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Wagwan! It’s already kinda late, so imma keep it kinda short today.

Night: Yesterday, I decided to only sleep with a light blanket, did go good!

Morning: Woke up early by birds -> back to sleep -> half awake – half asleep until 11am -> get up & spent some time on my PC.

Afternoon: At ~1pm I had lunch with my brother (since parents were out) (talked about him getting a girlfriend. He said (basically) it’s not worth it, since it’s a lot of work, and not the picture perfect love… )
-> I still have something to talk about with him (since I obviously don’t agree))
-> After lunch: cut his hair (did turn out surprisingly good lol).
-> leave home at 3:15 to go to Yanis & his GF (he said, we go to swim in a river near his home)
-> We didn’t go to swim
-> had some beers, and went to some bars near the shore & talked a bit (nothing mentionable).
-> Josh & his GF joined us at about 7pm.
-> went to one more bar (had one more drink)
-> go to Yanis home

Evening: Josh, Yanis and I grilled the meat, their GF’s made some potatos
-> eat
-> spend some more time talking (we planned a roadtrip / vacation for us all as soon as I get a new GF; and also, we said that Josh, Yanis and I will take a 2 week intercontinental vacation in like the next year, since up until now, we’ve only had ~1 week vacations)
-> going on a walk
-> Yanis went to sleep lol; the others sing karaoke (for about 1 hour)
-> going home
-> meet some friends of Josh and Ellie on the way home.
-> Back home & now I’m writing (to) you.

Some quick things I still want to mention:

• We all were talking outside, and I felt really happy, since I really like all of them. Then I thought (since I’ll soon-ish earn the most of us all) that I’d really like to provide for them. Like, if we went on a vacation, that I kinda pay for them (like more % than them).
  => I really like them, I’d like to provide for them (if you get my gist).
• I told Leah, that I’m going back into the business of active GF hunting, as soon as I have my drivers license.
• We were talking about where to go for a vacation, and they thought, that they don’t want to go to either noth-/south-pole. ??? Whyyy? Can’t relate to them.
• We said, that we’ll go camping as 5 some time in August (probably). Yurr.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: 1.5/10. Just some small things, like when we talked about things to do as a group of six (so I’m missing my/a GF). But didn’t really think of her otherwise.
  -> So it’s (mostly) nothing specific her but yeah. You know what I mean.
• How was my day? 8/10; quite good
• Shoulder update: same as yesterday. Can’t really put my hand behind my head, because pain :(

Hi there! Since it’s already late (2:10am), I’m tired and trying to fix my sleep schedule, I’m going to keep it short today.

Morning: Alarm at 7:00am
-> get up at like 7:30
-> driving lesson at 8:00.
-> Back home at 9:00am (exactly on the minute – not gonna lie, I was a little surprised, since he/we were this exact on time lol).
-> didn’t really do much for the rest of the morning.

Afternoon: Lunch
-> Doctors appointment (for my shoulder) at 1:30pm (I now have to get an MRI)
-> Get home & waste some time until mom is ready to go buying groceries.
-> 2:45ish going to get groceries with mom (& some medication for me). (I’m learning to drive atm & on the way back, my mom was on the phone, and I had to drive (a little too) fast, which I thought was funny, since like not that legal and shit & I’m only learning to drive).
-> 4pm-ish back home – eat an ice outside with my mom.
-> 5pm-ish, mom goes away, and I spend some time sun bathing
-> 5:45, take a cold shower and wait until dinner

Evening: Once everyone (except parents) is home we have dinner (hot dogs)
-> after dinner, my brother and I went to buy some ices. (I just accompanied him – I don’t even really like ices, but you know…)
-> 9:30ish, Josh calls, and we decided to meet in 1hour
-> My brother cuts my hair (since this was planned anyway)
-> Take a quick shower and leave to meet with Josh and Pete.

Late Evening: Josh, Pete and I met at Petes house.
-> We were outside on their balcony. They have some Christmas-y lights out there, which give a nice atmosphere. (A little cold light, but nice nonetheless.)
-> We mostly spent a lot of time talking. In the beginning, quite serious, since one of Petes flat-mates (who went to school with us) is (no joke) an alcoholic, and we were talking, what we could do about it. (One of them should have a serious talk about his problem with him, and he should seek professional help.) Otherwise, it was mostly fun topics. For example, we played a little round of fuck-marry-kill with Naruto characters lul.
-> Also, I told them about me turning my screens black and white. Josh said, he read about that somewhere, and then wanted me to turn his phone into black-and-white mode. So in a sense, we are now two people doing it. (I think this is nice!)
-> After some time, Ellie joined as well.
-> At like 2am we left and now I’m writing (to) you.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: 1.5/10. Just some small memories. Nothing big to be mentioned.
• How was my day? 7/10; quite good
• Shoulder update: Had a doctors appointment. I was now transferred to get an MRI.

Hello! Today, I got up at 9am to go to the physical therapist. I’m not gonna lie: I think, I don’t have the best PT lol. She was just kinda massaging my shoulder, and giving me exercises, which I think, are generally for like 70 year old patients. But maybe she just needs to read up some shit, or I don’t know… It may get better soon.

In the afternoon I went on a quick drive with my dad, and I learned about how to do the rear view checks when driving a roundabout (just repeating, since tomorrow is my first driving lesson).

Also, I (chat GPT) coded a quick plugin for a “easier” copying of the check-list thing at the bottom. I’m not that impressed with it though -> I’ll maybe (probably) rewrite it.

Today was my first day with black-white screens. Now, in the morning it was a little hassle to get used to it, but now it feels kinda normal to use. But I realized, everything else seems super colorful, since I’m not that used to super saturated colors. So I keep it that way for now.
And yes, I spent a lot of time on YouTube, but it was kinda less interesting. I just didn’t wanna go outside – don’t even know why not…

Speaking of this, I also did some coding today. Maybe this has something to do with that.

So that’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: Mostly good (during the day), but in the shower before, I quickly had a memory of a conversation I had with Emiliana (when she asked me, if we had broken up, and I kinda explained it to her), and then I thought about the day when we broke up. Like what we did before and so on. But I somewhat quickly got a hang of it.
  so all in all maybe a 2.75/10
• How was my day? Okayish
• Shoulder update: physical therapy didn’t really do anything this far… So it’s like yesterday.

Hello! I’m not really sure no more, but I think, I had a dream in which I was with my ex. But not sure tho -> Don’t remember (if /) what happened in the dream. Now, yesterday I thought that I should fix my sleep schedule. So I set an alarm for like 9am. Of course, I woke up, decided that I want to sleep more -> I went back to sleep. I then got up at like 11:30 :(

During the day, I was mostly only watching YouTube videos. Also, I grilled some meat for dinner (we were having a small BBQ). Also, I wrote someone (PHD-student I think) to get in touch for a potential bachelors thesis. I hope to get an answer tomorrow. If so, I’ll tell you then what it’s about.

Also, I had this one thought, that the screens are so addictive since they have some really bright saturated colors. (My reasoning is:
Monkey brain: bright colors = good (ripe fruit -> bright color -> good)
Screen has bright colors -> feels good -> addictive.
Maybe less addictive if colors less bright. Easy fix with gray colors only.
) So now I’m gonna turn my screen into a black and white screen (my phone too) and see if anything changes.

After dinner, I had volleyball practice (I free-styled it hehe). Not gonna lie: my shoulder hurt more than it used to, and my knees hurt to. So quite bad actually.

After the practice, Daniel and I took a huge mat, and did some stretching, since we had like 50 minutes to kill, before going home. So that was fun.
Also, Daniel and I spent the time as 2, but I didn’t ask him about his PI mission. Well – finding things out about my ex. Didn’t really feel like asking, since it was that good in the last days.

Anyway, once at home, I ate some left-overs from dinner, and went back to my PC. Also, I had to send my dad some tax documents.
Also, at home, the low sugar from after practice started to hit -> some more thoughts about my ex. I actually was kinda disappointed in myself for not asking Daniel about my ex. But this too got kinda better.

So that’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: 2.5/10 bad. During the day, it was really good. (Except dream maybe(?)) Then, in the evening it got worse again. So yeah, definitely worse than yesterday, but still quite good.
• How was my day? 7/10. Okayish. I did some things -> not too bad. Also, the weather got better (smoke kinda lifted) so at least we have a (mostly) blue sky!
• Shoulder update: Worse than before :(

Hi! Today, I got up early, since I had some TA stuff to do. That means, I had to go watch them write the exam. It’s actually quite boring, but you do what you gotta do… (No-one was cheating.)

Once they were done with the exam, I went back home again. At home, I made myself some omelettes for dinner (since my family ate all the bread :( ).

After that, I was still tired and spent some time on my PC. I fell nearly asleep, so I went outside to lie a bit in the sun. But today it was cloudy (at least I thought that back then). I was outside for like 30-45 minutes, and then I went back inside & got back to watching YouTube (for pretty much the rest of the day).

At dinner, I found out, the in the sky, it weren’t clouds but smoke from wildfires in Canada, which traveled to us. So quite annoying (and I guess, not the healthiest either).

At about 10:30pm, my brother called me, to quickly take a look at the moon. It was basically a full moon, just risen, and shining in a orange, redish color. Looked quite nice.

But now that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care! Bye-Bye!

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Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: 2/10 bad. really good, actually. I don’t think, I’ve had any real thoughts about her during the day. In the evening I had some small ones, but nothing big.
• How was my day? 7/10. Okayish. I did some things, so not too bad, but was really tired (since I only slept for like 4 hours… like an idiot).
• Shoulder update: I called the physical therapist, and I have my appointment already in 2 days. I’m actually really surprised by that – but I take it.

Hello there! Today, I got up kinda early (like 10am) and had a little breakfast. That means, I had a glass of chocolate milk, and one slice of a melon. But why did I get up so early?
Today, I went mini-golfing with a few friends. (Josh, Ellie, Pete, Nick & Nick’s girlfriend.) But it wasn’t normal mini-golf; rather 4-d mini-golf. This sounds soo cool, doesn’t it? In reality, though, it just means, that we had to wear 3d glasses, and we played inside, with some crazy scenery on the walls.

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Today was probably my best day in mini-golf of my life. Now don’t get too excited. I “only” had one hole-in-one. But my bad rounds were basically non-existent. That means, I had one round with 4 attempts, and one with 5. All the others were either 2’s or 3’s. All in all, I needed like 42 strokes. With that, I also won! SUI!

Once we were done bowling, we went to eat a quick döner, and initially had planned to go home. But then, we saw a ceramics-fare on the way. Now, Josh, Ellie and I wanted to go, but the other two culprits obviously didn’t. But since Josh was driving, we did go.
It had some actual good ceramics there. For example, a chain-whistle in the form of a turtle. Quite cool if you ask me. I didn’t buy anything though. Also, I didn’t take any pictures, since I thought it’d be weird.

Also, the fare was at / in this castle. This castle is usually open to the public, but there’s a garden in walls, that usually is closed. But today it was open. And I gotta tell you, this garden looks exactly like a garden you’d imagine, if you’d imagine a garden of a smaller castle in like 1500. That means, a square wall (about 3 meters tall), in the middle of this square was just grass, but there were pebble-paths along around the grass, and through the middle (like a + ). And at the back end of that enclosure, there was like a little gardening house (also in a 1500-ish style). And I gotta say, a grill-party there would go crazy. And me personally, I’d like one of those – haha.

You might have read, that Yanis and Leah didn’t come with us on this trip. Leah said, that she has a family-event. But wouldn’t you know who we met at this ceramic fare? Correct. It was her. Actually quite funny.

Soon there after, we went back home. At home, I was tired, so I didn’t do anything more today.
Actually, after dinner, I went outside, to lie a bit in the setting sun. Now, I was lying on a white blanket. Because of that, I saw like 3 different butterflies. So I had my little Disney-princess moment. (And I realized, butterflies are kinda ugly, since they are hairy – lol.)

That’s about it from me. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: 1.5/10 bad. really good, actually. I don’t think, I’ve had any real thoughts about her. And also in the evening it was good. Actually kinda surprising, since I was so tired. But I take it.
• How was my day? 8.5/10. Really good. Can’t really complain.

Hello! Today, I woke up with a headache. Not too surprising after yesterday evening. So, in the morning, I just lied in the bed, and slowly drank some water.

For pretty much the rest of the day, I was watching YouTube. Not even planning my hiking-trip.

I watched a lot of videos about this animal sanctuary. I suspect, soon I’m gonna be (kinda) bored of volleyball (and most other things) since they feel super not-important. (Because it’s nothing compared to doing (animal-)care.)
Or to explain this with the love-hypothesis: The things I do, are not really “taking care of smth.” -> not love -> not important.

(In the afternoon, I helped my mom in the garden for a few minutes, and ate an apple – just to keep the logs “real” haha.)

So that’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care & I’ll see you then! Bye-Bye!

Hello! I’m kinda drunk, so don’t judge me too hard for this entry pwease

Today, I slept until like late, (~10:30) and then I got up, watched some things on my PC, and son on. You know – the usual stuff. Unfortunately, I didn’t really plan anything for my future hike, or this (journicle) website. Today, I watched a lot of the same content as yesterday. Some animal sanctuary; which I think is a cool project.

In the evening, though, I met with Josh, Pete, Yanis, respective girlfriends, and some more. We spent the evening, having a BBQ, and just spending some quality time together.
We talked a lot. Weirdly a lot about sex. Well not too weird, but still. Let me clear though; not too specific. More like, what special things we already did and shit; you know. So not too weird. Still, I think, mentionable by me!

Otherwise, I told them about my vacation week hiking in the mountains, so I can’t really ditch this now. Which I think is a good thing!

Yani’s GF and I were vibing, singing karaoke, and shits; while the others were playing some drinking game. LUL

Shortly after midnight, Yanis thought, it’d be a good idea to go home. Now, no-one else thought it’s time go home. But the thing is, he had to take the night-bus to go home (with his girlfriend). We actually tried to stop him, but we didn’t succeed :( (we locked the main door -> so eh “escped” through the window of a mate living there LOL.)

Anyway, we played some more games, talked some, and then eventually, we went home too.

So that’s all for today. Not too much, but I’m kinda drunk – you know. I’ll see you tomorrow. Take Care! Bye-Bye!

Hello! Since I went to bed super late yesterday (the sun was rising), I kinda overslept. Well, I was woken up, to for lunch.

Then for pretty much the remainder of the day I mostly watched YouTube. Don’t even really remember what I watched. Also, I solved lots of sudokus, just to let some time pass.
Also, I planned some more for my hike. I have my first 2 days pretty much planned through. But I’ll tell you, once I’m done.

At dinner, I was asked how my exam went -> I lied :( Bad me! But I quickly shifted the conversation. So I pretty much evaded it all. Phew

While planning for the hike, I realized, I’m good at planning when I know I have something to do soon. Like for example, short before dinner, I got into the zone. Or before, I thought:” Time to go to bed soon” and then I locked in for like 2 hours. Lol

That’s pretty much all that’s happened today. Not that crazy, I know! I’ll see you tomorrow. Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: 1.5/10 bad. Mostly good, just some thoughts here and there. Nothing “special” needs to be mentioned. (A little better than yesterday SUI)
• Shoulder pain: Didn’t call the physical therapist… Hurt a little today. So exactly like yesterday :facepalm: …
• How was my day? 7/10. I didn’t really do, what I had in mind, but it wasn’t bad either. Right now, it doesn’t feel bad at all, so yeah. Pretty good day I guess.

Hello! Today’s entry is a little chaotic. Anyway, here we go: I spent most of the day at home. I watched some YouTube, and did some (like 5 mins) of planning for my hike this summer. Also, in the evening, I cooked dinner for the family.

Then, after dinner, I went on a drive with my dad. And let me tell you, this was the worst drive I had in a long time. I couldn’t start for like 8 times. This is like 8 times more, than I had in my last 3 rides combined.
Also, I did the funniest thing when coming home. We were at home, and I had to park (obviously). Now, since we have 2 cars, one was already standing on the driveway. So I backed up in the driveway, missed it on the first try, (well, I was like half a meter off), so I had to adjust it. Then, I drove a little forward, and a little backwards, and then BUM. I drove into our other car. Luckily, I was only driving like 3 km/h then, so it didn’t damage any of the cars. It was funny though, since both, dad and I, were thinking, that I still had some room left. LOL.

While cooking (in the afternoon) I was thinking, about YouTube and shit (socialmedia). Now, I came to the conclusion, that you pay for this all, with your life. Well, more your lifetime (so in a way, with your life).
Then I thought, isn’t this the same for about everything in life? And yes, but it’s bad, since it’s a passive thing. That means, I don’t do anything.
(In a way it’s like buying a car, just for it to get rosty (passive thing). -> Bad investment, whereas if you use it (active thing), it’s actually a sensible purchase.)
So I came to the conclusion: Being alive => Doing active things.
So when I was done with that thought, I went to my room and looked at some YouTube. hahaha

But actually, I saw some interesting things on YouTube. I looked a lot of a channel called Alveus Sanctuary. Which is a animal sanctuary (-> they take care of animals, which cannot survive in the wild. For example, an over-bread snake, which only has one eye. And then they teach people about those animals, and what to do, or rather not to do.)
In the video linked (the one, where fanfan went), I thought, it was really cute, how she cried about everything. And I (think, I) kinda liked if my girlfriend would be like this.

Just a few moments ago, I took a shower, and I shaved my balls. I then had 2 realizations.
1. I think, I can see how good I’m feeling in the last few weeks, by looking, if I shaved. Since, when I’m down, I don’t shave. LOL.
2. I figured out a way to shave, to be faster and more thorough. This way might have been obvious to everyone, but now I did it too. Let me explain: Now, I shave in the shower -> I shave wet. (I use one of those Gillette blades, you know which one.) Up until today, I always went over the hairy place like 1-3 times, then get rid of the hair on the blade (by for example putting it on my other hand) and then back to cutting. So, today, I realized, if I just move the blade up-down-up-down and so on, the hair stays on the “top” and so the blade “cleans” automatically. So I was way faster that way. And since I went over every place multiple times, it was also cleaner. BOOM. From now on, you may call me the shave-master!

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care & Bye-Bye!

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Check-List Time

• Thinking about ex: 2/10 bad. Mostly good, just some thoughts here and there. Nothing “special” needs to be mentioned.
• Shoulder pain: Didn’t call the physical therapist… Hurt a little today. So exactly like yesterday :facepalm:
• How was my day? 6.8/10. Didn’t write the exam today -> made me a little sad, but wasn’t too bad. It helped, that I cooked dinner, and then also went on a drive with my dad. And also, the videos I watched on YouTube were some “with a purpose”, this makes me always feel a bit useful.