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Hello, today I’ll keep it short, since tired, and not late, so I might go to bed early.

Morning: Sex dream(?), don’t remember about what. Just know, it was some weirdish thing. Otherwise nothing special

Afternoon: At first, just chilling, then going out to play beach volleyball (at 5am) with Daniel, Emanuel and some more. Was (somewhat) fun. had a injured shoulder, got worse (unsurprisingly). Initially, wanted to go earlier, since Daniel just went to India, he didn’t catch the train -> I was too early -> had to wait 30 mins. He then told me, how India has been & even got me a chain as a present.

Evening: played beach volleyball until like 8pm. Then went to pick up some food and ate outside. Classic Döner Kebab evening.
Then got home at about 11pm.

As a small more precise mention: I talked with Emanuel about females, and of course my ex came up, but I don’t think, this damaged (bad word, for like negatively impacted me / my mood – have to check on this again tomorrow though) me. At least in the moment, it felt absolutely fine. Also, it wasn’t like embarrassing (which it usually kinda feels like) to talk about her. So that’s a step in the right direction. (I guess…)

Spent some time on PC, and now am writing this.

So that’s all. I’ll see you tomorrow! Take care and see you then! Bye-Bye!

My Day

Morning and Afternoon – Eating Big & Chilling

Hello There! Today, I saw a video, where they made fun of someone journaling with the line “Dear diary! haha”. So now I’m not writing dear diary anymore! :(

But what did I do today? Not too much. I slept until like 12. And then we had lunch at home. Usually, I can’t really eat, right after waking up. But today was different. I ate like a big boy (haha). That means like 4 sandwiches and 2 breads with jelly.

Then, in the afternoon, I just spent some time on my PC. Nothing that mentionable. My parents had some friends over (friends from my moms high-school time). It’s always somewhat funny with them. I can’t really put it into words, but yeah.

Dinner – Raclette

For dinner we had Raclette, which is always nice, but tomorrow, my tummy is gonna hurt in the morning. Well, only probably, since I didn’t eat too much.

Night – Watching Encanto

Then, after dinner I watched the movie “Encanto”. I fully embraced the movie watching. I even made myself some popcorn. (That means, I put a bag in the microwave.) Now to the movie:

This is a movie about a family, where everyone has a gift. For example, one is really strong, one has visions of the future, ones food heals wounds and so on. Except, the main character is the only one of the family who doesn’t have any such gift.
This gift is is dependent on the magic candle, which then gets really weak in the movie. So the main character has to save it.
Spoiler Alert: The solution is to love each other. So she has to make friends with her perfect sister (at least in the beginning).

What are the insights? Love is good! Nothing really new here. Also, it was nice, the really strong female had a song, where she said that sometimes she can’t lift more every time. Sometimes it’s too much load. Obviously not only physically speaking – but it was good, since she was the strong character.

There was also one scene, where I’ve seen Abuela’s past. She had to escape from her town with her husband and three babies, since they were attacked by thieves(?). Then these thieves were after them, and her husband sacrificed himself, so the others could get away.
In this scene, I imagined myself being the widow here. And I got some watery eyes. Which was quite surprising. I think, getting widowed it’s about the worst. Since: 1. in a relationship, you make the promise that you stay together forever. Now, if you get widowed, you made everything right (since neither broke up) but the worst still happened. So it’s a somewhat cruel fate from the universe. You do everything right, find the right partner, have it good, and then he dies. I think, this is even worse than being broken up with. Because like that, it was obviously not the correct partner (otherwise you wouldn’t break up). So then by death, all you did was right, but still. The worst outcome.

Now back to the movie review. They of course lose their power for a short time, but then in the end, they all get it back. I first thought, it would have been better, if they didn’t get their power back (because of consequences and so on) but then, it’s a children’s movie. So what can you really say?
Also, the main character didn’t get any power. Which I thought was really mean. I mean, of course, she saved the family through showing them, that love is what’s needed, but still. She was the one, who had to do all the things, and then, she was the worst off. Another kinda bad fate.

But the movie was good. 7/10. Not the best, but still good. Also had a few funny haha’s in it.

Drinking too much?

On a complete unrelated note: Today, I tracked how much water I drank. And it’s quite a lot. About 6 liters. And I didn’t do any physical activities. So I’m not too far off of my daily limit. I suspect, it’s because of the creatine, and the doing some lifting yesterday and the day before. So I guess, this is gonna go down in about a week.

That’s about all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow. Take care, and see you then! Bye-Bye!

My Day

Dear Diary! Today, I set an alarm for 9am to check, if I have to teach as a TA today. Now I didn’t see any new messages, so I thought, I’m fine out. But wouldn’t you know, I didn’t really look that good. (I also checked yesterday evening, but then I didn’t see the message either.) So I went back to sleep, and slept until 12 o’clock. And, of course then, I see the message… Shit. Well, happens. At least, someone still went.

Then in the afternoon, I corrected the students exercises. Nothing special here. Once I was done with that (at about 5pm) I spent some time on YouTube until dinner.

After dinner, I spent some more time on my PC, and then went to the gym. At first, I wasn’t sure, if I really wanna go, but then I knew, it’s now or never. So I did go. Today I trained legs. Which was a good choice, since my arms & shoulders were still a little sore from yesterday.

When doing squats, I felt really strong, so I went for a new pb. That is 95kg for 8 reps. I successfully did this, but once I got the bar off, it hit me. I got really dizzy, my vision on the periphery started to go blurry, and I started a little stumbling around. I then had to take a break for like 4 minutes where I just sat around and waited until it was over. Nonetheless, new pb! Soon I’ll squat 100kg (hopefully)!

Then I did some more leg exercises, and romanian deadlifts. There, I had the problem, that my grip wasnt strong enough. So for the first time, I got wrist straps to actually help me. (That means, I figured out, how to use them; haha)

Once I was back at home, I had a protein shake, spent some time on my PC, showered, and now I’m writing (to) you!
But in the shower, I had this memory of some female I’ve seen in the train come up. I thought she was really attractive. And I imagined dating her and shit. I even tried to talk myself into asking her for her number. But then, I remembered, that I was a pussy, so that’s not gonna happen (probably & sadly)…

That’s about all for today. Not the most interesting day – was a good day still. (Except the weather, since it was cold and rainy-ish.)
I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care and see you then! Bye-Bye!

My Day

Dear Diary! When I woke up, I made myself ready for uni and so on. Just the usual stuff. After my 1 hour complex analysis lecture, I went and asked the prof 2 questions about the exercises we have for next week (well, the week after, since next week are holidays). It turned out, I had made a mistake, so I had to solve most of the exercises again. I did that on my way home, since they weren’t that hard.

In the afternoon, I spent some time watching things and solving the rest of the exercises.

During most of the afternoon, I had a suspiciously high amount of energy. Because of that, I went to the gym in the evening. 2 things about that.
1. I had an arm workout. So first, I trained shoulder, then biceps, and then triceps. Now I used to only do one exercise for each muscle group, and then go to the next. But today (and probably in the future) I did three exercises per muscle group, with 4 sets per exercise. So that was really
2. You know the feeling, of not having energy after the gym. Now obviously I had that as well. But it was kinda strange, since my upper body and my legs were super relaxed, but I could hardly move my arms. I don’t think I’ve ever had it like that.

Then after the gym, I went home, took a shower, and then I watched some videos. Initially, I went home at like 11:15pm (or something like that), but now it’s already 2am. So another day, where I go to bed too late.

With that being said, that’s all for today. I’ll see you again tomorrow! Until then – take care! Bye-Bye!

My Day

It’s late again, So I try to be quick: Got up, and went to uni. I had one “question” where I did think, that the prof was wrong (he wasn’t) so I had -1. But then I answered the 2 other questions he had correctly. So all in all OK!

Then I went home for lunch, since I had already solved the exercises for this week. At home, we didn’t really have any food, so I made myself some hamburgers. That means, I roasted 2 beef-patties, prepared some slices of bread with pickle, and cheese, and ate that for lunch. I’m always surporised, how fast this is done. It only took about 20-30 minutes from beginning to cook, to being done with the dishes.

In the afternoon, I watched a lot of YouTube and Num3rs… Also, I thought about coding another program, where I’d de-blurr images. I already have an approximate idea on how to do it, but we’ll see. Maybe tomorrow(?).

At about 5pm, I went outside to have an ice. So I sat in the garden, and slurped away. Then my sister came to me, since she was smoking outside.
We talked a little bit, and then she asked me, when I started to appreciate beauty in such little things. And I didn’t really have an answer, so I said:” You know, a few days ago, I saw an kite (bird) outside, and I asked myself: ‘when was the last time, you imagined yourself being a bird’. For me, it’s at least a few years ago. And I think, this is kinda sad”.
So this was my intro to my philosophical… idek. Just thought, I’d mention it.

After that, I cooked dinner. I made a classic. Spaghetti bolognese. Nothing special. Today, the sauce was kinda watery. So I don’t know what’s up with that…

Anyway, after dinner, I did the dishes (alone) and after that, I went to my room, and watched some more of Numb3rs.
One time, they mentioned Network analysis. I thought this was a kinda interesting topic, so I googled it, and read a little bit about it. Not much yet, but maybe some more in the future!

Then, I took a shower, and now I’m writing (to) you. So that’s all for today. I hope I see you again tomorrow! Take care, and I see you then! Bye-Bye!

My Day

Dear Diary! Today was no special. I mostly spent time on my PC, watching a lot of Numb3rs and coding a little. I didn’t get that far with my coding project, but it’s gonna come, surely. Well, the next step would be, to have multiple cameras set up, and then work further from there. So there’s now a little break here…

Otherwise, in the afternoon, I went outside to have an ice. In the afternoon the clouds lifted mostly, so it was nice outside. I spent the first time (in quite a long time) looking at clouds far in the distance. I kinda missed that. All these details. These hills of clouds. Beautiful world. Also, the grass (or mostly flowers) in the garden looked really nice, since it rained a little, so now, everything is more green (saturated) than usual.

Usually, I do some uni-stuff on Monday, but today, I surrendered the deep learning lecture, since I couldn’t let it count for my degree. So now I definitely have to find (or a) new lecture, to which I can join from middle of the semester, and then take the final exam. Otherwise, I’d take too little courses this semester.

Ah, while watching Numb3rs, Charlie (the math guy) said: “You don’t know what it’s like, to have an idea so pure, that you can’t even put it in words. You just know that it’s right.” And this reminded me of the Tao. This is exactly like the Tao. (At least, that’s what I remember from the first poem which I read…) This was one of the first times, I really saw this applied to anything, except in the book Tao Te Ching.

So yeah. That’s about everything from today. Nothing more happened… Now, Imma take a shower, and then I’ll go to bed. And you; you do the same thing now! So sleep tight, don’t let the bed bugs bite; and I see you tomorrow! Bye-Bye!

Dear Diary! Today, I am tired, since it’s already too late. Why is it too late? I started a new programing project. Whats the goal? Basically, I saw this video, and now I’m trying to do something similar. Mainly, a program, that takes as input 2 (or more) cameras with their respective angles, and then determines the distance to certain objects. Only, I’m doing this a little more general than in the previously mentioned image. That means, I’m not simply taking the difference of this and the next image, but I search for points which are the same in both images, and then combining it like that.

Because of that, I’m keeping it rather short today (I think).

My Day

Morning: Wake up -> not hung over, so the salt-sugar drink maybe helped. I think, I added too much salt (I added 2 pinches) and too little sugar (I added about 3 pinches). But once I had it down (yesterday) it wasn’t that bad.

So this morning I spent just chilling. I woke up quite early (at like 9am – 6 hours of sleep). Oddly enough, I was motivated in spirit, but not in energy. So I spent most of the day just chilling on my PC.
I tried to finish the Sudoku from yesterday afternoon/evening, but then after 2.5 hours I realized, that I had made a mistake… So in the end, I didn’t manage to solve it.

Otherwise I saw some more videos. One was about comparing American (US and Canada) ski-resorts to European ones. One new thing for me was, that it costs like 3 times the amount per day, compared to Europe.
Also, I learned, that in north US the tree-line is higher up than in Europe. I didn’t really think, that that would happen. So that was kinda interesting.

Also, I spent some time looking at new clothes to buy. Did find a few, which I’ll probably order tomorrow.

In the evening, Jerry (foster brother) came over to have dinner with us. (Since his girlfriend / roommate is on a vacation in Colombia.) We talked quite a bit, but nothing that special. But it always makes me happy, when he comes over. Obviously.

Once he was gone, I went back to my room, watched some numb3rs and chilled for a little more. Today, I realized, that they are really honest about how they feel. I actually kinda like that. So I hope, I can be more like that too. Also, they really observantly realize how they feel. Which of course is also quite nice. It obviously makes it easier, that it’s a TV-series, but still. I’ll try to be a little more like that!

Then I started to program my above mentioned thing. And yeah. Now I’m here.

Looking back, at what I wrote, it’s more than expected. So you have more to read – how nice! But that’s all for today! I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care and see you then! Bye-Bye!

P.S. I am now in bed, typing on my phone, since before I forgot to mention this. Whem I was in the shower, I had a sudden “sad-attack”. Not too bad, but still. A bummer…

I then got out of it by wanking with a funny scene in my head. At first, I was this masseur, massaging the hot female. But that didn’t really do the trick, so I switched it up. About 2 weeks ago, I went to foctor for a ultrasound. I had this somewhat hot doctor. But she explain really nicely what she did, so that made her a little hotter. Now in my “fantasy”, when she wiped the gel (from the ultra sound) off of me, she went quite low. Which *hot*! Then she pulled her hand back, but I said, I think there’s more down there. So she went back, and from here on, I think you know what happened.

Kinda embarrasing to tell, but afterwards, I found it really funny, so it helped me break out of the sad-attack.

But now that’s all for real! Sleep tight!

My Day

Dear Diary! Today, I hardly did anything. I planned to meet some friends in the evening, otherwise, nothing really…

So, in the morning, I slept until late, and then I spent some time watching YouTube. During this time, I’d say, I got the “flame” back, to playing volleyball. That means, I watched some volleyball matches, and it got “my blood pumping”. This was a nice feeling!

In the afternoon, I cycled to the nearest grocery store to buy some meet for dinner. So I spent some time outside. Now, the weather wasn’t as nice as I’d hope, but still warm and not rainy. So that’s just fine by my standards!

Otherwise, I watched some Numb3rs and I tried to solve a few Sudoku. But these weren’t normal Sudokus but from dailykillersudokus.com . Especially this one. I tried it (passively) for about 2 hours, but still couldn’t solve it. But it was something to do (at least).

Initially, we planned to meet at 6pm. Since I can track Josh (with “Find My” – Apple user), I checked where he was. And he was still about an 3/4 hour drive away… So I spent some more time trying to solve the Sudoku and watching Numb3rs.

Then, once my episode was over, I took my bicycle and went to Pete (and his apartment). It was actually quite funny. Since like 1 minute before I arrived there, they called josh to know when he’d be there. And in this call, Josh said that I should arrive soon, and exactly in that moment I rang the bell. So perfect timing.

Once we were all there, Pete and Jones told us about their vacation. They went to England and Scotland for 3 weeks. To visit some cities and to interrail to some places. They told us, what they’ve done and so on.

Then, we had a BBQ, talked some, and played some card games. It was a fun evening. Just a calm evening with the boys.

Then, at about 1:20am Josh and I were the last ones to leave and we also went home. Now, I’m writing (to) you. Soon, I’ll take a shower, and then go to sleep.

Just before, I asked Chat-GPT if there was an amazing anti-hangover drink. And it replied with “Just water with a little bit of salt, and a little bit of sugar”. So now I’m trying this, and I’ll tell you tomorrow if it worked especially well or bad. If there’s no extreme, I’ll probably forget (just so you know that).

So that’s all for today! I’ll see you again tomorrow! Until then and Bye-Bye!

My Day

Morning – Chilling

Dear Diary! Today, I woke up -> spent some time on my PC watching stuff and double checking my math things I did yesterday (found 1 small mistake) -> Lunch

Afternoon – Trying to Explain Math, Gym & Helping to Cook

After lunch, I tried (once again) to explain to my dad some math things (with infinity) and he didn’t agree(?). Which is always quite funny. Because I try and try to explain it to him, but he just doesn’t agree.

Then, at 2pm I went to the gym with Josh. I did squats, low row, and bicep curls. So basically the same as last time. Hopefully tho, I don’t get as sore muscles as last time. My squat today was actually quite good. I had some warmup, 1×10 with 80kgs, and 2×8 with 90kgs. I’m quite proud with that.
For squat, my next goal is 100. Which, maybe I am even able to do that right now. Didn’t dare to try yet…

After that, I went home, had a protein shake, and from then on spent some time on my PC. I had a small PC break when I had an ice outside. Then, I felt kinda sad going back inside again, but I didn’t know what to do outside…
Also, at about 6pm, my mother called me, and then I helped her prepare dinner. We made a pasta-salad, and then had a BBQ with that.

Evening – Floriography

In the evening I watched more YouTube. Specifically, I watched A Goodwin TV’s reaction to Spy x Family. And then in the comments I learned about floriography. Which is the communicating in/with flowers.

For example, if you gift someone red roses, this means love and so on (we all knew that). But if you gift someone white roses, this means “no”.
Now if you want to get a specific message across, you can create your bouquet of flowers in a way, so that each flower balances out the others, and then you have a (somewhat) clear thing. So in some sense, this is like a secret language. (Obviously, this is all about love stuff and so on; but still interesting.)
I’ll definitely keep this in mind, the next time I’m going to buy flowers.

Also, this triggered a memory of my deceased grandma from fathers side. Since she always had a specific flower she mentioned. This being Myosotis, or better known as “forget-me-nots”.
The meaning of this flower is (obviously) “don’t forget me” – which I didn’t. Specifically this helped me think of her. This made me quite happy.

Night – Shower -> Going to Bed

Now just before I took a shower, which went on for way too long. Nearly an hour. TBH, I feel kinda bad about that. Nonetheless, it’s in the past, and we can’t change it now…

So that’s all for today! I’ll see you again tomorrow! Take care and until then! Bye-Bye!