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Hey! Today, I didn’t really do anything either. I watched a lot of YouTube, sunbathed in the afternoon, and in the evening I was really bored. I then went outside to watch the sunset, and spent like 30 minutes out there with my parents, since they happened to be there as well.

Some time later, I “busted” my mom on her iPad watching Instagram-reels. This actually made me kinda sad, seeing my mom swipe. Funnily enough, I took her iPad away, and deleted Instagram off of it. LOL. She thought it was a good idea though, so not too bad!

Also, in the evening, I started to watch “How I met Your Mother”. I think it’s really fun to watch. The first two episodes were a little sad, since Ted tries to get with Robin, but this doesn’t work out. Which I thought was sad, since they seemed like a good fit. (I even went on wikipedia, to see if they eventually get together. Spoiler alert: They don’t.)
I like the series, since they talk to a lot of women. And always in this silly manner. It always begins with: “Hey, do you know Ted?” and then Ted just has to roll with it. I like that.

Hello! Speedrun today again.

During the day, I literally did nothing. In the evening I went out to eat with Sara, her husband, and Emily. We went to the road stop, and I drove there. It was my first time driving with passengers in the back. Crazy times.
(For dinner, I had a pulled pork burger.)

After that, we went home again, and then at like quarter to 10 Pete called me. Then I went to his shared-apartment and we played some card-games. This went on for quite some time. So I went back at like half past 2.

At home, I took a shower, and now I’m writing (to) you. Actually, in the shower, I quickly jerked off, and I didn’t think of my ex (well, the sex with her) but of one girl before her. So I think this is a (kinda) good sign… But who knows?

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Until then, take care! Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I literally did nothing. I only watched YouTube. Too much. I went back (figuratively) and watched a lot of Trackmania. At least, it was all Spammiej’s content, therefore, kinda permitted (for me, by me).

Actually, that is not entirely true. I went on a quick drive to the pharmacy this afternoon.

Also, I took a shower, and there was a centipede in the shower. And, weirdly enough, I didn’t want to kill it. So I spent about 1-2 minutes trying to get him from one side to the other. One time, he nearly killed himself, when he fell of the wall and into the water. In the end, though, he survived.
I actually asked myself, why I didn’t kill him. I mean, back in the day, we (I) did this to critters like this (since they are kinda ugly and annoying and shit). But I couldn’t do it today. Weird. Almost, as if my moral has changed, as to what to do with those small animals.

To a weird side-note: Today, when jerking off, I realized, that I almost exclusively jerk off to the thought of oral sex. (Me on both ends lul.) I thought, this was kinda weird. Do other people also do it like that? Kinda weird thing to ask lol -> I’m not gonna… (Unless, I’m really really drunk hahaa)

But that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!

Hello! I’m tired, so imma keep it short today.

Morning: Physical therapy -> back home -> watch some YouTube. Too tired -> go back to sleep.

Afternoon: Didn’t do anything. Silly me. Just stayed inside, and let the last of my sunburn go away.

Evening: Volleyball practice. Daniel told me, that he’s had a date today, with someone I actually know. She helped us out on a mixed match once. So I was pleasantly surprised by that!
After volleyball, I went home, was really hungry -> made myself scrambled eggs -> ate -> watched some YouTube.

On a quick side note: Today, I was somehow really tired for like the whole day. Happens some time…

And now I’m writing (to) you. That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I woke up, and didn’t really want to go on the toilet, because I was convinced, that I’d have blood in my urine. Turn’s out, I didn’t! Yey! So for the majority of the day, I didn’t do anything. Just watched YouTube.

In the afternoon, I had my 2nd driving lesson. We went into a big city (also the city, where I will have my driving exam). It actually went quite well. Just a lot of traffic lights, and shit. But it was manageable. Then we drove home on the highway, which was the first time on a highway for me. But that also went well.

Then, the next time I did something was: I cooked dinner. I made just some simple mac and cheese. I don’t know how I did it, but I didn’t really like it lol. Maybe just some bad luck…

Immediately after dinner, my sister and I attempted a crossword puzzle. In like 10 minutes in, she claimed to be too tired -> surrendered. I then solved some more, and also figured out the solution word. It was “fire-salamander”. I was actually surprised with how much we actually were able to do.

But yeah. That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Still (kinda) sick -> short entry today.

Overall, I felt pretty good. But that’s kinda bait. I had blood in my urine. Otherwise, I felt good. So I didn’t really tell anyone to the full extend. But tomorrow morning, if it’s like super brown &/ red I have to go to the doctor. Which will probably be the case.

For today: I just wasted time on YouTube. In the evening I watched a movie. It was about a basketball coach, who coaches in a really bad neighborhood, and then he teaches them all discipline (and then they obviously won most of their games). What did I learn? Nothing really lul.

Also, I coded a little bit. It was a simple algorithm to get a nash-equilibrium for a partner pairing. The algorithm is quite simple. Assume, everyone has a ranking of the women / men. Then, the men propose to the women in the way they like most. If a woman is proposed to, she either [says no, if she’s already engaged to someone better] or she [says maybe, if she hasn’t got a better partner yet]. Like this, you will eventually get a pairing, where no 2 pairs exists, such that they would be happier if they changed partner. But then, I read, that the men are getting a better distribution like that. So I coded a simulation to test that. And turns out, men do really get off better. Like way better.

Also, before I took a shower. I saw some spots on my leg, which looked kinda similar to the spot I had on my chest, where the dermatologist suspected, that I might have skin-cancer. Then I actually kinda spiraled. Like, what would I do if I had cancer and like 6 months left to live (or some not so long time). Turns out, I’d quit volleyball and studying. Also, I’d try to convince my brother to believe in an afterlife, since I think it’s too sad if he doesn’t. I’d try to make life as good for mom as possible, since I know, that she wouldn’t be able to handle it. And I would like to talk to my ex. Kinda to get closure. I know, it may be kinda weird and shit, since we haven’t talked in like a year, but still. Also, I don’t actually believe, I’d feel better, but I’d still like to do it.
All in all, it was very sad. Well, it made me very sad. Sometimes, I got teary eyes. Welp. Happens.

Not to end it too sad here, but there’s nothing more to say lol. (I don’t feel that sad right now.) That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Hello! Today, I’m sick… -> short entry, not doing the others from my vacation.

Obviously, I didn’t really do anything today.

I thought a lot about my ex. But weirdly, it didn’t really make me sad. (I also thought about her having a thing with someone, but this too didn’t really make me feel bad.) Probably because I’m sick -> have other problems.

In the afternoon, I took some medicine -> it got better -> I made a hinge profile with & for my sister (was funny, she didn’t wanna give any of her information lol. Also, she’s not really using it, since we made it just to take a look at Daniels opposition.)

In the evening, the medicine I took started to wear off -> everything got worse. I’m now back to a headache, my back hurts, high temperatures, and my nose is tweaking. But I’ll rock with it.

Now, I’m gonna take a shower, maybe take some medicine, and then going to sleep. That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow!

Take care! Bye-Bye!

Hi! I’m tired, it’s late, and I gotta go to bed. My head is hurting as well, my nose is getting plugged, and I think, I’m gonna be sick tomorrow… So imma keep it short.

Morning: Wake up -> Pack up & clean a bit -> go to airport with uber -> check in & go on plane

Afternoon: Land & take train home with the others -> at home (~17:45), spend some time on YouTube -> Dinner (BBQ with pasta-salad)

Evening: Spent time on PC, nearly fall asleep. But it was still to early, so I didn’t go to bed -> started to watch some videos about hinge, and how it all works and shit (especially from women) -> Josh and Ellie called and they said that they are smoking a shisha & asked me to join them -> join them -> talk a bit -> going home at like midnight -> brush teeth, and go to bed.

That’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!

Added on June 29, since I didn’t do it before then…