten some likes) and then no-one special did like the story (lol). BUT, I did also see a few of the people who had seen the story, and my ex happened to be at the top of that list. What the helly?
Actually, I did kinda spiral a little (only a little). But just now, I read up, that the order of the first ~50 people is just in chronological order. So I guess, she just happened to be on Instagram. Super cool!

Hello! I’m writing for two days here, since yesterday, I didn’t sleep at home & I was too drunk lol.

25th

In the morning, I didn’t do that much. I slept out, and then made myself ready for the volleyball game, which was at 14:30.

We pretty much all went there together with the train, which I always like. It wasn’t a long train-drive either, so it was pretty much perfect.

About the game: We rather easily won the first 2 sets. Good. Then, I substituted some more players, and then the mood on the court was kinda whack. So we did something stupid. Which is lose 3 more sets. -> We lost 2:3.
It was really annoying at first, but in all reality, we were better than expected. I mean, our opponents want to rank up, so they basically have to win each and every game, whereas we only want to remain in the same league. So we (or at least I) are “happy” with that result.

Then, after the game, I had a long shower – with Daniel and loads of beer (actually not loads off, but 2 lol). Nice!

After that, I went to Yanis and Leah, since they had their birthday “party”. I arrived some time early, since I had my game near their home.
What did we do? They invited us to a Raclette evening, with some beers and shit. So basically a unc party. I fit just right in hehe. It was fun and yeah.

Quickly on a serious note: I talked to Leah about her meeting my ex. I did tell her how I feel about it and shit. It was quite bad, I mean, I nearly started to cry like a little bitch. (I got somewhat teary eyes, but not really you know.) And she did understand (I believe). I mean, she did tell me, that she’d much rather not hang out with my ex but with me. (Not really a surprise there lol).
All in all, though, I’m glad I did it. It may not have been the easiest, but yeah. Good shit.

Then, back to partying: We sang a bit of karaoke, and I got really blasted. I actually don’t remember all lol. Some time later, Josh and I nearly fell asleep in Yanis & Leah’s bed lol.

Also, I did get a present of Josh and Ellie – they invited me (& Yanis & Leah) to spending a weekend at the house of Ellie’s parents in a mountain. Some time in January. So that’s gonna be wild!

Anyway: When we wanted to go home, we checked if the night-bus drives, but it didn’t seems as it did (we suspect the time change is at fault). So in the end, Josh, his GF & I slept there. Ellie and Leah on the bed, and Josh, Yanis and I on the couch. (It was actually quite OK – we said, on the next road trip, we’ll take the couch with us lol.)

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26th

I woke up multiple times during the night, and had to go to the toilet. Bad thing is, since the apartment was rather old, it was so loud just to walk around there. But yeah, you gotta do what you gotta do.

The last time I did wake up, I didn’t even have a headache anymore. Kinda surprising for real, since I really did drink a lot.

Not too long thereafter, we went back home. At home, I did eat lunch with my family. After that I spent some time on my PC -> took a nap -> more PC time -> dinner -> more PC time -> shower & now I’m writing (to) you. Also, I did read the paper for tomorrow – proud!

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I hardly did anything during the day. I at least watched one applied optimization lecture, but that’s already about it.

Then, after dinner, Jordan and I put some more time onto our car. We emptied the fuel-tank, took off the fuel pump and fuel filter. Then, since it had so much rust on each and every metal connector connecting the fuel line, so we didn’t install the new things.
After that, we wanted to order the things we need (new clamps and pipes). But the thing, directly after the fuel-pump (right angle connecting thing), we didn’t find. We searched for nearly one hour. Really annoying.

Then, I (illegally) watched some Trackmania stream -> shower -> now I’m writing (to) you (at 3:00). And about now, I’m gonna go to bed.
That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! Apparently, yesterday I forgot to write my diary lul. Nothing special happened though, so it’s no biggie.

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22nd

Morning as usual. In the afternoon, I did have to go to university for my bachelors thesis seminar. There, 2 PHD-students held a presentation about their current work.
The first was about graph-edit-distance (which is basically “how much operations you need in order to get graph G to G’ “). This one was more interesting, but I didn’t understand all of it.
The 2nd one, was about predicting river temperature based on air temperature and maybe find some hidden patterns. But this was quite boring, ngl.

After that, I went back home, helped Emily cook, and then after dinner I had volleyball practice. Since my left knee really hurt (on Tuesday too btw) I was only the coach for this session. It was good for the players though, since I could really focus on them for once.

Once practice was over, I showered, went home, and that’s about it.

Though, I did have a really hard time falling asleep. I had a really dry throat, and had to cough a lot. Also, I did wake up like twice in the night. :(

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I did (kinda) really get back on hinge. I sent out all of my likes. Also, Josh said once, that I was too picky, but this time I don’t think so. My current push is quite good. So it doesn’t take me that long to send out all of my 8 daily likes.

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23rd

I slept kinda long (~10:30), since I had a hard time falling asleep. But today I didn’t really do anything. I cheated my internet-blocker in the afternoon, since I didn’t want to do math, and I have already solved all of this weeks Sudoku (lul).

In the afternoon, my parents new car arrived. Then, we quickly had to go pick up the Twingo, since they left it somewhere. Directly after that, I did go for a quick grocery shopping with Emily, since I had to cook today.

Once we got back home, we already started cooking (it was about 16:45). We made Pizza – something, everyone likes!
We did test 2 different kinds of cheese. One was just basic Mozzarella, and the other was some Pizza-cheese-mix. (4/5 preferred the Mozzarella, since it wasn’t as dry.)

After dinner, I spent some more time on my PC -> shower & now I’m here writing this.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hi! First, a bit about yesterday evening. As I took a nap in the afternoon, I couldn’t really fall asleep. Though, I was tired, but I still couldn’t fall asleep. And my mind was going back and fourth about my relationship with my ex (as kinda mentioned before).
Then, it progressively got worse and shit. Then I took at the pictures of my ex and me together (since I didn’t really delete them off of my phone), and then I realized, that we weren’t really dating for that long (only 9 months). Which, oddly enough really helped. But yeah, after trying to fall asleep for about 1.5 hours, I did manage to.

Oh, also, yesterday evening, I was quite sad, so I did listen to sad music. To fit the vibe – you know. (It’s always a risky business as commonly known by me.)

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Today morning: I had to get up kinda early (7:15) and then go to university. I did still listen to a bit of sad music, but it was manageable. I had some lectures, and solved some exercises. Then, it was already time for lunch.

Lunch: It’s quite sweet, the others ask every week about my Porsche, and how it’s going. It’s basically the number one conversation shifter, and basically everyone hopes that we solve it soon lul.

After lunch, we played 3 rounds of geoguessr, and then I solved some more exercises. Then, we all went to a grocery store before our afternoon lecture.
At first, I didn’t want to go, but then they asked me to join them, so I did. (I was really happy, that they asked me to join them.) I didn’t buy anything though. In the store were self-checkout thingies, and I just walked through there (since I didn’t have anything to pay for). As I was waiting at the exit, one of my friends jokingly asked me, if I had scanned all my things (a worker from there was just standing next to us) and I replied with “no, I stole everything” while looking at the worker. She actually did find it quite funny, so she didn’t check me. lol.

Then, lecture -> back home -> spend some time doing nothing -> dinner.

After dinner -> spending some time on YouTube (during this time, I quickly helped Emiliana with finding someone to help her – no, it’s not me) -> shower -> now I’m writing (to) you.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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My hinge date did just reply to me as I’m writing this. She didn’t reply the whole day, so I was kinda hoping, that she’s gonna ghost me.
Justification: Yesterday, she did send me a video of her “favorite” local “poetry slammer”. And it was kinda whack. Some politics type shit. Big minus, not gonna lie lol. Also the end was kinda depressing -> wtf, why?

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Theory time: You know, yesterday I thought, that I’m gonna become depressed? I didn’t (actually, it got better) and now it’s my time for a theory.

You know, when you have a song stuck in your head and can’t get rid of it? What to do then? Listen to the song, so actually finish it in your mind, then it (usually) leaves it.
So now, for me, with my sad-being, I think I “fixed it” (avoided it getting worse / improved it a little) by taking a look at the pictures, and then (sorta like with a song) going through it all in my head, including the end.

And yesterday, this did actually get me out of the loop / spiraling. So I think you have to do shit like that… Or at least, that’s a possible way.